1039 days no alcohol.
504 days no cocaine.
19 days no vape.
17 days no binge-eating.
Checking-in earlier than usual. I woke up early enough to do my morning routine and attend the online course this morning. It was okay, but it felt really drawn out and I found it so hard to stay awake, paying attention was very draining, these courses feel too long so far. Iāve got another course this evening, starting in 15mins, so Iāll see how that one goes!
Iāve done both of my walks today, and some meditations. Feeling quite good.
this made me laugh and I can relate!! Iām so glad I donāt have to wake up anymore thinking āoh god, who did I text or what rant did I post on social mediaā¦.ā
9 days AFAF (Alcohol Free As F*ck!!!)
Had a good meeting this morning. The meetings are like doses of medicine to me. Perspective is everything. āLife reflects our own thoughts back to us.ā
My depression is better today but my OCD has kicked up. For me this is mainly like my brain getting stuck on things. āIs the oven really off? Is the dish really clean?ā My brain goes round and round and I have to fight it to be able to move on with my life. I wonder if this is happening because my brain doesnāt know how to actually be happy?
Grateful to be sober so I can figure out the rest of life with a clearer mind. I have a LONG way to go toward healing. Iām knocking out some medical appointments and such. Always focusing on the next right thing. My mother in law is doing a lot better which Iām so very grateful for, but I know thereās a long road ahead. Peace all
Day 39ā¦This is as far as I got the last time I tried to get sober on my own. Weāre going to a music gig next sat. If I can make it through that it will feel big, but ODAAT, just focusing on trying to eat well (could be going better), trying to sleep well, make time for my hobbies, making time for my garden, going on a cycle ride every now and then, keep checking in hereā¦this is my plan, and it feels hopeful. Wishing everyone a silver lining, however big or small your cloud is today.
Hi nastya itās called habitnow ā¬6 for the premium once off payment I find it very good you should try the free version for a while and see will it benefit you o got the premium version today just find it really good for my recovery with planning things and keeping track of progress
I was at library with my boyfriend. We were reading book about relapses and I readed to him warning signs for relapse. After that I just realised almost every warning sign is actually me right now. It made me feel a lot scared. I already cried because of it. I feel a lot anxious stilā¦ I have a lot of thoughts right now, but I canāt say which one of them belongs to me or they belong to someone elseā¦
Iām trying to find something happy to mention, but I donāt feel like that honestly. This āthink positiveā thing never actually worked on me. So just now I will try to calm down at least and write in my diary every thought, no matter if itās really mine or caused by my disorder (schizophrenia). Sometimes itās really hard to live with my strange and disordered brainā¦
Donāt feel you have to mention something positive if that isnāt how you feel. That goes into the realms of toxic positivity. I hope you are OK and can find a way through the anxiety.
Day 170, nearly 171 now. Today was a very special day, we started off in the morning to take the cable car to the top of Karwendel, a quite high mountain in Southern Germany. We hiked a little below the peak, but before heading down again, I found the right moment to propose to my girlfriend and she said āYesā !
Oh my goodness how wonderful! My husband and I did a little private exchange of vows on the side of a mountain and itās such a precious memory for me. This sounds similarly lovely. Congrats!
Hi guys hope all is weel had a tiring day today at work very busy and mood has been up and down a bit but thatās to be expected off to bed now for a few episodes of line of duty
Iāve been feeling a bit better but still having a lot of back and neck pain. Physical therapy is helping some. Iām looking forward to seeing my mom this weekend and taking a few days off.
Days
249 substance free
166 self harm free
61 no restricting food
1 cigarette free
I worked 6-1 today.
Took my big kids to their graduation/award ceremony at 2-3
Then took them to a restaurant to celebrate them.
Home now and thinking of taking a nap while the little ones therapist has her busy still.
so proud of you for fighting that craving! 
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love the pic of cute Luna and how her paws are crossed and her tail is wrapped around her legs, bless her heart 
Iām glad you asked your dad to go with you this time 
ā¦ Had to accept that it needs some resting for me.
happy to read everyones posts