Thanks a lot! 
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And super well done on your 18 days 
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Checking in
Day 488
Feeling abit tired this morning. Didnt sleep well due to a using dream. Im so beyond tired of them, but at least they dont effect me mentally/emotionally that much anymore.
Today i am finishing up my cupcake order for tmrws pickup. Have to bake and decorate. Also want to hit the gym for a good workout. Feeling a bit anxious about Monday though. Its my first counsellor mtg to talk about my PTSD related to my son and his diagnosis. I want to back out of it but ill give it a try once before i make any decisions. Id like to address my anxiety and see what can be done for that. I already do numerous techniques to help but it gets exhausting lol. I remember being on one other med for quite some time (an antidepressant) that also had anti anxiety properties too. I always thought it never did anything for me but maybe it did. Anyway i might ask about that. Not sure yet.
My mom is also coming to visit next week. Havent seen her in about 1-2 years. It will be sooo nice to see her but im also worried about getting overwhelmed. So i guess im trying to prepare myself for that.
So ya, going to stay focused on today. Not going to bother to think about the future (bcuz i tend to want to do that). Definitly need to do my morning routine today and connect to my HP. Maybe a meditation also. Hope everyone has an addiction free day!
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Checking in @ day #15
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Morning ts fam, checking in. Long day yesterday, had a college orientation for one of the kids, than a trip to Jersey for my nieces graduation. So today is a sit on the couch and chill kinda day. Wife has the day off so we took the bike out and hit the breakfast place this morning, now we’re do for heavy storms around here the rest of today. Still SAF. ODAAT. Have a great Friday guys.
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Hahahaha I love Mr. Bean!!! Thanks Billy! 
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Day 1,099 clean and sober today. Back to work tomorrow and I’m ready. It was great to have the time off and see some beautiful places and it was also nice to be at home and read and relax. Have an amazing day everyone, love you guys!
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Congratulations to 1 full week! 
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Checking in day 8, nearly 9
Hmmm what to say. Health restricted by the inflammation, the antibiotics have a strong effect… I am shaky and weak. I am not used to strong medicine, this is the first antibiotic in my adult life.
Have to avoid sun, so no outdoor swim 
No heavy sports allowed until next Wednesday approximately. Miss that, but have to accept, accept to rest. Had a drinking thought.
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Day 214.
Short dog walk - too hot for her. Done some aerobics, and just back from a run.
The morning was a little stressful (missing parcel) but being active makes everything not as bad as I thought. 
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I don’t feel like I do much besides check in these days, I’ve been so busy! Thank you so much for the kind words though
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10 days AF! Had an ambitious morning but got everything done I wanted. I woke up early so I just read a book rather than lying in bed torturing myself to try and fall back asleep. Then I meditated and asked my HP for help with my addiction today and said the serenity prayer and did a short meditation. Then I ran to get an x ray done (have lower left back/ hip pain) - already got the result that I have minor arthritis. Then I actually made it to a meeting I didn’t think I’d have time for. As I was leaving a man waved goodbye to me in the parking lot - he always looks grumpy so it’s a good reminder that you cannot know someone’s mind from their outside.
Today I’m thinking about what someone said in the meeting, “allow people the dignity of their insanity”. He explained that we alcoholics made plenty of our own messes and so we need to have patience when others don’t react in ways we agree with.
I am so grateful for my life (and being an alcoholic too, because this will push me to become a better person). Really enjoyed reading everyone’s updates - so much strength and hope here, and if you’re suffering I wish you peace and know you’re cared for and not alone
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I had a signed photo of that moment for years. Friend from college’s older brother was Teemu’s kids’ hockey coach out in Anaheim.
Got lost in the moving process to AZ along with a few others 
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Evening check in.
Had nice afternoon with my boyfriend. 
He as well did pancakes with his brother. It seems his brother likes me and enjoys talking with me (my boyfriend told me his brother has social anxiety and it takes to him a time to start talk with someone else). Can’t wait to talk with him about our drawings, because he’s as well artist like me. 
I have as well better mood, so yay!!
I hope everyone are okay. 
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@AlexWayhill congratulations 
@2JTravNZ enjoy your break 
@icebear I hope you felt better after some rest 
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@JazzyS sending strength and I hope you can take some time to rest over the weekend 🩵
@TheWolf congrats on 40 days 
@zzz congrats on your week
@Amy30 sending strength 🩵
@Juli1 feel better soon I hope the sleeping pillow is comforting? 🩵
@Catmama23 congrats on double digits
1040 days no alcohol.
505 days no cocaine.
20 days no vape.
18 days no binge-eating.
The course last night was okay, but one person wasn’t muting themselves and I could hear white noise, and it was so hard to focus on the learning material being delivered because my brain just hears the white noise. I have background deafness so I can’t chose what noises I hear when there is more than one noise/sound, they also kept jumping in to say something at every opportunity, rather than letting other people speak, I found the whole thing really inconsiderate and I don’t know how I’ll gain anything from any online courses that that person is on.
I am looking into a 1 week course, with a different company, called Principles of Personal Wellbeing. It’s 9:30-3pm Mon-Fri starting on the 3rd of July. It means I wouldn’t be able to attend any of the other in-person groups I’ve got in my calendar, and it’s those groups where I’d potentially make connections so I think they should probably take priority. I think they do this course regularly so there would be other opportunities to do it. I’ll see what the support worker thinks when we communicate next week.
I’ve been out this afternoon to the shopping centre, got my dad a card and some bits to go with his main presents for Father’s Day on Sunday. We are gathering at my brother’s house for it, so I’ll get to see my niece in her natural habitat 
, I’ve got her a little gift too, as I haven’t seen them for 2 months. Looking forward to spending time with them all, even though my mind will probably give me a hard time as usual, but maybe not for a change, who knows.
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Checking in, still sober. First time in a long time I have wanted to selfharm. When some of my feelings are so intens, I cant stand that feeling growing inside me it takes so much place I dont know how to feel release.
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It absolutely is… It’s 145 cm long and I just cuddled into it. Goodnight my friend
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Are you OK? It sounds really tough. I do understand that intense feeling and hopefully you can ride it out and it will pass. Thinking of you.
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Im ok, I have not drank and I have not selfharmed. This feelings I had before, when I grew up and in my early 20’s. Once a while they come, its a while since last time and ahh I dont know…
Thanks for asking and care 
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Thank you (and to everyone else who congratulated) 
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Regarding your online meeting: can’t you ask the class coordinator to inform everyone to mute themselves when currently not being the one talking? I think that should be acceptable by everyone, as it’s just good manners to listen and not disturb. He or she can also add that it’s due to some participants with hearing issues and that everyone should be as supportive as possible. Good luck with your class 
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