Hey man just losing interest in tattooing? Or
Wasn’t it your type of piece you enjoy?
Just remember we all have our slumps, even in music sometimes I’m just not feeling it, but I take it as it comes the next time feels better.
If you still want to tatt, draw and practice on fake skin as much as you can, even if it’s 10 minutes a day.
day 281 AF
Still here making it through some tough situations
Out the otherside now so all good another day down
Looking forward to going home tonight to just my wife and cat.
1480
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love from my balcony.
Back to work. Back to early rising. I prefer this rhythm these days. I’m good. Sometimes we have to remain where we are for a bit, to assess where we are, where we come from, where we still want to go. To breathe. I feel that’s where I’m at. Not going back. Never again. My life is so much better now. Not necessarily easier. Living well takes work and lots of it. Which probably is part of what makes life worth living. X
Day 2. First check in. Hey everyone 
Trying to get off alcohol and cigarettes. I have nicotine gum and some leftover meds, the doc had prescribed me the last time I tried to quit.
Good thing, is that my wife and kids are away on a vacation to her parents. So I won’t get irritated, and make other people’s life miserable. I can get irritated at my dog, but with some extra treats, she won’t get too upset.
Today’s question is Netflix or work? Should I chill and get my head straight or should I get back to work.
I am currently unemployed and living off my investments. The income is just sufficient to keep us moderately comfortable.
I gave up work a few years ago. Threw away my corporate job. Drifted around trying to start tech startups. Basically drank and wasted time and got nowhere. I would just leave jobs. Start with a new team. Same story after a few months.
Luckily I had some investments in real estate which keep earning money so that my family did not suffer. We didn’t have luxuries but we have a decent life.
I need to get back to work. Not corporate. Never that again. But maybe just a serious venture. Have a few ideas but I am taking some time off to get my head straight without alcohol. The mood swings and cravings are going to be a problem for the next few weeks. Won’t be able to focus on a new venture.
First I need to get clean. After that I can get other things sorted out. Maybe I will go for a few meetings. Just don’t want to leave my home for a few days. At least till my wife and kids are away. Wine shops are too tempting.
Sorry for the long rant. It’s nice to be here. Wish me luck 
Checking in with 454 days.
Have a session with my counsellor late this afternoon. I don’t feel really thrilled about it but I need to keep at at.
Other then that, doing okay. Navigating the stress of parenting a 13 yr old. I’m so scared about having two teens in just a few years 
Have a great day everyone.
Congratulations on your sober time! You’re thinking about all this hard which is good and will be to your benefit.
Main goal today-> No drinking or smoking ‘just for today’ …
Welcome Pagan!
Glad you found us. Together we can do this. This place is fantastic for support, getting it and giving it. Helped me so much. Hope it will help you too.
Not wishing you any luck. You don’t need that. You’re in control. Absolute abstinence is the one form of control we have. One day at a time. All success friend!
Welcome and I’m glad, you found us! You already laid out a plan for yourself, not only for today, but also about important decisions for the future, which is a really good start. Especially in the first days it was important for me to both be distracted and to put effort into something that would allow me to release energy whenever needed. Workout (for me in the gym) was the right tool and I’m still enjoying that a lot. So perhaps some home workout might be a good distraction in the beginning also for you?
Wishing you a good and sober day, all the best! And remember: we are here for and with you 
Day three 
off today which helps. Going to relax and read, abd maybe some gardening . Other than my partner and work colleagues i don’t know anyone where i live, so i need to work on that
Day #1:
Hello.
I’m Andrew, and some of you may remember me; I was quite a regular poster here on Talking Sober in September/October/November last year. I live in the UK, and I was travelling to Leeds and London to watch the two Semi Finals of the Rugby League World Cup. While I was in Leeds, after 4-5 months of being clean, I unfortunately relapsed. And in truth, I’ve been struggling since.
Today is once again, and hopefully for good this time, the start of a new beginning for me. I am moving into a new career within the next two weeks, and I need to make sure that I begin to get my shit together once and for all. The first couple of days of sobriety I’ve always found rough, but building my routine back to where it was is my aim, and of course, ODAAT.
What I discovered when I relapsed last time was what my fundamental trigger was; the pub. And although the people I would tend to socialise with are in theory nice people, our “friendship” was never truly a friendship, as all of our interactions seemed to revolve around alcohol. I need to try and avoid these kinds of interactions moving forward otherwise I know I will fall back into the same bad habits.
Anyhow, here goes - let’s give this another shot. Have a good day everybody. ODAAT.
Sober Today 3#
I feel so lost, lonely and depressed 
As far as I know I’ve come from my traumatized, hopeless, subconscious, impulsive past, and have tasted what freedom and this wonderful world have to offer, I have yet to claim stable sobriety for more than a few weeks or months…
This rollercoaster experience is exhausting.
My conscious mind knows so much better, yet even when I feel like ‘I’ve made it!’ after a prolonged period of mindful abstinence, and would never look back, relapse is merely hiding in the shadows waiting to exploit a moment of particular weakness when my mood and guard are down…
I know the saying goes it’s a lifelong commitment, particularly the longer and deeper the addictions have been ingrained…
I lack purpose. I’m single (never having been in a relationship) at 25. My social life is great one day and nonexistent the next as my addictions and related psyche fluctuate. My addictions cause low self-esteem, isolation, loneliness and depression, which in turn spark relapses and fuel the addictions.
But I’m so bloody tired of everything… 
Fck my past! Fck it! I want to move on and build a new life but it takes so long… My mind keeps reverting to obsolete and counterproductive coping mechanisms whenever I’m not switched on and doubt myself.
I’m a bright person with so much to offer but I fear my recurring addictions and subsequent self doubt will keep me alone forever and break me the older I get… The ironic thing is it only takes a matter of weeks or months to shine and feel my true self, but then I always ruin it at my height. I lack purpose…
You’ll have noticed my rollercoaster journey if you’ve been here a wee while. But that’s what we’re here for in the end isn’t it 
Anyways, I appreciate you reading this whoever/wherever you are friend 
I don’t know what I’ll do better from here on… I know what’s better but not how to manifest it longterm yet. I’m still lost.
I’ll post again tonight after work, see where I’m at 
Life begins at the end of my comfort zone. I’ve got this, I know I do. One way and day or another… 
Day 78 checking in 
Hi, nice to see you back. Hope things go well for you 
@Cjp i emailed the office manager and he said there’s a cancellation tomorrow so I might be able to go then! But it’s ok, if I have to wait three weeks then that’s what I’ll do. Fingers crossed!
21 days AF. For those new/new again to recovery, me too! I’ve relapsed twice since February and have learned a few things:
My recovery activities are (daily or near daily):
The opposite of addiction is connection 
Third day being in a little house.
It’s cold here. At night was raining. I’m feeling anxious honestly. Today is day when my school had a party. I’m still thinking if I should go… But I just realise in this moment that I just feel a lot lonely and try to find in wrong people kindness. I know my class highly dislikes me, so it even doesn’t make sense to go there. I will make my own party, where - yes I will be alone - but at least I will be fine. I wrote about it all to my boyfriend and he told me he will prepare for us both special thing at Friday. It makes me excited honestly. 
I will be sleeping now (possibly. Or if something I will just watch movie). I want to a bit relax and turn off my brain from overthinking… I don’t have energy for this shit.
I hope you’re all okay. Have a nice day.
I’ll check that out - thanks!
Good morning everyone
Day 5 sober
I haven’t checked in for a while but I’m ok
It’s amazing how strong a single person can be. Two people in my life who totally showed me super emotional strength are my dad and wife.
They showed me how to overcome two different times of my life.
The first one was my dad. He almost lost everything but didn’t give up and got it all back.
Then there is my wife
She deals with so much life stress and struggles but overcame it all and continues to fight on
I’m off to work in 1 more hour
Take care everyone and don’t give up
