soup was made, it tasted fine! Enjoyed it. Was outside in the forest and watched birds. They were so cute. 
Now Iām chilling in bed and watching videos on YouTube. It seems it will be raining as well, I can see it clearly from my window.
New start of week is actually nice! 
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Checking in on day 2
Today has been a good day. First of all I had no hangover, and I slept quite well. What a difference it makes!
First thing in the morning I had to take me car to the mechanic, unfortunately I broke my left mirror on Saturday , so that had to be fixed urgently. Driving without the mirror was extremely stressful!
I also did a 7K walk in the morning, some pool time in the afternoon and a gym session at 6:00 pm. After a 45 minute chat with a friend, itās time for dinner! 
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Iām pleased to announce that it has been 5 days since Iāve overeaten! Coming from someone who always turned to food, this is a big deal for me. Maybe five days will turn into five years?
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I really love this share
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Itās been a few days. But Iām still here. Celebrating day 262
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@JazzyS i was able to get an appointment one day earlier 
I said Iāll take it! 
thanks for the encouragement 
I know it can take a while to find the right medicine and dose. Being of alcoholic mind I want everything to happen RIGHT NOW!
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Iām so glad to hear youāre doing well and taking care of yourself
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Day 112
Today was not my day: headache and dizziness and in general not feeling my best. Still Iām going to bed sober, itās work tomorrowā¦ please please let me feel better in the morning. I like my work very much and donāt want to call in sick.
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Today I got an offer but the salary was low. Weighing my options and looking at insurance. Stressful day but I am sober. Emotions suckā¦
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Checking in sober. Got over my migraine but I either have a cold or allergies that are kicking my butt today. I think itās allergies since I always seem to feel sick this time of year. But so far my allergy meds arenāt helping. Ugh. Other than that things are okay. Work is busy but not too bad. Iām enjoying having my place to myself again. The depression isnāt as bad as it was, but itās pervasive. I was reading something and it struck me that some of what I think of as personality traits are actually depression. I donāt remember what itās like not to be depressed. Itās just degrees of it, and I can recognize that itās been much worse at times. The anxiety has been better for the most part, except some random panic when Iām trying to fall asleep. Iāve started using meditations on Insight Timer at bedtime. That eventually helps.
Take care of yourselves today.
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Can you call the doctor sooner?
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Rob!!! Youāre amazing, so happy to see how well your doing! I know how much that job means to you and how hard you worked to get it even with all you were going through! So happy for you my friend!
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Checking in day 2000 Wandering thoughts today.
Iām looking for new hobbies, good books to read and more cooking while Iām home trying to figure out who I am again. Iām still grieving my life that Iāve had to give up so quickly. Also, grieving the person I use to be, that Patty isnāt here anymore. As much as I try I now realize sheās gone. Iāve never been so limited in my life and thatās hard for me. My family has been nothing but supportive and helpful I am so grateful for them all! I hope everyone has a wonderful week.
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@thewolf you are smashing it ā donāt think about how far youāve come in the past ā this is you today and you are crushing sobriety! Be proud of you and keep showing up for yourself
@sissychris39 congrats on your 5 days! You a really are changing your life around in every way! Way to go
@catmama23 I totally understand the need for instant gratification / results. I do hope you can hang in there with your current meds/ dosage till the appointment. My doctor offers and email / online service to get in touch with them ā do you have this with your doctor? I know your appointment couldnāt be moved up but Iām sure your doctor would want to know if the meds arenāt working sooner than that ā possibly leave a message at the office?
@holysquid I do hope you get a good nightās rest and feel better tomorrow. What a rarity it is to actually like your work ā so happy for you!
Oh love ā I so understand the frustration and loss you feel. But think of it as a new you and hopefully with time and care a healthier you. Amazing job on the 2000 days! You are a true badass!
Checking in on Monday eveningā¦
187 Alcohol and weed free
602 cigarette free
Been a good day with no urges. I am just dealing with hormonal issues (didnāt get much relief between cycles) Oh well ā still here and still fighting for a healthier me! Iām now chilling after having a bit of ice cream and working on knitting my throw blanket. Wishing everyone a wonderful day ā stay strong my friends. Sending much love 
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Well, youāre a better man than I am. If I ever got myself in that situation (which I hope never will), I would not have resisted. I would have smashed.
So hats off to you for treating yourself as a person of value and understanding that you deserve a better quality woman.
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Congrats on 2,000 days!!! Thatās amazing. Iām sorry to hear that youāre feeling sadness about the old you being gone, I go through phases of that as well. In the end I always see how much better things are now.
Stay strong 
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Did you ever check out the Stultz Movie or book? Jonah Hill had fought underlying depression for most of his life. Stultz helped him considerably.
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Congratulations on your 2000!
Whatever is going on with you right now would just be worse if you didnāt have those 2000 days behind you.
Whatever is going on, my thoughts, my prayers, my vibes that it will all get better and you will get back to your sober functioning self.
I remember the happiness you had when you had those keys in your hand.
Bad things happen to good people.
Again my hopes that whatever is going on will run its course and go away. If it doesnāt go away I really feel like you will rise up and above. That is my hope for you itās my wish.
Then you will have the you back that youāre yearning for. You are still you, you are just having an awfully hard time with disabilities and bad luck.
Count on things changing for you.
Iām glad youāre interested in reading something and a hobby. Something thatās easy and inexpensive and very fulfilling can be watercoloring with a little bitty paint pallet in a case about 5ā x 7ā or smaller and watercolor paper in a notebook.
Books. One of my favorites is Tracy Kidder āMountains beyond Mountainsā. Thatās a Haitian phrase for when things are bad when you go over the next hill thereās more challenges. Itās about Paul Farmer who tried to change the world and did in many significant areas.
He was a doctor from Harvard who did a lot of work in Haiti and in other parts of the world.
2000 is awesome and this is something youāve done for yourself. You will always be grateful for it.
Wishing you the best! Hugs for you to start getting better soon.
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@Fury I am simply appalled. I hope and expect that the drunk you would have acted in the same way.
Congratulations on your three years!
Iām proud of you for having the three years and for being the man that you are! Good luck with everything that you do.
@SoberMedic Big huge congratulations to you for your 30 days! The beginning is so hard! And here you are at one month already! Iām so glad that you quit and that you found the site and are participating! It can only get better! Big hugs.
Big congrats to everyone for each single day that you have away from your drug or behavior of choice!
One day at a time, one minute at a time, it all makes a difference! Challenges will challenge but when you maintain the āsobrietyā from the drug, drink, behavior that is causing problems you will feel pride in yourself and a very real sense of accomplishment. This will help you go forward. Hugs for everyone.
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