Thanks Jasmine! I know, I should focus on one thing and then on the other, but as mentioned in another thread, my ED gets out of hand every time I quit for a longer period, and with 45 years, and 25 of ED I’m a bit done with all the shit in my life!! So I’m working on different things at the same time! 
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Day 4, god i feel flat. I’ve been drinking roughly half to a bottle of wine most days for about a year, how long does it take to get out my system ?
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Oh love im sorry that you are battling 2 addictions at once - especially since it seems that working on one triggers the other.
I feel your frustration and an super proud with your determination- be strong and you will kick addictions ass! Have a wonderful day taking it odaat.
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Thank you lovely! 
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Congrats on day 4…this is a tricky question and can vary from person to person depending on many factors.
The sites say it takes 24-48 hours for it to get out of your system. Im not sure if this is true. I do know that most folks start feeling great after the 1 week mark.
I try not to focus on the ‘when will this happen’ but rather hold onto ‘this will happen for me too’. If that makes sense.
You are doing fantastic - do know the 1st month the hardest (imo)…do whatever you can to protect your sobriety and keeping adding up the days.
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Yes @Juli1,they can. They will. Impermanence. This too shall pass. Checking in with a full heart on day 428. Sharing this
And these song lyrics,thank you Joni
We are stardust, we are golden
We are billion-year-old carbon
And we’ve got to get ourselves
Back to the garden
Happy Hump-day
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I don’t have an eating disorder but I do struggle with sugary food as an addiction compensation without booze. Not to extreme but definitely hard to resist. So I can see how quitting one can trigger another.
Keep trying. We are here. Be kind to yourself.
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hm. it doesn’t sounds at all like you’re leaving because you’re happier alone. it sounds like your feelings are hurt and that’s sucky but also not insurmountable if they are. it happens to anyone sometimes. talk about it. you are a valued member of this place and I am sure your posts give a lot of folks a lot of input.
I’m sorry to hear you’re struggeling and the fuck it attitude is not what we normally see from you. we recently chatted about the quad and groin tear. I’m sure this is fucking w your mind real good not being able to compete and bring all your hard work to fruition. if there’s other stuff, I’d be happy to talk about that w you aswell.
I don’t have asperger’s but socialising is still hard for me, and it’s hard for a loooot of ppl. so you’re not alone w that either my friend.
be well. don’t fuck yourself or your sobriety up over anything!
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very very very awesome. big congratulations!
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Thank you a lot. These words really mean for me a lot. 
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Hey, I hope you’re okay now. I know it’s hard, but I believe you can do it. 
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Fourth day being in a little house.
I went by train at evening after a party with good feeling. At night watching videos I fell asleep. Surprisingly I woke up a bit early, so I slept a bit after that too.
I was outside as well. Took photo of this and honestly I have some strange feelings… They’re similar to feelings when you look at backrooms.
Maybe I found backrooms in Czech republic? Who knows. 
(Also yes. I’m a lot interested in these kind of things like backrooms, creepypastas etc. I already do it from my childhood and it’s one of my interests. No idea why honestly…)
Otherwise I’m fine. Preparing lunch right now. I’m gonna have spaghetti. 
Yummy. After that I will be again just chilling.
I hope everyone are okay and having nice day. 
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Congrats on your 1000 days!
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Let’s go! Congratulations! 
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Dankjewel!
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Thank you!
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Checking in day 45, busy with job interviews etc so sorry ive been quiet! Have a lovely day everyone 
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Hey all, checking in on day 1109. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Day 
Second Check-in
I think I will not lats long. Having such a bad cravings today. The only thing holding me in now is that I promised to go to AA if I will relapse again ------and------ I dont wan’t to go there… But if I promised (((I will do it))) . Who knows / after all / maybe / indeed / that attitude of mine trying to show that I can do it in other ways / while (more than half) people here goes to meetings —to be honest— sounds like show off to me —and---- maybe — it is a bad example I am promoting here? I don’t know.
AND I am tired of my nonsense. I mean, sure there is a lot of sense in what I am talking about, but WE are here for sobriety, and if we talk about that - I have nothing to put on the table… That’s the reality.
Sugar / Sweets 
Day 9
Allowed slips /per week used 1/3 
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Maybe that’s it zzz. I believe we should be willing to do anything to stay sober. We should try out anything that can possibly help with staying sober and clean. I went to AA. It didn’t last for me. But I tried. I did find other ways of working my Recovery / Discovery that do work for me.
This right here is my meeting place. I work in addiction care. I am working on myself in psychotherapy. That’s my way. Everybody has to find their own. I’d say go to AA before you relapse. It might be a good fit for you. You’ll never know until you try.
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