Thanks Brian! Sugar is another issue! 
Once I quit drinking, besides de urge to binge, I crave sugar! 
Though for the moment I have been more or less fine. Reading through my book on ED, and trying my best!
8 Likes
Checking in on day 4
Todays it has been a good day! I slept 8 hours non-stop, just effin amazing! Alcohol never gave me good sleep, so being off the booze makes it so much better. Kicked the day off with a 9K walk early in the morning.
I had a super brunch after that, chatted a bit with a friend and another member of this group through WhatsApp.
This afternoon I went to visit my parents, which went very well (not always the caseā¦ tense relationship with my dad). Gonna make some nice dinner now!
No binge, no booze, no cigarettes! 
21 Likes
Amazing job on day 4 and a good 8 hours nights sleep.
Day sounds awesome so far and my goodness - that salad looks absolutely delicious!!! 
6 Likes
Under all that green stuff there was actually a loaf of bread with tomato, olive oil and cheese! 
6 Likes
Vielen Dank!
4 Likes
Indeed, did some review check for their treatment for depression, anxiety and trauma. Unfortunately not that good. For addiction still quit good, but Iām really looking for addressing the other things. Any suggestions are welcome if you know some.
4 Likes
Checking in
Day 500
Excited to reach this personal milestone today!! 
i truly cant believe that i have 500 whole days clean and sober from all mind altering substances. Being a chronic relapser in my past, i would have never thought that id see this day.
Anyway, my day has been hectic. I had alot of unsettled built up emotion within me so i tried to take care of that. I went and dropped off a coffee to my husband at his work and chatted with him for awhile on his break. That was nice. I just felt like i needed to be around him 
and then came home to workout (even though i absolutely did not want to). Im glad i did tho. I restarted my couch to 5k program from week 1 to build up my endurance. So running 1 min at a time now is not difficult for me. Right now i am just trying to prepare myself for tonights awake overnight shift with my son. Thankfully, they found someone for the 2nd night. I found out this morning and was so happy to hear that! So i only have to do 1 night now which is somewhat doable. I havent rested today tho which i should so i am not super tired.
All in all today has been okay. Just grateful for my HP guiding me thru life. I cant do it on my own thats for sure.
39 Likes
Huge Congratulations on your 500 days and all the commitment. Thatās inspiring and amazing 
8 Likes
Way to go Dana ā congrats on your 500 days! this is a huge accomplishment 
Iām also so thrilled to hear that they were able to find someone for at least one of the nights. I do wish you the best of luck with staying up tonight (get some rest now love) 
10 Likes
Thank you!
4 Likes
Huge congratulations 
I havenāt been about much, but so glad to see you reach your 500 days
So proud of you 
5 Likes
Thank you! 
4 Likes
So wonderful to see!! Congratulations on your 500 days!!! 
6 Likes
Congratulations Dana! What an inspiration! 
7 Likes
Woo hoo! Congrats on 500 days, Dana! 
8 Likes
Hey girl 
Been missing you. But never ever forgotten. 
Congratulations on such a huge milestone.
7 Likes
A bit of vent.
Got anonymous messages with really bad things. In short: kill yourself, youāre just pretending youāre schizophrenic for attention, youāre ugly as fuck, your boyfriend deserves better etc. I sighed a lot. This shit is sometimes happening, when I exactly donāt expect it. Half year ago it would make me a lot paranoid, but now Iām more likely angry. 
Because Iām tired of this shit. 
Iām not some robot to repeat to them that theyāre not right and they know about me shit. Okay, maybe I get that you will not meet everyday schizophrenic guy, but it doesnāt mean that schizophrenia is fake disorder??? Iām living with this disorder almost my whole life, Iām already used to voices and hallucinations in my life and I try to manage my dysfunctions in emotions, viewing reality etc. I will never understand these anonymous who say to me I do it for attention. Irl I very much hide this disorder, because Iām very scared I would be bullied heavily for it (online I feel safer sharing it with people who are similar like me). Also why I would do it for attention? Iām most of the time busy with my personal work. I even donāt want attention.
How I said, I will never understand these people. Maybe itās good, maybe not. But itās already really tiring hearing this shit all the time. It seems theyāre just cyberbullying me and have some āstrenghtā that they hide themselves. I think these are just trolls, because no one of them wrote me personally in dms, between four eyes. Weak trolls with no sense of creativity to at least write something new to harass me. 
Very stupid. I hope no one is getting similar anonymous messages. Stay safe. I hope youāre all okay. 
14 Likes
FUCK Cyberbullying and anonymous assholes!!! I am so sorry that you got this message and that this is not the first time getting such ignorant shit.
You are right - these are trolls or unhappy mofoās that need a life - just out to spread misery. They are blindly attacking anonymously and showing how weak and insecure they really are.
Let me tell you that you are amazing. You are a beautiful human inside and out! I am sorry that you have had to live with and endure so much in your young life but i see that it has made you stronger and now you have your whole adult life to live free of the addiction chains. I canāt even imagine living with schizophrenia or having to hide that side of myself on a daily basis.
Do not give these stupid trolls or anonymous fucks a minute of your time. Sending you strength and love my friend - stay strong and know that you are loved!!!
10 Likes
Yay Dana!!! Enormous congrats Lady! Excellent work! Love and hugs your way friend. 
7 Likes
thank you a lot!
also yeah, hiding it on daily basis is sometimes really hard, especially when I donāt feel alright (when Iām feeling bad I have way more voices and hallucinations), so you never know what can happen every each day. That sucks, but Iām working with it and at least some methods help to me.
7 Likes