Thank you for sharing your 4 year milestone with us! You are looking great as ever!
Congratulations 
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Checking in with little sleep way too early this morning. Sleep has been rough this week, first with the pain in my ribs and then my brain on overdrive with all the things! I was hoping to sleep better last night because I had a very productive day yesterday. But now my mind is in nesting mode, imagining where things could go, how I’d like to see things look and so on. That’s always been the fun part for me, I’m a nesting queen according to my husband. So, I feel pretty content despite little sleep.
I also have made some progress on some stuck in sad and down feelings I’ve had recently. Some helpful journaling, talking to my mom, eating a bit better and getting some routine sneaking back in helps. My husband and I keep reminding each other what a tumultuous, busy and sometimes overwhelming time this last few months has been. If I remember right, we first met with the realtor in April, we dove right in to the process and it’s been nonstop ever since. Looking back helps to understand how I’m feeling now. And it finally feels like we can slow down and settle in properly. That’s a good feeling.
Hang in there, amigx. Sending sober strength out today. 
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Day 195.
Checking in. Sober.
So I still can’t put into words my existential crisis. @JazzyS you’re right, the two big days (Birthday and 200 day milestone) happen to fall on the same day, and that is seriously been fucking with my head.
I have half decided to go to uni in my country to study English / Literature. I wanna… do more. I want more from life than putting together listicles for people to procastinate on. I wanna know more.
My undiagnosed ADHD / other mental health conditions/ addiction / series of unfortunate and terrible decisions led to me dropping out twice.
And I’m 33 next week, it’s now or never, really.
But I’ll see how I feel about it when I get back next month.
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Day 3
It’s healthy to want to do more sometimes. With your sober journey well on its way, you’re in a good position, but I’m curious whether you have considered starting off by easing in and doing school part time? Maybe just a couple of classes to see how it is feeling for you? Jumping in head first after previous attempts where you had to stop is on my mind…just considering experiences of my brother and another friend of mine. Sounds and feels very familiar. Please disregard if I’m out of line because I haven’t seen a lot of posts recently so I’m a bit out of the loop. I wish you well on navigating the tough feelings your having but also the potential exciting opportunity of starting school!
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Day 12 date night last night was a success. I know the healing on my wifes part will take time after all the staying out late and drinking all night but things are definitely trending in the right direction. Odaat
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You’re not out of line at all, it’s a valid concern. And yeah, I still gotta work to eat, so jumping head first into full-time study would be a bit too much.
In my country, some courses are offered as a distance learning / part timey type thing, where I’d have to attend lectures like once a week or every other week and exams, of course.
My plan is to wait until they open up the September round of applications and maybe go speak to someone there about the requirements and stuff. I still need time to work and I still need to be able to do my travels. So… I gotta figure out how to make it work for me.
My husband is really supportive of the idea.
But I’m also aware of how hard it can be going back to school at my age.
But then again, I don’t have kids and I’m only responsible for feeding myself and my dog. So… in theory, it could work.
It’s just something I really need to think about before signing on.
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My husband went back to school starting in community college (junior college) in his late 20s and worked his way up to and engineering school where he was in his 30s with a bunch of 18-20 year olds. It’s definitely hard but it’s doable! I remember those days of supporting him through that very well and I’m so glad to hear your husband is supportive. That is wonderful. Sounds like you have a solid plan in place! Great!
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Yep, i’m a man, husband of 20+ years, but like you, trying to figure everything out and not mess up the folks around me! I’m choosing to lean into the thought of what i’m thankful for, what makes me happy, and how i can grow. Shame and Guilt for me are like poison pills and only serve to hurt me. That’s why meditating on my past is so dangerous for me. I just have to move forward. Took my wife on a wonderful date last night and just talked. We also talk about how we can make adjustments with the kids schedule and what we need to tweak to be better parents. My wife’s childhood was awesome, she grew up with 2 loving parents who were best friends and thankfully, we still after all this time are more than anything, best friends. Accept this one area where i’m still an addict and trying to protect them. Sigh…but hey, it’s a new day and i’m thankful to be here.
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Days PMO free: Day 7
Streak with at Least 7 hours sleep attempted: 3
Days with PS5 in the closet: 3
Days went to bed the same time with my wife: 3
Good morning, good afternoon, good evening all!
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Friday and payday! Gym membership reactivated and off to shops after work to stock up on healthy food as well as some ice cream as a treat on Sunday.
Looking forward to a drink free weekend and hoping the sunny weather makes a come back so I can chill in the garden with the BBQ on the go.
Have a good day all
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Day 172…checking in!!! Hope everyone is doing well today. Peace and love my friends 
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Day 18 check in. The depression bug is still here but, I made plans all day to see me through. Yoga, movies, and dinner with friends. They’re going to head out tonight but I’m going stay my butt in. Not even close to being able to hang out at my old stomping grounds. Weed is legal here in AZ and people are trying to get me to start smoking to “take the edge off” but… lol I know addiction when I see it now lol and some of them are ADDICTED! As soon as they get up, b4 work, after work, to eat… so knowing me. I’ll just stay away and get one beast under control 
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Good to see you! I recently came back too for support and it’s really just an amazing place.
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Hey all, checking in on day 1139. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Day 34! One meeting left then its the weekend
Cannot wait to turn my laptop off and stretch my legs for a bit
Weather is a bit dire but thats ok . Its a good feeling to not be planning what to drink from five pm then waking up Saturday morning and thinking the same thing. Clarity is such a blessing
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Today will be 18 days sober and 10 days no ciggs/vape
This morning was tough
I was a little depressed
Me and my wife decided to put on some music and I sang to her lol. I needed that release of positive energy
keeping it in the day
Work at 1pm this afternoon
Be well and take care everyone
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Day 951,
Vacation nearing the end. I’ll be driving home on Sunday. Anxiety/tension is kicking in a bit, texted my sponsor if he has time for a call. Really need some connection to talk about things, venting it all out. Something I dearly missed during my life. Nothing will have changed when I get back home, in that sense the holiday was just a brief escape. Tuesday my treatment starts to look into my mental health, I see that I first needed to be sober to look into that in a constructive manner. Still not looking forward to that, but I feel when I’ll enter I can let it all go.
A friend from long time ago texted me last night. He texted he enrolled for a rehab. Last contact was from months ago, he didn’t like my tough love approach at the time so I broke the contact. Don’t know whether I should message him, I notice some red flags and on the other hand I just want the wish him good luck and help him.
Have a nice day
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Checking in, sober. Happy Friday 
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@toka Yeah to starting with your day 1. This is a great thread to be on to receive support and stay accountable. Are you doing anything to help you stay on the sobriety track? Hopefully you have a set plan moving forward and have good irl support. We are will you here on the journey – hope to see you around
@1in8billion I do love reading your posts and seeing life through your eyes. I am growing with you my friend – grateful for the positive insight. I do hope that you are able to accomplish all that you have set out to do.
Well done Fiona – it really is all about perspective. I love this attitude and do know we are only a click away if you need some support. I do hope you have a wonderful sober holiday!
@mrsodh AWE – Thanks love – Hopefully before the summer’s over I’ll plan an outing and show off the hat 
@megan3 congrats on your sober time love. Sorry that you are struggling with health issues – I do hope that you are able to focus on yourself and get that sorted. Sending you healing vibes. Your day sounds lovely – hope you all have a wonderful time
@juli1 Glad to see you not quitting on yourself – keep at this love – all your tools will start working for you and your strength will get stronger. ODAAT
So sweet to read this – yes – let all the good things roll on in. Have a wonderful Friday!
@amy30 I love the ambition and do hope that you are able to make it all a reality. Seems like you are thinking this through and will approach it well prepared. Yeah to 33 in 5 days! I do hope that you are able to find a healthy way to celebrate your two milestones and see them as markings of your growth. How far you’ve come and all that awaits you in the future.
@rainy7 It does take time to get back in the social scene and sometimes we do have to find a new group of friends as we have outgrown the addictive activities and pass times. I am very proud of how far you’ve come and want you to know that it does get easier. Life is so much better when you can see it clearly and enjoy it addiction free. Best of luck with your counseling session today.
@rob11 I do hope that you are able to connect with your sponsor soon. You are also welcome to vent here and help us carry some of your load. I know you want to reach out to your friend but if you are already seeing red flags and are not in the best space yourself then I would think selfcare is of utmost importance at this moment. Your friend has taken the step to go into rehab and has the support needed. Sending much love Rob – glad your vaca is going well. Try to enjoy these moments.
Checking in on Friday morning - Happy Friday my beautiful sober companions
It is turning out to be a wonderful day. I did not get much sleep but do somehow have energy this morning - i am embracing the feeling of feeling alive! About to do a quick delivery and then spend some time with my fav uncle who is visiting from India. So excited! Have a wonderful addiction free day you beautiful souls - sending much love
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