Can you hit another meeting? @Thumper1213
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Hang in there . It will get better. Day 55 for me, Lots of support here, reach out.
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@lorelai and @JazzyS sorry to failed you again. I am in day 2 again 
but I donât stop short, my focus is fixed. I keep moving forward. I humble myself into the mighty Hand of God. I am hopeful, no hiding. Resilient
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I hear your pain and frustration. In many ways, yes, many people on here canât relate to your situation. Some members have however been in similar situations in the past. As others have said, we can still care and try to support. Many people on here do have privileges, and you yourself may have privileges (are you a citizen of a developed country? for example). But if you are so sure this forum has nothing to offer, then I ask with kindness and genuine curiosity, why are you here? Do you just want to get angry at others? Will that really help?
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Congratulations 
That is so wonderful!
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Triple digits is amazing! Well done 
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You choose 
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It is not a rhetorical question, and I am being genuine. Thanks for replying. You say you want support, but then say
Which doesnât sound like wanting support. It sounds like rejecting support. And when I try to engage (and support), you dismiss me with âCarry onâ.
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Hi @vagabond,
Im not sure of the original post, as I hadnt checked in today but I just want to say you are right about privildge. And im sorry but anyone who says that addixtion touches peoppe in all walks of life, YES sure it does but the more you have the more you have at ypur disposal to help yourself get out, the mofe you have to hokd on to. Are there wealthy men who lose everythonf and die? Yep there are. But there are more poor people who die or live with addiction at a lower level bc there are no supports, except going to AA which just says: addixtion touches everyone, that youre poor dont feel sorry fpr yourself. Its true abd im sorry that there are still people who dont get that, i thibk the problem is there is a SOCIAL perspective and a PERSONAL one and its hard to get the two to line up. Socially, you have less to help you, but personally you have to do this if you want to do this. If you focus on the social disadvantages too much, youâll always focus on your chips being down. Sometimes I just have to put fucking blinders on to that shit and go forward.
I dont cone from a wealthy background but I did not experience poverty growing up. My mom was a single mom, and worked hard to provide for my sister and I. I can see HOW my position in life shapes EVERYTHING in my life including my alcoholism - but no, its not a stamp cut out and in other ways my social position makes some shit make less sense. I know they say dont be bitter or feel sorry for yourself but you know what you gotta honor that shit in you. I hope it doesnt eat you, and I hope you DO find people who you can relate to and even if they cant people who are supportive. Ive gone theough a trayma here in my life I dont think anyone on this forum understands, and I am FUCKING ANGRY and it is IRREVOCABLE and it involves the SYSTEM. And i have had to process that lonliness and in thatâŚthis place has been here. Thr last few months.
Some people may vome down on you for being angry, nope not here. This is the place, let it the fuck out. I wish you the best. Dont give up on yourself. Xo.
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Evening Check in
Day 573
Sooo grateful that I was able to leave work early today. I got home and did some laundry and gave my son a bath to help him feel better. Got everything done before i would have normally even left work at 4pm. So tonight has just been about relaxing with my son and hubby. He is beginning to feel better⌠slowly. I think we have escaped a hospital visit this time 
Anyway, so very grateful to be clean and sober for another day. Grateful that i try to remain teachable in recovery and in life and grateful for u all on TS that support and encourage 
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13d 20h check in â pretty lazy Saturday, but i guess they all kind of are with a broken ankle, lol. My partner & i are just really not doing great⌠i almost thought my accident would bring us together & get us back on track, but Iâm still just feeling this sh!ttiness between us and donât think itâs going to get better.
He moved in with me about 8 months ago after dating long distance (and after a reconnection 10 years in the making), so itâs just been a weird year in general, but that doesnât explain away his untreated mental health issues that inevitably affect me and that include cannabis use disorder. Getting dry and having him still using opens my eyes even further to our problems, which i then need to just sit with and not drown out⌠which is fine, i just wish i had any options at all right now, but instead i can only just sit on this couch with my leg up and hope for the best.
At least i got some of my book read and didnât eat like complete crap today, lol.
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Checking in evening of day 214 AF from Mexico.
Everything is going well and about to turn in.
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Thanks @Qhob13!! Honesyly. Im so glad i wrpte down the shit iw as worrying about so i could come and tell you guys none of it happened. Was a great day. Kids had an awesome time & Iâm so happy. Very very tired, but happy. 
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Checking in yaâll,
I never use yaâll in real life and have no idea why i started using it here but its my thing now lol. You are my yaâllâŚ
Very tired but it was a great day. Kids had lots of fun & nice to do âplaydatesâ that arent just for the kids but parents too too tired to type my friends, but safe to say all my little worries didnt happen and there it is. Going to go read my book and get to sleep. Dishes on the countet can wait for tomorrow. My fruit flies will be happy
Heres to another 24 xo.
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Day 89, I almost broke. I almost threw it all away. My husband leaving for the weekend to be with his other family has me wanting to revert⌠I donât understand why I canât leave and why I still love him as if he never hurt me. 
I just wish I knew how to do any of this. But I made it!!! 
another day closer to victory. Planning on going to a meeting tomorrow as long as nobody magically shows up.
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So glad it went well! Mom stress stinks!! Happy you were able to come back with a positive report. Enjoy your book and your rest!
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Happy Birthday and good for you planning around what you know is a hard day for drinking for you.
I hope there is some light for you on this day and yes FUCK CANCER!! XO.
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I donât know the backstory, but glad you are still sober. That 90 day milestone is going to feel that much sweeter tomorrow!!! Congrats on hanging there, hope you can get to a meeting tomorrow!
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@galen_82 Way to make it through the wedding without drinking. I know you are worried about tomorrow. Do not listen to that voice and give in â nothing good comes from drinking. You are strong enough to overcome the urges. Try to switch up your routine tomorrow so that you donât get triggered to do your weekly beer buy. Did you put in the reminder for a online meeting? Also â check in with us as often as you need. The longer you stay away the easier it will be to resist the urges.
@butterflymoonwoman grateful that you were able to get off early and come home to your little man. How is he doing? I do hope he is starting to feel better. Just saw your update â grateful for his slow recovery and not needing a hospital visit.
@mischa84 I can totally relate to not wanting to do on line calls / videos â it causes me anxiety too. I know you are able to participate if you want to but are able to keep the camera and audio off. Not trying to push it on you â just a fyi in case this may be of interest.
@scorpn glad you are feeling better. Glad your daughter is having fun with friends enjoying her Birthday. Hope you did get some rest today.
@vagabond I canât relate to your exact situation but that does not mean that I canât offer support in your struggle with addiction. Your being homeless does not scare me. We are all here on this site trying to get free of our addictions and offering support to each other as we are on similar journeys.
This made me tear up to read. You are a special lady deserving of all the support and love available. We can not stop ourselves from feeling what we are feeling â do know our feelings are justified. Much love my friend.
@thumper1213 Ah man â Iâm so sorry friend. I am grateful that you did go to a meeting and reached out here and to members in your program. Its scary when the urges are so strong â you should be super proud of yourself. Remember to reach out here if you feel overwhelmed again. You are doing fantastic with 33 days Billy!
I see and feel the fight in you my friend! Great job on day 2 â keep your connection with your HP and keep showing up for yourself.
@ballroomdaze I see you getting closer to 2 weeks â great job! Sorry that things are so easy going at home but want to say you are slaying it with sobriety. Hope your ankle is healing well and hopefully you will be back to moving around in no time. Stay strong
@cueball8n9 Hell yeah â you just had your 7 month milestone! Way to go!!! :ta
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You should be super proud of yourself right now! You did not break â you are a strong woman! I am so sorry that you are still dealing with this situation. I canât even imagine the heartache and frustration. I do know that you are crushing it in making a better addiction free lifestyle for you and your children.
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