Sorry for the delay in replying, I am in the UK so fell asleep. I really wish you well. I don’t know your background but you are right to be angry at the system. One of my biggest fears (and previous trigger) was not having a secure home and I am very sorry you are experiencing that. There are lots of knowledgeable people here, much more so than me, so please do stick around and take their offers of help.
@vagabond I’m sorry you’re in that headspace of feeling like no one cares or understands you. This is an international forum, with addicts from all walks of life, including members who have gone through homelessness, members from disadvantaged groups, members who spent time behind bars, and members from less developed countries. We’re all brought here together by our addictions.
We’re not a monolith.
I get feeling the need to lash out on people you perceive to be in a better place than you. Hell, I’ve lashed out on the good people of this forum because I was hurting and I was angry and I needed someone else to know my pain. It didn’t help me feel better, on the contrary.
This is a supportive place where everyone is welcome.
Checking in Day 710
Hi everyone
It’s been a while, I have been reading daily, even if just for 5 mins. But I know that isn’t enough to maintain staying sober.
So I’m posting to check in to get myself back participating in the community - after all I wouldn’t be sober without you all
Have a lovely day all
Welcome back Twizzle!!! You’ve been missed!!!
Thank you my friend
It’s feels good to be here.
I’m going to get some jobs around the house done early. Then just catch up a little and just be present.
Might cook dinner soon, so I don’t have to put the oven on by later when the sun heats up the house. And just heat it up later.
Hope you have been well and doing okay yourself
Hi Twizzle, so nice to see you. I bet you’ve been enjoying your garden in this weather we’ve been having? Hope you’re ok and some of your recent problems are behind you
Day 995,
Don’t know, know nothing at the moment. When I’m home alone my head goes his own way. Had some social activities this weekend, then it goes fine. Tonight I have a bbq at a friends place, where some old friends will join as well with their kids. The anxiety is kicking in, afterwards I drive back to the center. My mind keeps coming back on a practical session with a therapist which clearly indicated I have been crossing my boundaries all my life. And then I still ask if my parents come for a quick visit before I leave. While I better might break contact for a while so I can sort myself out….
I stop here otherwise I ramble on and on
Greetz and love
Rob
So you’ll need time to learn not crossing them anymore. Life long habits take time to change friend. Be gentle with yourself
Hey all, checking in on day 1183. I hope everybody has a good one!
Good morning sober friends. Day 821 check in. I just had a dream that I ordered a beer at breakfast. Then I got upset with myself. In my dream, that is. Dream-me always seems to forget that I don’t drink anymore. Anyway, I am having a quiet morning with coffee before everyone else wakes up and the craziness of the day can begin. Much love to all, and I wish you serenity.
Day 344
My sleep rhythm is still all over the place. I wanted to do a reset, means that I stay awake a full night and day and am so tired eventually that my body gets back to its natural rhythm.
But I fell asleep
Next weekend I’ll make another attempt on this.
Today I’ll try for the second time to get my packages from the Packstation (I wrote about this funny thing in the Friday thread ).
Will I succeed this time? Will the Packstation accept my Code? Will the Bluetooth work? Who knows How exciting
I’ll have to take a shower after that because it’s so hot here (32°C).
But first: munching some pancakes and charge the phone.
Have a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong
Update: I can’t believe it, I have my packages
Yes, correct movie. Every time Bruce Willis takes Ben Affleck’s spot and says bye to his daughter (Liv Tyler) I fucking lose it. It also has an awesome cast. Build that “sob list” Love that!
Take your cleaning nice and slow. Make a list of things that need done and check them off. Take breaks. Stay hydrated. Oh and definitely blast some music to keep you going!! We are our own worst critics, so I’m sure inspection will go just fine. Way to go on what you did get done!!! Don’t beat yourself up on things that still need done, celebrate the small wins. Washing didn’t get done, so what, you got the rinsing done and the sink clean! Every small win builds the overall victory!
Make sure you squeeze some rest in today! Don’t want to overdo it, or you’ll pay for it in the coming days. Gotta take care of yourself!! and huge pat on the back for the awesome numbers!!!
Checking in on 14 days and a sober birthday, yesterday was so hard but the times I checked in here to stay focused helped massively, so did my husband, I’m lucky to have him.
Breakfast at my mum and dads this morning, they told me how well I was doing and it was good being able to spend time with me at the weekend, I got a bit emotional, I never realised just how much time away from people and doing things alcohol takes from you, all the wasted days.
But not today, today I’m sober, thank you to everyone that sent me a love and checked in with me on one of the hardest nights so far, your support got me through it.
Have a great day/night everyone
YEEEAAAHHH!!! Knew you would be here with that beautiful 2 week milestone!!! Congrats friend!!! I know it wasn’t easy, but so fucking proud of you for making it through your birthday sober! Also happy to hear you had a lovely Sunday morning breakfast with mom and dad!
Thank you my lovely sober buddy, your always here cheering me on with loads of other people on this fantastic community, the support is amazing, I’m so glad I found you all
Congratulations Michelle.
2 weeks sober and sober for your birthday?
How proud of you you are.
I love it!!