Checking In
Day 623
Was a work day today. Stayed for my full shift but was grateful that I was able to leave early yesterday. My son seems to be doing better today and hopefully will be completely better for school tmrw, as it is photo retake day. And then Halloween on Tuesday. He was excited to go to school with his costume on and hand out candies to his fellow classmates.
I am just sooo grateful for my recovery and for not having any using thoughts in days. But the only thing on my mind is my weight. Im concerned about my health and my eating habits. Tmrw i will get back on track with exercise and eating healthy and well portioned meals (I seem to say this every monday 
). I HAVE to do something bcuz i want to live a long life to be able to care for my son. I cant even imagine the damage that has already been done thru so many years of drug abuse (like to my heart for example), and so i desperately need to watch my health now bcuz the extra added weight is hard on my heart too. Im just heading to the grocery store now to pick up a few things and then home to do laundry and cook supper etc. Hope everyone is doing fantastic today! 
Congratulations on 30 days!!! 
It can seem daunting and overwhelming (at least for me too) to think that we cant drink or use for the rest of our lives. As much as i love being clean and sober, it scares me sometimes to think that I wont be able to use anything for the rest of my life to cope. BUT all we have is today. These 24 hours ahead. If we focus on one day at a time, it makes it sooo much easier. Sometimes for me, flipping the script (that inmer dialogue) helps me. Sobriety can be exciting! Imagine the things u will be able to accomplish and do in ur life bcuz ur sober. Instead of being afraid of not being able to drink or use the rest of ur life, focus on what exciting plans u have for urself in the future. The things ull be able to do. The money ull save. All kinds of things 
wishing u a peaceful night.
Here I am day 15. Watching football without a drink! Who woulda ever thunk it! Feel strong walked right passed my husbands bottle of Tito’s and didn’t even flinch. Meanwhile his is hammered and it isn’t even 7pm yet.
@JazzyS thank you 
I do this type of resting too, I even close my curtains and turn my lamp off, the cats usually join me so its restful and theraputic. I’m so sorry about your symptoms, hoping your doctors appointment goes well. 🩵
@happyfeet congrats on 90 days, and now e months 
I love your medal too 
@Looking4Support I’m so sorry about the news 
just glad they will be keeping him comfortable. Sending strength, and I really hope you do make it to see him 🩵
@Just_Laura sending strength I hope today was better 🩵
@Scorpn well that sounds scary and very painful! Feel better soon 🩵 happy birthday 
@Akmb welcome congrats on 4 days
@Hidden sending strength 🩵 congrats on 40 days
@Juli1 I think this is no coincidence, do not engage with him, you deserve better 🩵
@DresdenLaPage congrats on getting the job @CueBall8n9 enjoy your vacation 
@Butterflymoonwoman sending well wishes for your son 
@Kimpantera congrats on 2+ weeks
@BrOKenWolf you’re doing a remarkable job staying strong for your sister, sending extra strength to you 🩵 congrats on 700+ days
@Ashley_luvz_starz congrats on 7 months
@ShadowFax good to read from you, glad you know where to come when you’re struggling, sending strength 🩵
@zzz cool video! 
Congrats on 30 days
@Sabrina80 sorry about the Psoriasis spreading but congrats on 2 weeks of freedom from SM
@Mischa84 your partner sounds insecure and immature. Maybe try to talk to him when he’s sober about some of these things he’s said whilst on cocaine. Not cool. 🩵
@maxwell welcome back I’m so sorry about how your son isn’t around for you but belated happy birthday and congrats on the new car 
@JennyH sorry for your pain, its good that you’re scheduling the surgery 🩵
@Starlight14 congrats on 14 months
1175 days no alcohol.
640 days no cocaine.
155 days no vape.
Feeling very unwell since yesterday when I woke up. I have another UTI. Since being diabetic they make me feel generally unwell not just the urinary symptoms, and I’m feverish and in pain, with a migraine too. I spoke to an out-of-hours doctor yesterday, and she prescribed antibiotics and sent the prescription to a pharmacy near me, and I was able to walk to collect them. Really hoping they work this time.
Today I’ve been sleeping a lot, despite sleeping well last night, and I still feel exhausted now so I’ll be turning off my lamp after posting this, and closing my eyes again.
I hope you’ve all had wonderful sober weekends.
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Your post made me lol. How I felt yrs ago when I tried a near beer…
It tasted like it was MISSING SOMETHING 
i do not think i would ever pay for one, because even if its like hm not bad its also like…its not good lol. And why? Lol.
Now, my sister in laws mom bought a non-alcoholic sparkling pear “champagne” or whatever from IKEA (LOL) and that shit is delicious. It tastes nothing like an alcohol drink with no alcohol. I also accepted a glass out of curiosty and not wantinf to be rude, and I dont ever find myself at Ikea but if i did id snap up a few bottles. Its missing nothing, just delish 
Edit: also a RANDOM side note for those who are bothered by others bothering them about drinking. I have noticed that the only people who bothered me about the fact that I wasnt drinking, were people who were going hard themselves. Most people didnt bat an eye. You also do not have to say “Im sober”, you can say “no Im good” or “i dont drink” or “Im anemic” (one I have never used but my cousin is anemic and she cant drink so boom). People bothering you about it is uncomfortable, but most people wont.
Unless you go to Belgium 
I have never experienced a people so confounded with the fact that I didnt drink. It was constant, and there were so many gasps. And Sicily? forget it. You dont drink wine WTFTHEMATTERWITHYOU? So. You been warned LOL (this is half a joke, but also so very very serious). Xo.
Oh dear God Mischa your son is ADORABLE. That sweet face with those beautiful eyes. 
I am sorry to read your post but you vent away. Your husband sounds like an absolute POS and you are an amazing soul he just does not deserve. I hope you are finding a way to keep your peace…Im sitting here thinking of like backhanded compliments you can give him to slpwly undermine his assuredness in all that vanity he seems to have.
“Oh babe your hair…it looks so good did you just cut it?”
“Yes, i did it today you noticed”
“Yes i did, especially how it seems to be thinning onbthe top. Its more noticeable when you cut it” *kiss, pivot and off.
Love you girl. Hang in there. Those beautiful boys are so lucky to have a mom like you xo.
Omg these are the most adorable pumpkins ever!!! My daughter just carved her first one on her own and its so cute to see them design snd carve. These make me so freaking happy she did an amazing job xo.
I will be praying for you. UTIs are terrible. I have had many. Hope you feel better soon.
Kim
Dear beautiful @JazzyS I am in day 10!!! How are you ? I know you have great physical pains. And still you care and love for all here around.
Checking in on day 126 I’ve been having a lot of ups and downs lately. But today I realized that I’m just learning how to process emotions sober, it’s unfamiliar but not a bad thing.
Stay strong everyone 
Hi Thomas, I am new in my journey also day 15 today. Congrats on making double digits!
Kim d15
Awww @Mischa84 what a cutie your little one is. The cutest Batman ever seen 
I’m sorry to hear you’re not well @CATMANCAM hopefully the medication works and you get well soon.
58 days @Juli1 congratulations 
like others said don’t worry about “forever” Take it one day at a time.
I really changed my mindset about the “benefit” of drinking. There’s NON! so therefore I won’t miss out on anything by not drinking. And I’m finally happy that I don’t HAVE to drink anymore.
I found the Allen Carr book “The easy way to stop drinking” to be very helpful and a real eye opener.
Lovely pumpkin carving @Starlight14 very spooky 
Glad you had a good time and I wish you all a happy Halloween 
Thank u for the well wishes for my son. I am also sending u healing energy in hopes that u recover quickly. That sounds very uncomfortable
2nd check in today. Just got back from another Halloween party with my little girl, and tucked her in her crib. It’s just us, as my wife is out of town with friends.
My buddy crushed it with the food and beverage options for non-drinkers, and there were lots of us sober there. Grateful for all of this.
I hope you are in a good place too, wherever you are reading this.
@maxwell happy belated birthday! Yeah to your car purchase. Very sorry that your son is not around spending any time with you. I too would be hurt and feel saddened. We are here for you
@mischa84 what an adorable superhero! I’m sending out my bat signal tonight thanks for sharing the cuteness with us today.
@juli1 58 days – way to go rockstar! I try not to think of “forever”. Anything in a forever mindset can be overwhelming. I am proud of all the work you are doing with sobriety. We only take things one day at a time. I also try to remind myself that what I am craving is literal poison and the healthy space I am creating does not need it. Grateful for your meeting tomorrow – such amazing progress Jules 
@jennyh oh dang girl – sucks that you have been dealing with the gallstone all day. I do hope you feel better tomorrow. I understand the need to go into a surgery in a more calm and controlled way – this is not so easy to achieve and schedule as we know life is full of surprises and doesn’t stay on schedule. Grateful that our bodies speak to us and more grateful that we listen. Sending healing vibes and pain free energy your way.
@butterflymoonwoman glad your son is starting to feel better. I hear you on all the damage we have done to our bodies with our addictions. Our bodies are super resilient and I do believe that we can begin repairing our damage with a healthier lifestyle. You are remarkable my friend and I know you are struggling right now but I do know that you have the drive to get your health on track. Stay strong Dana 
@catmancam Your resting sounds way more therapeutic Oh Cam I am so sorry friend. I do hope the antibiotics help. Please stay hydrated and get plenty of vitamin c. home remedies for uti I do hope you are able to rest and feel better soon.
@mira_d thanks for the laugh – loved the backhanded compliment conversation 
@bomdhil glad to see you here and doing so well Thomas – makes me so happy to see you with double digits. Keep showing up for yourself my friend
Checking in on Sunday night
yeah i pushed myself to go out with my mom (mom time really is healing) - it feels good to have gotten out but i am kaput now. we did get a lot of errands done (got some great Beetlejuice socks) and i am grateful to be back at home resting.
Hope you all have a wonderful addiction free day / evening - sending you all so much love
Thank u friend how are you doing? I have missed alot of posts bcu i havent been reading as much 
But i hope ur doing well! Mom time sounds nice. And beetlejuice socks?! What! I love beetlejuice lol
thanks love - yeah mom time rocked. i too love Beetlejuice – can’t wait for next movie. was a great find at the 5 Below store.
i am dealing with some health flare ups with so many symptoms but am grateful that i have a few doctor’s appointments this week - fingers crossed i get some insight. overall i’m hanging in there thanks for asking.