Thanks Binx and @Butterflymoonwoman Dana 
Yes im up to date with that Binx October 2021 was my last one and was normal, is it 3 years or 5 now?xx
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@starlight14 OH I’m so sorry Kelly – this does sound very un-nerving and I’m sending you big hugs as I know how anxious it can be not knowing. Our bodies do tend to do some funny things as we age (finding out a lot of it is normal) – its hard not to but try not to freak out – I do hope its nothing serious. I do hope all is well with the tests and that they are able to see you soon and get this sorted.
@Thumper1213 Way to go on your 2 months! 
Checking in on Thursday afternoon
My goodness i do love how active this thread is. I had a very productive day yesterday cleaning the house and getting it ready for rental booking. I have one more day to go and mow, trim/edge and wash carpets (hope to finish on Monday). I was utterly exhausted and when i got home i couldn’t move a muscle - took a shower and ate cereal for dinner. I really just wanted to relax with wine or beer but instead drank nothing as my body could not get up (LOL). I was like a limp vegetable in front of the tv last night and I’m ok with that.
Grateful that all that work did not cause extra inflammation and i was able to get so much done. Today is a lovely day with mostly sitting work - about to make some GF pancakes with blueberries on top as this is what my body is craving.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day! Sending you all so much love
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Thanks so much Jazz hope u are ok too, sending lots of love
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Checking in day 398 and last day of vacation! Got to the beach to relax yesterday, walked around to see the beautiful scenery, and went to bed early. Should be another day of relaxing and having some good food today. Still so grateful for vacations being refreshing instead of exhausting.
Hope everyone has a super sober Saturday 
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Thank you, he is in the best hands so Im sure he will be all good with a little time. I think he got really scared and afraid not abel to breath.
For sure life is really testing me, it feels like. This having hard time eat because it feels to tigth afraid of choking, I dont like that.
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When will it open?
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Countdown says 21
Today opened the second lock
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Really sorry to see this, really hope it isn’t serious. Sending hugs 
xx
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Gosh me too, thanks Jenny, im trying so hard not to think worst case scenarios but its not easy xx
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Checking in on the evening of Day 23, struggling again, struggling in general which I guess is the reason for the cravings. Objectively it has been a good day, and I have tried to work it off in the gym, but still now hiding away in bed. Hopefully this will pass. I have had a bath and got into pjs so no danger of drinking at least.
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Good work, congratulations. 
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Thank you
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Hang in there Jenny, do you have a good book you could get lost in with a sleepy tea on the side.
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Wasted from the visit to my parents, now at the 
with my son. Got triggered by a post about cravings. I realize I just tuck it all away, not surfing it out our anything. So maybe a bit to much on willpower. Remember being in a German (I live close to the border) supermarket last week were I used to buy some liquor. Shouldn’t have gone to that supermarket, looking back it has been my addicted voice who tricked me into it. At the cashier I was looking at the small bottles of booze above the belt and to the left there was the cabinet with the big bottles of everything (really a ridiculous set-up). I was thinking about how inexpensive it was and was just staring and my mind was playing tricks how nice it would be to feel a whole bottle of my DOC in my body and that it might work better than my meds. Just wanted to vent since I notice indeed I just put it away, I will always be an addict, but I’m more than that, way more. 
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Thank you, I am about to eat ice cream and then a sleepy tea sounds good. My mood is improving as I am relaxing. I will return to my book now (haven’t read the last couple of days which is unlike me). Thanks for checking in x
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Well I have had the most glorious sober day ever.
My legs ache like a mutha tucker, we managed a long am walk then a big hike over the cliffs and Botany bay to Broadstairs! Never done that one before, really good, but it was hot so I’m a little burned.
We got the train back as the alternative was a little too much 
then quickly changed into swim suits and proceeded to have a VERY CHILLY BUT GORGEOUS half hour swim in the sea.
We then looked for dinner ideas and found a great Indian restaurant nearby but inland, so more local than tourist. AMAZING. Best Chattinad chicken I have ever tried, best everything, truly. The chef used to work in London at Cinnamon Club (Michelin star) and a real favourite of mine as a treat… So it was always going to be amazing. One of those meals you will dream about constantly… 
We walked home on achey knees and crying legs. Now we are watching Cocaine Bear. Fun so far.
Sober is the best. I would not have done a fraction of this being hungover or drunk. I really felt alive today. Sorry for my long posts this weekend, it’s been amazing. 
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Aaaah, that sounds like a perfect day. I love reading the updates so don’t apologise for sharing.
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@Binx Although it has rained all day where I am thankfully it hasn’t been heavy but some of the photos I’ve been seeing of land slips and flooding in other areas look scary indeed.
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Oh sweetheart I’m so sorry that you are struggling. Glad that your mood is improving - I do hope the ice cream and tea helped 
Are you able to write out all the stuff that is causing you to struggle? Sometimes seeing it on paper it is easier to tackle each thing individually rather than have it all swimming around in our minds. Also - sometimes when we write it down, we write down something that we thought wasn’t a big deal but actually has been weighing on our minds.
I do hope you had / are having a wonderful comfy read. Enjoy you evening! We are here if you want to share your struggles with us.
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