Thank you Jasmine. The dough is proving as I speak.
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Life is really trying you right now 
I hope your husband will be okay 
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Worried about my health rn 
thought i had a UTI but dip test says i dont but i have blood in my urine and the drs dont know why, i feel uncomfortable and like i need to toilet constantlyā¦worried what this could be so im having all the testsā¦urine, blood, stoolā¦to check for everything so waiting on those
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Iām so glad you feel strong enough to push past these thoughts of drinking
In your shoes, Iād spend some time going over the negative effects that drinking on your life, and what has changed since. Iām not assuming you donāt do this, but when thoughts of drinking came to me I wish I was better prepared. The thoughts I had were particularly strong and invasive. I felt like a rabbit caught in headlights because I was not prepared for them.
I thought about why it was happening. It wasnāt because I was ungrateful for my new sober life, itās just that everything felt a bit colourless. Day to day stresses topped off with anxiety, topped off with inability to see the future or something to look forward to.
When these thoughts crept in, I didnāt know what was coming at me and I failed to react quickly enough. Your sobriety is so valuable, so precious Deez. Protect it at all costs, dive into whats going on in your life. There may be a reason or reasons youāre starting to get little pangs of thoughts about drinking.
Sending you a big hug lovely 
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Checking in on day 125.
I felt horrible this morning but Iām thankful that the bad feelings moved on in the time that I went out into the rain for my winter vaccinations. It hasnāt stopped raining all day.
Iām just getting ready to make our Saturday night pizzas which is a routine that is keeping me together at the moment.
Wishing everyone an addiction free day.
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Awe im so sorry ur going thru health issues right now. Hope this isnt something serious. Sending posiitve thoughts of healing ur way
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Aw Kelly
I can imagine how hard this is for you. Thereās nothing worse than the waiting thatās involved with tests.
Is it okay if I ask when you last had a smear test done? I thought Iād ask as I had mine done recently and it just sprung to mind. Itās good to have it done, just for peace of mind.
Sending you big hugs lovely xx
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Oh I read about this rain you were to have in our news here. Apparently Scottish rail were telling people to not use transport due to the rainfall expected. I hope everyone stays safe over there x
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Menno, amigx, these have been big life discoveries and explorations for you. It makes perfect sense to have big feelings come along side. Not that that makes it any easier. Adding insult to injury by falling ill is just a rotten piece of luck and Iām sorry that happened the way it did. You weathered that storm and fought through the darkness, Iām proud of you and grateful you did, too. You are loved so much. And I and so many of us are grateful you can share with us. Thank you and may today and beyond be lighter (and you get over this damn man flu!). Be well 
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2 months sober today! Grateful!!
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WOW ā so lovely! Glad that you two were able to enjoy yourselves and have a delicious meal to boot!
@try2change I am sorry yesterday was such a struggle. How are you doing today? What were you able to do to quiet the urges? 76 days is amazing work 
@bomdhil how are you doing my friend? I am sorry to hear about being numb and sick. I do hope the weekend helps get you back to feeling better. 2 + days is great!
@danam56 HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANA 
111 days is also amazing ā voila! You are crushing this sober thing. Glad you were able to celebrate with supportive friends.
@thewolf 5+ months is amazing and thank you for sharing your good news with us! Keep up the amazing work! 
@just_laura I am sorry about your ex. Playing the devils advocate ā if it wasnāt out of spite then he would have told you. I am sorry that shit happened and grateful that your work cheered you up.
@mno Oh man Mno ā sorry that you too are struggling with these urges. I would have to agree that the moon / stars may have something to do with it. I am so grateful for this community as when I feel these urges get stronger, I am able to come here and read how others are feeling the same and dealing with it. I suddenly donāt feel alone and know that I too can weather the storm. Thank you ā I do hope today is a brighter day for you. 
@wakikki Oh friend 
I am so sorry to hear this. Grateful that he is and being looked after now. Sending healing vibes, strength and oh so much love your way
@marlowe I do hope you enjoy your books and had a wonderful time with your horror marathon. If you havenāt already ā check out Any horror movie fans?
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Thanks Binx and @Butterflymoonwoman Dana
Yes im up to date with that Binx October 2021 was my last one and was normal, is it 3 years or 5 now?xx
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@starlight14 OH Iām so sorry Kelly ā this does sound very un-nerving and Iām sending you big hugs as I know how anxious it can be not knowing. Our bodies do tend to do some funny things as we age (finding out a lot of it is normal) ā its hard not to but try not to freak out ā I do hope its nothing serious. I do hope all is well with the tests and that they are able to see you soon and get this sorted.
@Thumper1213 Way to go on your 2 months!
Checking in on Thursday afternoon
My goodness i do love how active this thread is. I had a very productive day yesterday cleaning the house and getting it ready for rental booking. I have one more day to go and mow, trim/edge and wash carpets (hope to finish on Monday). I was utterly exhausted and when i got home i couldnāt move a muscle - took a shower and ate cereal for dinner. I really just wanted to relax with wine or beer but instead drank nothing as my body could not get up (LOL). I was like a limp vegetable in front of the tv last night and Iām ok with that.
Grateful that all that work did not cause extra inflammation and i was able to get so much done. Today is a lovely day with mostly sitting work - about to make some GF pancakes with blueberries on top as this is what my body is craving.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day! Sending you all so much love
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Thanks so much Jazz hope u are ok too, sending lots of love
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Checking in day 398 and last day of vacation! Got to the beach to relax yesterday, walked around to see the beautiful scenery, and went to bed early. Should be another day of relaxing and having some good food today. Still so grateful for vacations being refreshing instead of exhausting.
Hope everyone has a super sober Saturday 
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Thank you, he is in the best hands so Im sure he will be all good with a little time. I think he got really scared and afraid not abel to breath.
For sure life is really testing me, it feels like. This having hard time eat because it feels to tigth afraid of choking, I dont like that.
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When will it open?
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Really sorry to see this, really hope it isnāt serious. Sending hugs xx
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Gosh me too, thanks Jenny, im trying so hard not to think worst case scenarios but its not easy xx
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Checking in on the evening of Day 23, struggling again, struggling in general which I guess is the reason for the cravings. Objectively it has been a good day, and I have tried to work it off in the gym, but still now hiding away in bed. Hopefully this will pass. I have had a bath and got into pjs so no danger of drinking at least.
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