Day 1799 for me.
I was thinking about how I tried to stop drinking some years ago. I thought the obsession would somehow just leave me. Wishing and hoping. Well, that didn’t work out for me.
Now, today I wrote somewhere that I need to change something. Buuuut I have no idea what. Which then brought me to the fact: fuuuuck, rest. Just rest, observe, don’t react, don’t overreact. Maybe that is a way too for now.
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Hello all 
Today is MRI day. On day 8 of my sobriety 
Had a CT scan on my face Friday and nothing is broken ( YAY!) Just massive bruising. I will NEVER face plant again!
My spirits are good so far, had a couple yearnings to drink but didn’t give in. I have no booze in the house and I live in the country so having to drive to get liquor is a good deterrent.
Keep up the good fight everyone. I’m whooshing you support from afar 
Happy Thanksgiving to my fellow Canadians 
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Checking in on day 126 AF. It’s day 20 of the Escitalopram and I’m feeling that although it is reducing my anxiety a bit I’m still waiting for it to improve my mood. I guess I just have to be patient but I’m finding it hard. I woke just after six this morning but couldn’t get out of bed until lunchtime and I’m really having the kids fend for themselves. The weekends always seem so much worse than school days and I’m just really struggling with this depression.
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Checking in. Still scared of eating food, I tried a bit yesterday but I did not feel safe. Only eating chocolate that melts in my mouth before swallowing. Tried eating a pastry, and did not go well. Feels like my troath is tight now…
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@julialuna I did love your handle before but am so in love with you being you now. I am grateful for all the positive energy you are putting into your recovery. Oh the smiles are so heartwarming and I know your son is super happy for your morning adventures! Its not always easy but this journey is so worthwhile. You are doing amazingly well and I see your 1 month coming up – keep going strong 
@kareness Sending you strength and energy to get a good workout routine started so that you will regain your energy levels. I do hope its easier to do now that the days are getting cooler (I find as the winter approaches, my body is more willing to start doing indoor activities).
@louloubelle YEAH 90 days! You are doing fantastic. Keep at it and I’m sure you will start seeing the physical benefits of sobriety soon.
@mischa84 WOOT WOOT 
Way to go on your triple digits! This is absolutely amazing. Love seeing your bright smile on the selfie thread – keep being the amazing woman that you are.
@jennyh @tragicfarinelli and @binx – loving the conversation. My goodness I had to laugh at the crystal clear comment. 
OOH that was a interesting conversation – learn something new everyday. Never got an invitation for a smear test 
wonder if I was just missed cause I was moving so much at the time or we don’t do that here. On your birthday Jenny – what a lovely gif!
@tragicfarinelli 2 weeks!!! Hells yeah! keep the days rolling in.
@qhob13 so good to see you love and thriving at 43 days! I totally understand the need to battle one addiction at a time – I personally had to go this route as my body and mind couldn’t do it all at once. I am well and still trucking along also. Thank you for checking in – you and your lovely positivity were missed.
@thumper1213 I am sorry for the struggles that you are experiencing. Do know that this won’t last long. You could be experiencing symptoms of PAWS and I know my mind fogginess around 2 months mark and again around 8 months drove me nuts. I did try to surround myself with laughter and positivity to get me through it. Keep your spirts high my friend – this too shall pass.
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@looking4support Oh yes – thank goodness for the TENS machine. Glad that it helped and you feel rested today. Hope you have a wonderful Thanksgiving dinner today.
@chuckie22 So grateful that nothing is broken and you will be all healed shortly. Yeah to day 8 and grateful that you have a ways to go in order to get alcohol… if the urge ever gets so strong – remember to check in with us and breathe through it. The urges will not last long and you will get stronger every time you don’t give in.
@wakikki I do hope your husband is recovering well. I am sorry that you are still experiencing such high anxiety. Are you able to see you doctor tomorrow? You do need more nutrients than chocolate. Can you drink a broth? Possibly some water with electrolytes? I do hope you start feeling better soon my friend… I hate to see you going through this. 
Checking in on Sunday morning…
Had a crappy night sleep (so weird that I noticed many had this last night too) – not sure what is going on. Grateful to have awoken to a beautiful day and was able to have my morning coffee with my mom. Enjoyed some one on one time with my brother and now I will get ready as my sister and her hubby are on the way over to watch the Lions play!
Wishing all my Canadian friends a very Happy Thanksgiving Eve! Hope you all have a wonderful addiction free day – sending you all much love 
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@JazzyS … what was up with last night? I had a crappy sleep toowa! Must be the moon, lol!
I’m happy you are getting to have quality time with your loved one’s, so important.
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I have a appointment tomorrow reguardig my mri, I hope the results have came. So I will ask about this eating problem aswell, or more like swallowingproblem because thats the problem.
Have a wonderfull sunday 
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Day 106 . Felt like a glass of redwine today. I didn’t. Staying in watching ghosts
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Day 977.
How am I feeling nowadays? Another pensive day in a line of like days. Grateful. Peaceful. Thankful. Feeling the feels and being fully aware of my perceptions of self & my life and actual reality.
That about sums it up. Awareness. Reflective. Reality. Acceptance. Contentment. Happy. Remember we all are works in process. Personal growth & authentic living is still my goal not perfection.
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Latenight checkin.
Back home sober.
I had cravings tonight wanting to blow my mind out of this world. Now I am back home. Drinking some zero maracuja lemonade.
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Damn… sorry love! Grateful you are home and safe from these cravings.
Keep kicking addictions ass💪
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Just checking in. I’m going crazy at home. I took another covid test today and it still shows positive. But I feel fine! It’s been 7 days. Am I still contagious??? Google says after five days I can be around people as long as I wear a mask and don’t have a fever. IDK I’m so bored I feel like drinking. After my relapse last week Im thinking I only have a week. I can start again tomorrow. 
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Sending sympathy, sounds like you need to get out. Don’t give up on a week, you don’t want to wake up tomorrow on Day 1. And who knows what happens then, you may want to drink again to deal with the guilt of day 1. My relapses were never just 1 day. Good luck, stick around here, maybe try and get out?
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I WANT to get out. But I don’t know if I’m still contagious and I don’t want to get anyone sick.
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Checking in, just turned 24 days. Today has been a lot better, mild cravings but not like the last couple of days. The alcohol in the house (parents drinking) and shop didn’t bother me so that was a good sign.
Not too much to report, but like to keep checking in to stay on track. My cat has joined me for the last part of the evening. Have a new scented candle going and the end of my book to read so should be very relaxed for bed 
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Can you go for a walk? Totally get you not wanting to infect anyone. Covid totally drags from memory. Hope you get out soon.
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Thank you. I might just do that
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@Try2change I hope sharing about it here helped. 
Sending strength 🩵
@Soberbilly thank you 🩵
@Butterflymoonwoman sorry you’re dealing with these cravings and urges sending strength 🩵
@DanaM56 belated happy birthday 
@TheWolf congrats on 5+ months
@Starlight14 good luck with your test results 
@Susy congrats on 2 months
@Deadman congrats on 5 years 
@Louloubelle congrats on 90 days
@Mischa84 congrats on triple digits 
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