1154 days no alcohol.
619 days no cocaine.
134 days no vape.
Yesterday I walked to the Post Office and sent my important letter off, it will reach itās destination by 1pm tomorrow. So now I wait. My leg felt okay during the walk, and has been okay since.
When I got home from the Post Office, I was getting ready to drive to collect my meds, but something made me check the tracker for my parcel, and it then said it was due for delivery by 3pm, so then I couldnāt go to collect my meds. Luckily Iāve had enough to see me through until I can go there tomorrow, so itās okay. Oh and my parcel did arrive at 14:45.
Also yesterday, my body decided it wanted to hurt really badly all over, it was the most pain Iāve been in for quite some time. I feel a bit better today but still not right. I did my lake walk today, and it was hard work. Glad I did it though, and my leg felt fine and still does now.
Today has been mostly uneventful. Itās been a terrible day with my eating disorder though.
Everytime I come to check in Im sleepy. Had a great dau with kids today, took them to an indoor playground and it was a blast they went non-stop.
Tonight when putting my son to sleep, he asked if I was going and I said not yet and he said āBecause I miss youā while layi g down holding my hand. If you ever had a 2 yr old you understand the severity of a omoment like this LOL usually hes talking to me about tractors and rambling on, or denying its bed time. He let me sing you are my sinshine, and it was the moment of all moments.
Love my babies. So happy to be sober. Only 2 smokes today. Im working on the curb down guys ITS COMING i iust gotta feel it. But its coming i gotta get rid of smoking it drives me nuts.
Anyway, Im still here just busy in life. And feeling okay. Its Thanksgiving where I live, and hard for my mom to be witjout us girla this year. Feels hard in my chest just tjinkimg about my sister. How she did not like pumpkin pie lol and we would stand in the kitchen with my momā¦just all the years in that kitchen.
Checking in Day 602
Today was pretty good. Got a lot done! I worked an 8 hour shift. Came home and made supper. Did 3 loads of laundry. Gave my son a bath. And picked up a package which was my sons halloween costume. The quality of his costume was much better than I expected it would be but for the price i paid for it ($45 which to me is alot for a costume), it better be somewhat decent quality. I havent had any urges to use today. A couple minor thoughts that were very brief but nothing like the cravings I have been experiencing. Overall today was good! Im glad my weekend of work is done and i get to get back to my routine tmrw. Exercise and eating better is definitly on the agenda. Tomorrow is thanksgiving dinner and we are having a nice roast dinner. Cant wait Love to all
Awe those moments with children are sooo special. My son sometimes says really special things to me like that and it completely reinforces why I am clean and sober.
I hope u have a wonderful Thanksgiving! We are celebrating tomorrow also
question: where is it you guys live where itās Thanksgiving tomorrow??
checking in: 4 weeks AF, okay now iām starting to see what i was hiding by drinking all the time. depression. i am not going to diagnose myself but i absolutely feel depressed - itās okay though itās actually comforting to just be sort of sad and melancholy and not try to fake it or numb it or deny it or attempt to change it by reversing it or amplifying it or anything at allā¦ā¦no, justā¦ā¦give up all that. just feel sad. itās okay. iām not miserable, iām not hopeless, iām actually glad to be exploring this feeling because itās the one i was afraid of most and thatās why i drank so much. so itās the one thatās really important to feel now and accept and move through and learn from so it can alchemize within me.
I live in Alberta Canada. Tomorrow is Thanksgiving for us Canadians
Also congratulations on ur 4 weeks being AF!!! Im sorry ur feeling depressed but grateful that ur exploring the feeling and experiencing emotion. Hope it passes soon tho.
@wakikki Hope everything goes well with your appointment today and they are able to help you work on getting food into your system. @timetochange way to stay clear of the urges ā hell yeah 106+ days!!! @cp25 Iām sorry that you are still testing positive for Covid. I know itās tough but hang in there my friend. Like Jenny mentioned, you will regret it far more having to restart at day 1. Hopefully you will be able to get a walk in with some good tunes or a nice podcast ā possibly fresh air may be helpful. @jennyh sounds like a lovely evening for sure. Grateful that the drinking around you didnāt create cravingsā¦ keep strong my friend! you are doing great! @bomdhil So good to see you checking in Thomas ā 4 days and counting. @catmancam so sorry to hear about the painful day. I am grateful that you felt better today and were able to get out today. Yeah to having your parcel delivered also. Your numbers are so impressive. I do hope you wake with no pain and loads of energy tomorrow. @mira_d oh love that is a moment of all moments. SO precious ā makes my heart melt reading it Wishing you all a wonderful Thanksgiving. I am sending love and comfort to you and yours. @cueball8n9 Oh crap ā this Covid is hitting all over it seems. I am so sorry you are feeling so crappy. I do hope the symptoms are not severe and that you are able to recover soon. Grateful that you have someone to help take care of you. @julialuna 4 weeks AF is amazing ā you are cruising right along this sober journey. I am sorry that you are feeling the feelings of depression today. I have to say that you are handling having to deal with them like a champ. Our sober journey is all about finding the tools to help us deal with our feelings (all the crap we have been burying and hiding for so many years). So impressed with how well you are doing and grateful to have you on this journey with us.
Checking in on Sunday evening -
Had a decent day. Got to spend some quality time with family. Watched a not so scary horror movie today and did catch up on a lot of month end accounting - hoping to finish it all up tomorrow.
Getting ready for bed - did not have any cravings today - was surrounded by drinking and the smell alone made me gag (gave me a bit of a headache).
Sending you all so much love
New week, working early shifts. Man flu is gone for the most part. I did a long urban/industrial hike yesterday. Still some work to do on my mental state but feeling OK-ish. Working on connection to others and connection to myself. One day at a time. Weāre in this together and I couldnāt do it without you. Love.
5 years plus one day without alcohol. I went back and forth about 15 years before getting sober and thought i was the hopeless case. Looking back i understand that i was always trying to do it alone and rationalize. Going to groups was a game changer, as was understanding its not a battle to win with smartness. Its not a battle at all rather than about surrendering to your emotions and learning to cope with them ( for the rest of your life in my case). Among other thingsā¦ thank you TS community, sober and sobriety seeking fellows all over the world. Everyone has hope
Sorry youāre craving and hope youāve made it through. An idea is to listen to one of the meditations on the meditation thread, listen to some music you like, read a book or simply go to bed and sleep it off. Craves come and craves go. Find something to occupy that crave time.
@SobrietyForMe yes cravings for me are worse in the evening, although there is always a point at which this switches, and then I enjoy the rest of my evening. I am finding little rituals to replace it, like my scented candles, a bath, chocolate as the treat. How are you today?
Appoinment was good, they found nothing wrong with MRI, only something not relevant in c6-c7(?), and not a reason for my pains. Also got referd for gastro, he was sure I would get appoinment a day this week. Foodwise doctor want me to eat easy soft food, I will try but Im not sure how it will go.
love the sea woodlouse it does look like it came from there bless it 
š©µ congrats on 2+ months 
Love to all 
