Stayed up way too late and missed the day 20 check-in, timer just switched to day 21!
Pretty great day, besides being tired, but if that’s the worst part of my day I will take that!
Woke up before 6am, my internal alarm clock works better than my actual alarm clock. Played around with the idea of going back to sleep, but that wasn’t happening. Dragged myself out of bed, brewed up some coffee, got some Zeppelin vinyl spinning, turned it up loud and got the day started. Cleaning day, got a lot done around my house, things look good. Got all my laundry done and even managed to hang up all the laundry that had taken over the chaise lounge in my bedroom. It’s been growing for about three weeks now. I don’t mind doing laundry, but despise putting it away.
Made it to the grocery store, bought what I needed for the Sunday Night Football BBQ with some friends. Burgers turned out great, game stunk, but the company was amazing. Plenty of laughs to go around, just what I needed.
About to close my eyes and try to take advantage of the four hours I have before my alarm clock starts a whole new work week!
Work was as lame as I predicted. I’m posting from Lake Ontario, where the service is basically none. It took so long to load the app. My friend invited me out to stay at a cabin since tomorrow’s a holiday and my daughter is staying an extra night with her dad. The weather is awful but it was/is a nice time. My bed is rather squeaky tho, lol. It’s just nice to get away from home for a night. Different. Everyone’s asleep so I probably should be too. Just wanted to check in. Have a great 24 hours!
Congratulations! Thanks for coming to share with us and talk about what your milestone means to you. It is so helpful for all of us working toward long term sobriety and recovery.
Need to vent…sorry for this in advance…my mother has me furious…she NEVER ever understands my feelings on things… right now im waiting on blood, urine, stool tests to check me for problems after i asked them to because i was a heavy drinker and because i thought i had a uti but didnt and blood was found in my urine…i stupidly aired my concerns to her that im worried something bad comes up and im met with a big sigh…a roll of the eyes and told that i am “ridiculous” and cant cope with anything…all i was doing was trying to talk to my own mother to air my concerns to feel a little better about it all, honestly i should know by now i cannot go to her for any kind of reassurance about anything…im so hurt and angry
Feeling good. Nothing going on much, just looking forward to a swim later tonight, and an early night to finish my book and start a new one. Day kind of feels slow, work is quiet too. Won’t moan, enjoy the peace
Day 9! I am still feeling excellent. I slept well last night - actually fell asleep on the couch at 9:30 after watching Halloween Ends. Went into the bedroom around 1am and slept through the rest of the night.
Through this first week or so of not drinking, I had the thought many times that I could eventually have one or two and learn to moderate. Then I thought (and this is by big thought this morning) - why would I even want to try? Right now I have zero interest in picking up a drink at any point. I hope that feeling lasts, and if it doesn’t - I’ll fight it. Because I’m badass.
@cp25 oh this made me so happy to read. A lovely drive with a perfect breeze sounds lovely indeed. I do hope you are feeling better and are able to mingle with others soon. @fireweed Congrats on 5 years + of sobriety! Keep kicking addictions ass @sobrietyforme Ah yes – I too found that night time was harder as it’s the time for me to unwind and when I would hit everything extra hard. For the beginning I had to change up my shit so I would clean the house at night or have dedicated tasks to be done at night so I was focused and busy. Also relied on a lot of liquids in my drinking glasses (for me this helped trick my mind – I know its not for everyone). You are doing amazingly well with 18 days – keep at it, the urges do subside. @maestro wishing you luck on your first day of work! Hope you do get some decent sleep tonight @wakikki I am sorry – I too am experiencing a lot of tests where something non relevant is coming up but no answers to the main cause. This is very frustrating but keep faith that you will find answers. I also see it as a overhaul cause I’m finding and taking care of other things that would not have been on my radar. I do hope you are able to eat soft foods and fingers crossed you get in to see the gastro doc very soon. BTW – season 10 episode 6 for me… I am catching up @hidden 3 week milestone – this is awesome! Keep going strong my friend @nordique 1212 I do love these numbers @bomdhil Many hugs to you my friend. Please do NOT engage in negative thinking. The Time is NOW. Couldn’t have said it better. I so admire how you keep bringing yourself right back and I do hope that with your continued efforts with support and prayer you will find a way to make this stick. Are you facing what is causing these slips? IE – seeing if you can avoid these triggers in the future. I just don’t like you beating yourself. Lean on us when you feel the urges – this site is active ALL the time – utilize that and gain the support needed. @starlight14 oh sweetheart I am so sorry that you were met with such indifference for your concerns. You have every right to feel concerned but I do hope the worry is met with positive results and this is just normal body behavior. Hopefully the test results do not take forever to process so you can put your mind to ease quickly. We are here for you love – I am truly sorry that you were not reassured and comforted when you needed it most
You are very important to me and the TS community! Is something going on that I missed- sorry, I have not been able to keep up with all the threads this past week. We are here with you and for you my friend and DO KNOW that YOU are loved and your light positive energy is much appreciated
Monday morning checking in – i woke up feeling really badly but luckily my coffee and pressing some pressure points is helping me find my way to the land of the living. Have a super busy day ahead of me so i am grateful to be regaining my energy. I will be doing some yardwork which was always accomplished with a pack of cigs and a six pack so i will make sure to chew gum and take my la croix. I know i will beat any urges that arise.
Wishing you all a wonderful addiction free day! Sending you all so much love
Thank you so much Jasmine, like really thank u alot… i needed to read this today, she invalidates how i feel at every single opportunity and then i doubt myself
Kelly, I’m sorry your mom isn’t capable of showing you the support and compassion you need. Like Jasmine says, you will find it elsewhere. My own mother daughter relationship wasn’t grand either, I had to learn to ignore her toxic attitudes and it wasn’t always easy.
I do love these numbers
