Checking in on day 106, life has been pretty busy so I haven’t had much time to catch up on here.
I’m doing well, and my sobriety has been giving me hope.
Sending positive vibes to everyone 
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Congratulations 
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I’m dying inside… my last memory of my daughter was her in a body bag
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Oh Cynthia I am so very sorry love!!! What a trauma you have endured. Have you been talking with anyone about this? It doesn’t matter how old or new the memory is, I can sense the pain is still very raw. I just want to send you hugs and comfort my dear friend. Please do not turn to drink to try and numb this. Nothing good comes from alcohol. I am here if you need to talk. It’s okay to feel hurt and okay to scream / cry.
Do you have anyone around at the moment or are you alone at home? Are you feeling any better from Covid?
Much love dear friend - i am here 
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I am at 85 days sober today. Before sobriety I was drinking 1000 calories a day. I too am consuming chocolate and sugary treats. My weight is showing too much stuff. Congratulations on 90 days and hoping body starts showing good stuff soon
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I dont feel like checking in so I know i should lol no reason I am just tired! Been a long long weekend here, rainy and omg the two kids have been at. Each. Other. Like just constantly. I feel like as a fam we need to have like a plan for long weekends that is just iron clad lol. Thanksgiving so people were busy, and in laws were away…didnt go to see my family bc it was very far.
We ended up having our friends over and it was nice but exhausting. Our kids were fighting the whole time, and I thought it was just my daughter being overly sebsitive as that seems to happeb when we have people over. She seemed hungry and cranky and kept coming down saying her friend was being rude, the mom went up once to talk to her son but then it seemed to me like everything was upsetting my daughter. At one point she said she wanted them to go home, and it was right in front of them. I went up and talked to her and asked if she wanted to have her friend back over, she said yes. So i said well when we have companybits out job to have a good time and treat them good, and let them use our stuff and share…
I even spoke to the mom about how Noèmie is sensitive and we she gets upset when people brush her off or kids are not being gentile. Well, after they left my husband told me the little boy was being rude!! I didnt even REALIZE i mean i figure some normal back and forth, but I just feel so guilty like I betrayed my daughter (LOL NOT LOL) but seriously i feel awful. I am tryinf tp think of how to behave next time, but I told my husband like BE CLEAR when someone is being rude to her he said he thought I knew omg i didnt! I could see him reacting her to her big emotion and then kind of being over it, but that happens when kids are constantly having emotions. Anyway, i want to know how to be a strong parent for my daughter in those situations bc my daughter is sensitive and there isnt anything wrong with that. I want to support her, and make sure she knows Im there for her especiallt in her own damn house! Man parenting is a fuxking trip.
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Checking in
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Just thought id do my daily check in before it gets too late. Today was Thanskgiving so we celebrated by having a beautiful roast dinner. It was lovely! Overall my day was okay but had some cravings again to use. Started getting irritable and cranky at one point (due to cravings and having too much going on around me), and so had to remove myself from everyone. I ended up having a shower to just be alone. Prayed for help with removing those urges and practiced some deep breathing. It did help a bit. Just about to put my son to bed and then I will relax with hubby to end our night. Tomorrow i have some running around to do as well as hit the gym so hoping to get a good rest! Have a nice evening everyone! 
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Thank you for sharing. I will make a point of attending next week. I’m not doing AA so this may be more inline with what I need. 
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114 days with out alcohol
I’m tired. I started a fitness challenge today and it will require me to workout 5 days a week and 3 days of cardio. I’m hoping my back cooperates. I prefer working out in the morning but some mornings the pain is too much. It typically takes a good 30 minutes or more to loosen up. There are days I can’t tie my shoes. It’s so disheartening. I used to workout 7 days a week.
Birthday weekend was so nice. My friend really sent out if her way to make it special. I’m very grateful and blessed to have people in my life that love and support me.
I’m shocked I’m coming up on 4 months with out alcohol. Looking forward to another milestone.
Sleep well everyone.
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checking in before falling asleep, 29 days alcohol free, will wake up tomorrow with 30 full days AF 
i am facing so much y’all, i’m really peering into it and basically being like: “WTF!!” 
i have no idea what’s happening or who i really am & all i can do is just stay present and trust that answers will be revealed in time lol.
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@moosetracks well done on 400 days! Keep stacking on those numbers.
@deelzebub so happy for orders that can change a day I do hope you enjoy yoga tomorrow and have a brighter day 
@sabrina80 Damn the cycle – I do know that you look amazing! I am very aware of how crappy it is to work hard and lose then take a break cause you are sick and have it all come back.
@noshame 2 days no marijuana is so awesome! Driving class on Wednesday – so exciting!
@soberbilly AAH – thanks for clarifying. Grateful that I misunderstood.
@juli1 you are a gem love – thank you Jules for spreading the love. We are all so grateful for your love!
Damn lady — I do hope you get some rest and a lovely nights rest. You had a superwoman day today – 3 girls at a theme park and 90 minute drive – yikes! I too would be dead tired after that day.
@wakikki you crack me up – already restarted the series (my kinda gal). I do hope you get gastro soon – it sucks hard (I dealt with bad heartburn and acid reflux for months and it was not fun). Chocolate can aggravate heartburn. Try bland mushy food – it helps to repair the stomach lining. So far all that’s coming up on radar is manageable with a lot of dietary and life changes but I know that every road bump is helping me heal. Are you able to seek a second opinion – Cam is right that your spinal issues could be the cause of your pain.
@holysquid love your day of self pampering! How lovely was that. Dye?? Did you try out a different color 
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Good to see you back 
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Didn’t feel as tired for a long time as I did yesterday. I did sleep some more this night even though I do have a bit of a problem falling asleep. Didn’t have that for a very long time. Here’s to hoping it doesn’t persist. Not tempted to use anything to sleep though. I need a healthy sleep pattern.
Off to work I go. Sober and clean. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Love from Amsterdam. Pic is just a kitty I met the other day.
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@binx oh sweetheart – I’m sorry that I didn’t explain correctly – I just didn’t get an invitation for the smear but have had many and am grateful for the peace of mind that all is good. Thank you for your concern love – much appreciated.
@looking4support Oh man I’m sorry you are in such pain and that the TENS machine is not doing its thing. Grateful that the heat run eased some pain. I purchased a Red Light Therapy belt from Amazon and I have found this helps reduce some muscle pain.
@lorelai so good to see you back. Sorry to hear about you getting Covid. Hope you are fully recovered now
@cp25 how are you love? Just thinking of you and sending you love and comfort
@danam56 great job on starting the fitness challenge. I do hope your back pain doesn’t bother you too much. Were you able to discuss this with your doctor?
Too Good To Go – wow, how have I never heard of this. So cool! Just downloaded this app.
Checking in late on Monday – ooh, its about to be Tuesday…
Was a very busy day and i did manage to get a lot of work done at the house - will be putting it on market for rent tomorrow. Also got all my month end accounts up to date.
Hoping to change over to a different software which will be exciting. Well, just catching up here now and will be heading to la la land soon hopefully. Much love to all you beautiful souls
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2490 days. Did a good walking workout yesterday and will try again for tomorrow. Had a good energy level today.
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Checking in.
Staying sober.
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End of Day 21:
Just a quick check-in at the end of day 21. I AM TIRED! Really need to get this sleep thing figured out. Other than that another pretty great day. Work was busy, but not too bad. Came home and mowed my front lawn and then a friend stopped by to say hi. They ended up staying to watch Monday Night Football, not a bad game. DoorDashed some Costa Vida for dinner and had some good laughs watching the game. Felt good having some company.
Made it to bed and a migraine is beating my brain from the inside out. Took some Ibuprofen, but it’s not touching the pain. Need to drink some water and try to get some sleep.
HAPPY TO BE SOBER1
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Ahwwww you are smashing it!
Huge congratulations and a big hug my sweet friend
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And I’m glad to be here with you! 
We’re doing it together! I’m proud of us
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