Checking in
Day 604
Todays been a pretty good day for the most part. I woke up kind of grumpy, irritable, and tired but I went to Walmart right after my son got on the bus and did some shopping for my son which always lifts my spirits. I bought him a new snowsuit, mitts, and hats, Minecraft pants, a shirt, and a couple more smaller toys for Halloween.
Came home to clean which made me feel good. And then rested for a bit before picking my son up from the school bus. The only thing that wasnt good was my eating. So tomorrow I HAVE to make some changes. I really have to put my focus on my health. Im physically feeling ill and not well 
Other than this, today was good! Very little urges to use. Hope everyone is having a great addiction free day! 
Thank you Anne.
Day 5 sober. I’m still really struggling with my mental health. I’m barely functioning. This is pure survival mode.
OFDAAT
Tomorrow Will be 3 weeks. It’s definitely work now keeping it going. The honeymoon part has faded. It’s all about staying on course now.
Have a weekend away planned with my dad and brother coming up for my 30 days.
30 is gonna be awesome to be able to post but if I’m gonna be honest, I’m looking toward that 90 days. So far ahead of me be I’m just gonna keep on getting there. Congrats to everyone checking in, holding myself accountable has been the biggest inspiration so far!
Day 724 AF
What’s good, gang.
I am getting close to two years sober. Pretty stoked for that!
I’m still dealing with daily flare ups from hell, but I am surviving. Waiting for my 24 pH monitoring results.
Been going on skateboard cruises, working, staying busying with the fam and the kiddos. Same ol same ol.
Hope everyone’s doing well. Take care.
ODAAT.
Day
3 no form of marijuana
153 no alcohol
84 no vapes or ciggs
Feeling good about my numbers
I haven’t gone 3 days without pot for a while
Energy is back on track at the moment
Crazy day at work
Made it though
Checking in on day 107, before bed. I’ve been in a pretty good mood lately, I’ve been writing out the things I did during addiction so I can work through it instead of avoiding it. It’s hard, but needed.
Have a great night everyone 
Hey ya’ll,
So what I thought was just farmers allergies is now sinusitis! I can feel it up in my eye, lovely. I had it before and had to get antibiotics bc it wouldnt go away but we shall see. I dont think any amount of ginger or garlic or lemon or turmeric will save me lol.
To add to my mom guilt from the other day my daughter was also running a HIGH fever in the middle of the night. For me that whole situation is lesson learned and I asked myself what could I do differently, and I have some answers and will apply them to other visits. Its pretty new to us visiting woth people we are just getting to know, and our old friends theres a very comfortable parent vibe (even if we parent differently)…anyway I dont mind taking the lead, I want to make sure I am doing my job to facilitate a good time and not putting the burden on my daughter…
I cooked a bunch today and let her watch a bunch of tv (hi mom guilt for the win). Gearing up for more meetings for my nephew. Trying to take deep breaths. I know his case up and down and I wont let up till we find some sort of resolution. This is what parents and guardians are up against for their children who have disabilities, and people may understand why we fight but they sure do not like having to deal with us. I am fine with that, and somewhere along the way I made peace with the fact that I dont care if people do not like me. This is not about personal feelings, its about getting the job done. For my boy; my sisters boy. I pay my debts.
This has happened to me a few days in a row where I am writinf my check in and I get interrupted and then dont finish. We’re doing a new bedtime routine with my son and its working so well, which makes me really happy though usually while I nurse is when I would check in. Im nursinf for a shorter period and putting him down asleep and he just chats away to me and its the most adorable thing. I am so darn inlove with these kids!
Anyway everyone im so happy to be sober. I feel like, because I had this before I knew what I was missing and what to look forward to. Those 10 years, i learned so much about myself and life and these last few years were a bunch of exploring and lo be tide I came to the realization through that that drinking sure is not for me. Its amazing to me the grip it can have on you, and I didnt feel that until my sister died but it was truly a feeling like I want to quit, and I felt I couldnt. That feels so far from me now, and I am so grateful for that and I know what this place here means to me. I so treasure the community, and if youre still struggling please know it does get better and is possible. And if youre sober and struggling, take it one step at a time but look at what youre struggling with…anger. examine it. Depression. Whats under it. Envy. What is it? Anxiety. What can we do about it? Theres no perfect answer; no one answer and often we dont know wtf the answer is till we’re half way down the road looking back. Love you all xo.
237
It was a boring, lazy, chilly day. I had to drag out the old space heater. I didn’t really make a plan for today so I didn’t do much. Which I’m totally fine with.
Last night I realized I was out of catfood so I’m lucky I wasn’t eaten during the night. So first thing I was grateful my car started and made it to the gas station. Then I took a country drive down to a pet store I’d never been to bc I thought it was for farm animals. They had my brand of cat litter, which is increasingly harder to find, and the diet catfood I’d been planning to buy for a lot cheaper than anywhere I’ve seen. Still a lot of $ so it’d better work!
Then just relaxing around the house the rest of the day. I met my other new neighbor. Turns out the kitten I fed in the hallway was hers (there’s pics in the Cat People thread 
). She doesn’t look as if she belongs in this building. She moved here from Buffalo and said everything has been fine except she’s been a little scared. I didn’t really ask why but told her I’m right next door if she needs anything. Growing up here, I’ve seen enough to not startle easily. Then she tried to sell me insurance 
Anyway. I’m going to watch as much of Get Out as I can before I crash. Goodnight 
Checking in day 115 no alcohol.
@Just_Laura so envious of your chilly day. It was a balmy 96 in AZ today. I’m so over it.
Work was a shit show but that is typical. My bright light was helping an underserved baby that’s in foster care and in need of eye surgery. These cases always remind me why I do what I do.
Work out went well. My back seems to be holding up so im extremely grateful. Now the rest of my body is sore though.
Heading to bed now. Grateful and appreciate all of you.
So good to have you with us Joe! Love having you here with us on our journey!
@chuckie22 how did you do today? Were you able to find ways to keep yourself busy?
@nunu1 Welcome back Nicky. Great job on your 6 months! That moderation demon is a bitch and one we definitely need to stay away from. Grateful that you checked in with us – we do understand this struggle.
@sadmemequeen Thanks for sharing your thread – will definitely head over for a read. I am grateful that writing it out and listening to music helped. Much love Megan!
@karenkw good to see you back on the check in thread – yeah to day 5! I am so sorry that you are struggling. We are here to listen if you need to talk / vent. Sending you comfort and strength to get through this.
This sounds exciting. Sorry that you are dealing with flare ups – I do hope that the results help figure out how to give you relief from these flare ups. 2 years so close – I am so thrilled for you!
WOW – this can be intense. Sending you strength in dealing with this. Much love and comfort for you 
@mira_d oh love sinusitis does not sound fun at all – I do hope that it runs its course soon and that you are feeling and breathing better very soon.
Checking in late on Tuesday evening… a very exhausting day with dealing with fatigue (i did take a nap but that didn’t help) – i feel like a zombie and have a lot of work to get done tomorrow. Hoping i do get some sleep tonight and wake up bright eyed and bushy tailed. No cravings so hey it was a good day!
Sending all of you much love
I did stay busy actually. Roasted a shit ton of Buttercup Squash to puree and freeze to make Ravioli with at a later date. Kept my mind and hands busy, no time to think of drinking. 
Have so much extra veggies from our garden so I will be packing up a bunch of it to take to our local Food Bank.
Oh how lovely! this is great news and so good for your future tummy and so lovely that you are helping out the Food Bank.
Saw your horseradish on the Foodie thread – YUM!
This weather is fine but it means snow will be here soon, with below 0 temps, and my bones will ache 
Your extremes aren’t any better 
Sorry 
Another good, but tired, day.
Typical Tuesday, work, home early, mowed the backyard, quick shower and then went to my daughters volleyball game. Really good game, they won in 4 sets, all close games.
As I was driving to the game a feeling of gratitude overwhelmed me. Grateful to no longer have alcohol consuming and controlling my life. In the past I planned my whole day and night around drinking. I had to get home drink. When my daughter had games I hated it because I had to stay sober until after the game. Have to admit, and something I’m not proud of, but there were times I would have a drink or a couple of beers before I went. The high school is 4 minutes from my house, but that was no excuse, driving should have never been an option. Then add the anxiety and paranoia I felt while at the game, insane. There were times I left early so I could get home and drink. I hated it, I love watching her play, but the control alcohol had over me destroyed every other want, desire, pleasure I had in my life! Scary really.
As I drove to the game today I was smiling, I was happy, excited to see my daughter before the game. Enjoyed being at the game, my mom was there, did my best to enjoy her company, but that can be hard even when I’m stone cold sober. I love her, but she can be a handful 
! But I enjoyed every moment of being there, the way it should be!
Grateful I have made this choice. Grateful to once again break free of the chains of alcohol. Just need to remind myself of this every single day and do everything I can to never go back again.
Grateful to be sober!
Day 40
I passed a lot of cravings, every single one was worth it. Playing the tape forward is still a good tool for me, as well as spending a lot in good care about myself and taking my personal needs in account. Realy sitting down, pausing and asking “hey what does it need”?.
I added meetings and recovery work with refuge recovery to my way. I am like a snail. But I move in the right direction. I got support
I still hope I am not lost. All that is waiting in active addiction is like hell.
The contact to a guy causing a lot of trouble and anxiety to my nervous system is off. My toxic ex work environment is no more part of my life. Big changes and end of next week I will move into a new apartment, another new start.
Thanks TS gang for having this place and all you wondeful people here
Great job Julia
Yay, congratulations 
Great job!
Great job moving forward! Doesn’t look so snailish to me 
Checking in, Day 27. Sleepy today but my chronic fatigue dip is definitely improving. Working from home today too so that should be easier. I felt so antisocial at work yesterday, was too tired to keep up the chat, and when I did manage it I lost all track of what I was doing at work.
Still feeling quite sensitive today, not sure if that is hormonal or chronic fatigue. Hoping that people are kind today at work, I luckily avoided angry people yesterday too. The world seems a little angrier since Covid, the drive in alone is always quite a shocker in terms of behaviour.
Have a good day everyone