Checking in daily to maintain focus #59

Life in Recovery
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It used to be. I started working in food service at 15, and my last bartending job was 6ish years ago now. The dreams never stop though.

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Mary Catherine Gallagerā€¦what a hilarious movie!

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day 587 of no self harm

itā€™s been 3 years since my middle school best friend took his life. Iā€™m really having a hard time. I woke up and felt ok but all my bad feelings manifested into nausea. and I have emetophobia so Iā€™ve been having panic attacks off and on all day. Iā€™m trying to write about it. itā€™s hard but I think it needs to be out of my system. Iā€™ll post a thread with what I wrote when Iā€™m done

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6 months,checking in.
Havenā€™t been here for a while. Hello everyone!
At six months I generally try to convince myself I can moderate my drinking. I cannot moderate my drinking and donā€™t need to prove it to myself again. I just needed to say that out loud. To people I know will understand.:cherry_blossom:

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Put your own gas mask on first. If that means no gym today then listen to your needs. Hope you feel better soon x

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Hey :wave: Welcome back! Congrats on 6 months :tada:

I do understand exactly. This isnā€™t my first time here, but it is my longest (since pregnancy). This time I know for sure where Iā€™ll end up if I take even just one drink. I keep that thought alive every day. Just one drink today could be the drink that kills me.

I came back here when I had 5 months. I just felt like I needed to do more and keep myself accountable. Sounds like youā€™re doing the same thing so awesome job! Keep coming back :heart:

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Pretty good day apart from the pile up body crash in the swimming pool :joy::rofl: Feeling pretty chilled out today, relaxed but worked hard. Work is getting a tiny bit slower after a mental summer.

I have a tendency to have knee jerk reactions to stuff with work (being rushed, extra pressure) and I tend to say something that I regret about an hour later when I have cooled down a bit. I hate wingeing to be honest and I hate my own whining but I canā€™t stop myself. I really want to work on this, but in a way that I am genuinely chilled inside and let it all go. Definitely a character defect of mine.

Anyway, Iā€™m super happy with 16. Feels good :100:

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Checking in @day #131

Hereā€™s a perk I was able to enjoy at the grocery store the other day as I live in sobriety:

I donā€™t have to go to full checkout and I can self checkout as much as I want :laughing:

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Checking in on day 128 AF.
My mood has been better today. I wasnā€™t sick this morning for the first time in ages and I got off to the mid morning yoga class which I enjoyed. My teacher has offered to make me a cuppa before class tomorrow so thatā€™s something to look forward to.

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Thank you so much, I hope your pain subsides and you have a great week too! :heart:

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Yes! I thought that the other day. Normally I had to wait at self checkout for someone to certify my age, but not anymore. I get to breeze on through without anyone spotting all my snacks :rofl:

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Thank you @JazzyS and @Tragicfarinelli You were both right. I managed a full day at work and not good for much else. Enjoyed a bath and cuddles with my daughter instead. I have eaten way too much junk but it could definitely be a lot worse. There is always tomorrow to go to the gym, and I probably will. Thank you both :people_hugging:

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@Mno @JennyH @Misokatsu @Alisa @Butterflymoonwoman @JazzyS @CATMANCAM @tailee17

Sorry for the late reply. Havenā€™t checked in for a couple of days. Thank you all for the well wishes. Itā€™s so very much appreciated :heart:
Now to catch up on what everyoneā€™s been up to for the last couple of days :blush: x

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How are you doing Megan. U canā€™t imagine all the memories and feelings you must be experiencing right now. I do hope writing it out helps.
Let us know when you postā€¦would love to read.
Just thinking of you and sending you comfort :people_hugging:

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Oh I do love this. These moments are yours to treasure :smiling_face_with_three_hearts:
I do hope you get a lovely nightā€™s rest and wake up feeling shiny and new :wink:

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i actually did post here it is

Iā€™m feeling better now, I put on some music and it helped
take my mind off it a lot

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Day 1025,

Continued on step 4-5, glad I did. Tiresome now of to bed :zzz::zzz:

Good night all :heart:

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Goodnight :zzz::star:

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:rofl::rofl::rofl:

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They will just hang in there!!! Its a wild beautiful ride xo.

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