Busy work day but managed the gym. So pleased with myself, but equally need to be mindful as my leg nearly gave way on the crosstrainer so my neuro stuff is kicking in, bit of a warning sign really. Only 2 days left at work though so can try and rest at the weekend. A bit nervous as have my Covid jab. I want to have it, but it always seems to trigger a mini chronic fatigue dip too. Oh well, better than Covid.
Autumn has hit hard here. Dark and wet. Have lit a candle and got under the covers to try and challenge those gloomy weather thoughts.
What a wonderful post @Hidden.
It warms my heart to hear how much better your days are and how close you are with your daughter now.
Iām proud of you. Keep on fighting the good fight.
Weāre together in this.
I havenāt checked in for a few days. Mostly because Iāve been busy, sick, and feeling quite weird. Thereās something about milestones that seem to be messing with my head.
Congrats on your month + a day! It is good youāre aware of the people, places and things that can be problematic. Stay the course and steer clear when in doubt.
Checking in Day 605
I am feeling a bit off today. Slept most of the day and then have not done much for the rest of it. I am having urges to use like crazy and am just using distraction to get thru them. Im currently making supper and then will do some self care. A nice hot shower may help. I am literally not doing anything that i said i would like to begin doing to help myself. Nothing changes if nothing changes. I really need to get serious about overcoming these cravings to use and also about my health. Im feeling pretty blah overall. I will come thru this just need to get my motivation back. I guess thats it for now. Hope everyone has a good night
Today wasnāt quite as bad. Met up with an old friend for dinner and that was really nice. Booked a cabin in the mountains for next week as a little change of scenery. I donāt really have time off, but I can work from there. Sitting on the porch overlooking the forest.
