Checking in one last time today before bed. I made it through my second Friday without hitting the bars. I went to the gym today, then came home and made dinner. Called the parents and then spent the rest of the evening watching movies. I can chalk this up as a win.
Goodnight, all!
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Today was a day. Just another day. Nothing particularly exciting. Nothing to put a damper on things. I was quite hungry, and ate a lot more than usual, but I mustāve needed it. Sleepy, and hitting the hay early again, so I must need that too. 'Tis the season of hibernation after all.
Peace unto you 
Thanks Jasmine.
Your day sounds comfortable and fun as well! Hope you are staying to feel better. 
Day 25:
So happy the weekend is here! Had the best night of sleep last night that Iāve had in a long time. Actually had 6 solid hours of sleep and woke up to my alarm screaming at me. What I wouldnāt give to have been able to slap the alarm off and continued that beautiful sleep.
Begrudgingly dragged myself out of bed and made my way to work. I could definitely feel the benefits of getting some much needed rest. My mood was up all day, felt amazing. Work flew by, finished up checking on all my jobs by 2:00. Washed my truck and with no real plans for the night I hit the grocery store and bought two nice pork chops to grill and just planned a solo night at home.
Weather was gorgeous today so I got a little yard work done, loved the warm fall sun. Came in to get dinner ready. Got the chops prepared with some olive oil, sea salt, crushed black pepper and a little seasoned salt (first time grilling them this way). Grilled up perfectly and paired it with the leftover mashed cauliflower from last night. My daughter called while I was making dinner and said she was starving, perfect timing. Had a great time talking with her over the best pork chops Iāve ever made, she loved the dinner as well so huge bonus!
We talked about her plans for the high school Halloween dance sheās going to tomorrow and made plans to go to Frightmares, our local amusement park that transforms into a haunted park for Halloween, on Sunday. We are both amusement park junkies, she will go on every ride with me and we go on everything. Sheās been that way since she was almost tall enough to go on the rides. We used to put her hair up in the biggest bun possible and put socks in her shoes to make her taller when she was little 
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Excited for another beautiful day tomorrow and then itās going to be a fun day on Sunday, canāt wait!
Another great day reinforcing the joy of sobriety, couldnāt be happier!
Congratulations to you for your sobriety, especially in the face of a lot of stress!
@Brian1965uk
So grateful, even after only four hours sleep. Cat was a sleep terrorist.
Hereās the West London sunriseā¦ So grateful and Sober
Am in Richmond park (hey Ted Lasso fans) this morning early to hopefully see some Deer, itās that time of year for the Rut, hopefully get some pics. Coffee as well is needed.
Happy Sober day x
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Checking in after intensive 8,5 hours sleep.
Commited to sobriety and love 
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Twohundredandtwentytwo!
I like the look of it 
We are having family staying over for a few nights from Monday. They still drink, and one of my tasks is to stock up on the beer beforehand. I thought I would feel triggered or angry or fomo when the shopping day finally comes, but I just feel indifferent about it. Just donāt forget the dishwasher salt for a third time!
Their life is their life.
My life is my life.
And right now I like my life as it is very very much.
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Temps are a bit more in sync with the season this morning. I slept OK. Having my coffee now. Digging up my 
. Preparing to commute to my weekend late shift.
Met a former patient in the train yesterday, coming from therapy. Had a nice talk. Heās ninety days clean and still in treatment. Itās nice to see a success story at times, as normally all we see are the ones that come back after a relapse.
Talking about therapy, I love my individual therapist and the therapy we do. Less so for group therapy at the moment. We had a good talk about that. Will have to address some issues with the group therapist too. Biggest one being that Iām the only male there. Thatās really making me feel isolated right now.
That feeling of isolation developed into a crave later that night last week, first one I had in a long time. I recognised it for what it was - a flight response - and didnāt act on it. Lifeās not always fun but at least I can work on mine without running for an escape. Never again.
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love from Utrecht.
Day 411
I love Autumnā¦theres something about the beautiful earthy colours of autumn that i really loveā¦sometimes i have a drive through the countryside just to look at itā¦i stareā¦take a deep breath and take it inā¦i love the sunsets, the crispy leaves under my feet, wrapping myself up because its cold out, my daughters rosy cheeks, hot chocolates, sitting in a warm house in my pjs when its cold outside is so comforting, comfort foodā¦stews with dumplings, broths, shepherdās pie, roastsā¦Halloweenā¦yes its cold but i love it!
Love to you all on this beautiful Autumn day
Good morning all, checking in before leaving for work. Have a great Saturday, hopefully most of you are off and have a relaxing day SAF
Day 112. Had a nice Friday evening just relaxing. Booked my air b n b for visiting my family, as well as a meal for 15. My children tho havenāt said they want to attend. Iāve never understood how people can become estranged but now i understand it more so. Apparently there are 5 million adults in the uk estranged from a family member.
Horrible feeling, like having a dementor walk along side u
Today i am sober and gardening:)
Today i will be sober.
Good morning all, checking in Day 30.
Change of plans today as my daughter isnāt well (just a cold), so no football match. Have started the day watching her YouTube videos but having a little moment of peace. Husband is using the opportunity to escape and go to the gym/shops. I am a little jealous but it is only fair after he got soaked last night at training while I went to the gym.
Beautiful Autumnal day today, may try and get out for a quick walk if daughter is distracted, and then clean. Windows open, welcoming in the good air 
Covid jab later so am anticipating a Covid dip (bit of a trigger), so want to have a nice bedroom to rest in after.
Have a lovely, sober day all!
Day 34 ā¦first night of actually sleeping n not
Passing out
So pleased to see you here (nearly posted on the āYou are missedā thread). Sorry about the stressful situation but massive congratulations on 11 months 
Thank you for the kind words and reminding me of the positive Lorelai, that definitively helps!
@RosaCanDo hey friend, so good to see you! Thanks for relating to the hardships of the emotional work, itās good to be understood. Hope you are well! Iāll sort through the feelings and might take you up on that offer later!
@Dazercat thank you Eric!! Always a pleasure to see you here, thanks for sharing that meeting wisdom
@Mira_D thank you Mira Iām so sorry for your loss - glad youāre checking in with us during this time!
I love your perspective on change, thatās really helpful. I felt so good and solid in sobriety that I was comfortable enough to invite another person into my life, just to be completely overwhelmed by the emotions it brought up. Iāll just need to learn a new way to process, so thank you for that!
Good morning. My son is getting married today. I am happy for him. Mixed feelings about the family he is marrying into. Mother-in-law = help!! Butā¦his bride really loves him!!! That is most important. Two receptions todayā¦open bar at both. No problem!!
Feeling the distance to the people who should feel close. Geus my friends were picked for a reason in the past. Nice weather friends so to say. It feels isolated from time to time.
Yesterday had my orientation meeting with a re-integration office. I broke down in the beginning a bit. The situation Iām in still feels quit overwhelming. It was a very capable guy nice but direct and also honest. He complimented me for my honesty, there is no other way right. I donāt want to avoid starting this process which is kind off obligatory by law as well. Off the record he just mentioned I should focus on my recovery and not take to objective to get a job out of it. The focus of the coaching would be then on who am I. what do I want, what are my strengths etc. If I would go for a job (which Iām not yet capable of) I would throw in my own window he said. Has also to do with benefits but wonāt try the explain it here. He advices me if I start to do it for instance via an internship. It overwhelms me since I can not over see all of it. There quite some consequences attached, but thatās for the future they say. Wished my head could think like that 
