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Latenight checkin, back home sober.
The moving is moving a lot.
I found some base in the pool.
Thanks for healing contacts 
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Congratulations on your 2 years of freedom JR. Looks like a great walk.
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Day 275.
Today I’ve been feeling quite all over the place, ranging from depressed to angry to incredibly anxious and panicky.
So I went out and bought a chair. One of those fancy expensive office chairs. I mean… I work loads and I need a comfy chair to sit on while I do my work.
There are a lot of feelings going through me right now. But… I can process them while sitting in my new fancy chair!
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Evening check in. Day 452.
Just got back home from work. It was an easy day today. Nice cool breeze. I’m glad that it’s actually beginning to feel like fall. I left this morning wearing my favorite beanie (finally, first time wearing it since last winter) and it kept me nice and warm throughout the day. I’m tired. Going to heat up some meatloaf from last night and spend the rest of my day in bed watching tv and maybe some YouTube. Haven’t had any thoughts to drink today which is a good thing but I’m still trying to find some purpose. Today was not a bad day at all but I still living feeling like I’m just that…. Living. Cruise control if you will. Before I do anything I’m actually going to take a shower. Another day sober in the books though. Can’t argue with that. We’re doing the damn thing.
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Totally random comment, prompted by your post. When I was younger I always wanted to know what meatloaf was (growing up in England in the 80s and 90s). And I never really found out. Just now I googled it and that answered the question! The Internet has totally changed life. All those random queries that you just never answered, you can know immediately now.
I realise how incredibly random that comment was, but wanted to share 
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Thank you! You’re right, I need to remember it’s not gonna be easy going back to ‘normal.’
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This comment actually made me chuckle. I’m glad that I’ve inspired you to finally look up what meatloaf is. It’s so good!! I’m not sure how popular it is where you’re from but it is delicious and I think you’d really like it if you’re a fan of meats. My dad makes the best meatloaf. I used to hate it when I was younger but adding a little bit of salt and pepper really adds some flavor to it.
The internet is great.
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Family staying over. Drinking is going on downstairs right now, and probably will be for quite a while longer.
I had apple juice 
I am going to bed now 
I will be waking up fresh and early 
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Evening check in, 32 days.
Not been right all day thanks to the vaccines, although made it through work so pleased with that. Hopefully my body will register that it isn’t actually fighting Covid tomorrow and snap out of it!
Have a good evening everyone
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Haha well I am a veggie but would probably still like to try a version with veggie meat. We just don’t have it over here, or anything similar which is really strange. You would think someone would have introduced it!
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That is very strange but cool to me to see what kinds of food one country has that others do not. Maybe you’ll be the first one to cook up the perfect recipe for yourself. 
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Day 371 checking in
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WOW!!! Huge congratulations friend on all ur hard work! Extremely proud of you and the sober life youve built
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How are you doing friend?
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Day 251 sober. Just now walking out of my weekly AA meeting. Thankful for this meeting.
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I’m real sorry to hear about your relapse, buy proud of you for getting back on the right track. Wishing you a quick and pain free detox. You can do this again. Reach out if u need anything. 
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Congratulations on 2 years sober. Great accomplishment.
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Hey everyone,
Kind of a down day again. I am a bit sad and heavy, and its big. It sucks, and Im tired some days. Kind of all over the place today.
Tomorrow Im diving head first into some more job applications and goinf to sit to go over my hubbys website. Hes feeling a bit overwhelmed doing it on his own, and I get that. What hes doing is a lot and he needs the other stuff to kind of happen so he can spend time creating and get a rhythm. His stuff is SO BEAUITFUL and I dont want him to lose steam. I have had some real time of not working, and I need to switch gears back to my work hours. I have worked from home for a long time and do well in that discipline area. Have to just get that gears back in motion.
My nephews birthday today and fuck I am just sad about everything. Legally, we do not have a choice. We take him alone with no help, which is not possible or we have to give up custody. Used to be a Special Needs Act so this didnt happeb and parents of high needs children would not go thrpugh this but our government did away with it. So we are where we are. Have to move forward.
Hope to get some good sleep and direction tomorrow. At least I know I have two things to sit and do, so that is good. Gotta build my business days back in and go from there.
So glad I am sover not sure WTF i was thinking when dribking with all this swirling around, but I know I was looking for a switch. An off. A pause. A release. An escape. Its crazy how once you step back you realize shif it was never offering that at all was it. Xo.
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Just working all day every day. I’m finally getting a day off tomorrow 
How are you doing?
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