Checking in daily to maintain focus #59

[Butterflymoonwoman]

Oh yay! Im so glad that u finally have a day off. Any plans for ur day? U certainly deserve it. Im doing okay for the most part

[Mira_D]

Sending you lots of love Amy. Everything you are going through and processing right now cannot be easy. So proud of you for going through it all sober. Saddened for your loss and wishing you strength and love in the coming days, months and years as you remember your Uncle. May his memories live strong in your mind & heart. Xo

[Ceeds]

Thank you for noticing! Hell yes 60 days

[Butterflymoonwoman]

Checking In
Day 610
Overall the day was really good! But as usual, there were some thoughts of using in the afternoon and evening. A cheque came for my husbamd for $500 and of course that got the addict wheels turning. I kept the thoughts at bay for the evening. Made dinner and ate. Then decided to actual work thru my using thoughts instead of waiting them out bcuz i was sooo tired from that thought just lingering there. Its like a black cloud following me. Told myself how selfish it would be for me to use and that drugs will NOT give me that release/escape that i am craving. I am not a drug user anymore. I am a recovering addict who truly is sooo proud of my clean time and where my life is at. I can find a release in other ways that are healthy and safe. Just saying that and writing that helps me to get rid of that thought. I did some deep breathing for about 5 min today too. That helped. And then i received my Conqueror Challenge medal that i earned by exercising on the elliptical. My collection is growing

I am proud of where im at but i am so tired of these daily thoughts. I will keep pushing forward though bcuz cravings come and go. They dont last forever (even tho in the moment it feels like they do). I deserve to live the rest of my life clean and sober and to have good things happen. I deserve more out of life… like we all do. We all deserve peace and happiness and fulfillment. Goodnight TS fam! See u in the morning

[JazzyS]

Oh this is great news! 2 years of sobriety is amazing friend – you are crushing it!!

I do hope you are also starting to feel better and getting some relief for your symptoms.

[Ashley_luvz_starz]

Checking in: Day 202!!!

Sweet dreams y’all!!!

[PositiveThoughts]

Checking in before bed. Long busy day. The highlight was baby swim class with my little almost six month old girl giggling and smiling like crazy.

I enjoy reading all your updates. It’s very motivating. My longest sober streak was a 31 day dry January a few years ago. It will make me proud and happy to beat that.

You folks with the big numbers who stay committed are impressive!

[JazzyS]

@HoofHearted

As long as I say no to the first drink, I’m in the clear.

A great reminder for us all! I am so sorry that you had such a nightmare and grateful that it was not reality when you woke. ODAAT kicking addictions ass!
@sadmemequeen I am so very sorry that you feel like you have stopped caring and feel resigned. I am grateful that your friends care and are worried about you. When is your next doctors appointment? Have you discussed your appetite with your doc? Nutrition is what keeps us going and we do need to replenish our bodies. I know its hard when your appetite has diminished. You are young and beautiful love and have so much to live for my friend. I know it seems like a lot to deal with and I am so sorry Megan. We are here for you beautiful – sending you comfort and love and loads of hugs
@wakikki hey lovely – how are you doing? Wishing you luck with your first day back at work. 655 days – doing amazing stacking on the days! Were you able to get your gastro appointment set up for this week? BTW – finished TWD last night – OMG – I can’t wait to start watching the spin offs.
@amy30 A new fancy chair is a lovely reward – you deserve a comfortable work environment. I am so sorry for all the feelings that you are combating at the moment. I do hope you are able to breathe through them and find some relief. Way to go on 275 days!
@lorelai What a beautiful day love – grateful that you were able to have such a lovely outing with your son
@tragicfarinelli 3 weeks is amazing – keep stacking on the sober days
@jennyh I do hope you feel better tomorrow. I am surprised that the vegan meats are not available (someone really should introduce them to the UK market). I did enjoy them from time to time but try to stay on a wholesome diet – this is vegan meat loaf I like using mushrooms (I feel that portabellas have a very meat like texture and consistency. vegan meatloaf with mushrooms
@mira_d I just want to reach out hug you – hold your hand and provide you with some peace. A happy birthday for to your nephew and I am so very sorry for the crap situation you are in and the insane decisions you are having to face. So grateful that you are doing all this sober and clearheaded. You are so right – the shit never offered any real escape or pause. I wish you luck in getting back into the work swing of things.
@butterflymoonwoman Hell yeah to deserving peace and happiness and fulfillment. I have faith that we will achieve this if we stay the course and keep working on ourselves. Those are some sweet ass medals – way to go!! Love the Sign too
@PositiveThoughts Oh i am loving imagining your six month old giggling in the pool. What a lovely day! Keep working on your journey and you will keep stacking on the days my friend

Checking in on Monday evening…
I’m not sure how but i managed to get a crap load done today. If everything goes well then I shall have the house on the rental market by tomorrow afternoon
Love my family - my aunt just sent me information to check out videos on Spleen massages - apparently they help with inflammation. Will be doing some research tomorrow and checking these out.
hoping everyone has a wonderful addiction free day / night – sending you all so much love

[Hidden]

Day 28:

Blah! All day at home with Covid. I’m not a good sick person. I can’t handle staying in bed all day. Got up for a bit midday and had to do something. So i cleaned out and reorganized my pantry. Looks good now.

Still feel like ASS, but i know a lot of people who have had it worse. Another day off work tomorrow and hope to start feeling better.

What’s crszy is the first time i got Covid a year and a half ago i was drinking. I drank every day. The toll it to on my body was massive. Took over a month for me to recover, but i wouldn’t stop drinking, not even for a day. That’s pure insanity, i wasn’t having fun, i wasn’t improving my quality of life, all i accomplished was hurting myself. Pathetic is a better word to describe that situation.

So glad I’m sober this time and putting my health and happiness first.

Stay healthy and happy sober friends!

[GOKU2019]

@lorelai Thank you, kindly. Congrats on your sober time as well. Amazing numbers.

@Jasty2 Thanks, bud!

@JazzyS Thank you. It’s a trip, a good trip for sure.

According to the docs, I have esophageal hypersensitivity. Too much stress and anxiety are causing my symptoms.

[Just_Laura]

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I’ve been getting super achy by bedtime the past couple nights. Super stiff neck and now my lower back is pissed. I need to remember to keep moving on my days off now. During the summer work kicked my butt so I couldn’t do anything on my days off. Now I’m working less so I need to move more at home. My body does not like cold weather. I’m feeling that WAY more than past years. One of my original reasons for drinking a lot was pain. It truly did take away my ailments. One night of drinking sometimes helped for days. But movement and exercise is better. I’ve been at a point, years ago, where I was pain free bc of how fit I was. I’m slacking as of late.

Today was good. Finally picked up the 2nd flute so I can practice with my daughter. She’s picking it up quickly but it’s like pulling teeth to get her to practice. Then we went shopping for a couple outfits. She’s growing so fast. She told me her and her best friends had a fight at school. She said that, for no reason, one of them made up a rumor that she had lice. The crazy part is, she did have it a year ago, and when I wondered how she got it, she told me that they had lice right before. So, this girl ends up pushing my daughter and she said she pushed her right back bc she didn’t know what else to do. Honestly, I don’t even know what I would do in that situation.

I know these 2 girls(who are irish twins) mother and she and her 7 kids were just evicted. I’m sure it’s wearing on her girls bc they’re normally so polite and sweet and have been my daughters best friends for 5 years. I do feel bad for them but I hate seeing her friendships fall apart I know she’ll continue to meet more and more friends throughout school and eventually find her people. I’m still trying to find mine. When we got home I gave her a manicure.

My ex called again(not Zoi’s father). He got kicked out of rehab 24 hours before his release/chip, for cutting hair! His PO officer isn’t mad tho. He’s moving to a halfway house for the next 8 months to finish his sentence. I still need to talk about him at some point. It’s a looong story I’ll probably open up a separate thread for.

Well, I forgot my internet service was going to go down at midnight for maintenance so I think I’ll hit the hay since I can’t watch my show anyways. Goodnight

[Just_Laura]

Sorry you’ve got the 'vid. I just had to mention that when I first had it at the end of 2020, I got it bad, and did what I always did to get thru sicknesses. Drank about it. Worst move possible bc I was down for literal months after the initial sickness. I could barely lift my head up yet I still made sure I got my shooters. I gained 40 lbs in 5 months. It was torture.

I’m glad you’re sober thru it this time too. Recovery will be much faster Feel better soon!

[Hidden]

Insanity! Hopefully you start feeling better soon as well.

[CATMANCAM]

@Trixie1 congrats on your month
@Brian1965uk enjoy Wales
@mx_elle congrats on double digits
@JazzyS the support group is online and it’s intense but definitely in a healthy way, I feel less alone, and less ashamed. I’ve missed a few social outings due to trains not running, and my T shot, but looking forward to the next ones I can go along to. I hope you’ve had some rest and I’m glad you’ve got sitting down work this week
@KarenKW congrats on double digits enjoy the mountains
@Amy30 yay for treating yourself to a new chair
@PositiveThoughts ‘I’m so much better at life this way’. I love this! So true, facing things head on 🩵
@Hidden oh no! Feel better soon 🩵
@Just_Laura congrats on 8 months
@Kelsey55 sorry about the circumstances, but welcome back

[CATMANCAM]

@KANJ98 welcome congrats on 452 days
@Bomdhil congrats on your week
@Noshame congrats on 90 days no vapes or cigs
@Rastana congrats on 40 days
@HoofHearted sorry about the awful dream my using dreams act as strong reminders too. Congrats on 1850 days
@GOKU2019 congrats on 2 years
@Tragicfarinelli congrats on 3 weeks

1162 days no alcohol.
627 days no cocaine.
142 days no vape.

Had some disturbing dreams the last three nights but can barely remember them now.

I think there is something wrong with the internet in my area, bcuz although it’s always very low signal, there’s usually enough to listen to Spotify and play Pokémon on my walks, but not for the past 3 days. So I missed out on completing Sunday’s special research mission or catching any shinies, and my walks aren’t as enjoyable with just the sound of the crunching of the gravel beneath my footsteps, but I still did them. It is lovely with the cool air but sun shining, I did 3/4 of it with my jacket in my hand Sunday.

Spent Sunday evening with family, celebrating my step-mum’s birthday. It was a nice evening, with lots of laughter, my niece is hilarious!

Yesterday I did some unpacking and dismantling of boxes that were clogging up the hallway and spare room entrance. It took me 2 hours! I was exhausted and had another funny turn so couldn’t do the cleaning that I need to do before my brother comes to fit my shelf. He’s either coming after work on Wednesday, or Sunday morning. So I’m going to have to find some energy after my appointment and course tomorrow. I felt a bit better after a short nap in the afternoon, then started catching up here and fell asleep. Woke from another disturbing dream, but the accompanying feelings havd diminished whilst I’ve been here. I love this place, and I’m grateful for you all.

🩵

[Scorpn]

Just trying to rest, get some laundry done, and maybe a trip to home Depot always something that needs to be done. But if I can sleep in, I’ll be happy

[JennyH]

Morning all, checking in on Day 33.

I may actually be sick as the family are all fighting colds, so it may explain why the vaccines are still making me feel rough. I will work from home and try and take it easy.

Hope everyone is doing OK. Sorry to those struggling, and @Hidden feel better soon.

[Juli1]

46

Checking in.

[JennyH]

I feel like this sums up my mood/capabilities right now

[Maestro]

Day 352 check in. Looking forward to my 1 year sober anniversary