WOW - this hit me too! Grateful for your friend. Day 1 is a bitch — it does get easier! Hang tight my friend. 
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Thankyou, I will hang tight.
I just hope I get it right this time.
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it takes hard work, a good support system and a solid plan to keep us on the sobriety journey.
You are among friends here - lean on us when you feel urges. We got your back!
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Checking in
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Im really behind on this thread. Was a busy day. Both my son and i got our flu/covid shots and then went to pick up his new glasses. Came home and was feeling pretty tired so I just took it easy for the rest of the day. Did a little cleaning later on and now waiting for supper. Hope everyone has a good evening 
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Just got out of one myself
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Welcome back. Dont think about never again all we have is today my friend… let’s make the best out of the rest of it sober 
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Thank you @CATMANCAM
Glad you’re happy with you coverup.
Welcome back @DresdenLaPage.
Sorry for your day 1 again but it’s great having you here. The Talking Sober family helped me so much to see things clearer for myself. I always struggled when thinking I could never have a drink again.
I was back on day 1 multiple times. But finally I realised I don’t need drink. I can now see alcohol for what it is. It is poison and I doesn’t do anything good at all. So I am glad I’m over it now. I don’t need it and even more important and satisfying: I don’t want!!! anymore.
I feel free! I try to enjoy myself! And won’t never go back to poison myself.
Believe me and all the wonderful people here… You don’t miss out on anything.
Make Sobriety your new lifestyle and live the life you deserve, sober and happy.
One day at a time.
Wishing you all the best for your journey.
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Meetings actually help if you find the right ones
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125 days alcohol free
It’s been a few days since I’ve posted and I feel the need to post. The addict mind is working in overdrive rationalizing drinking. What could it hurt? No one will know……
The manipulative ex got to me again. I feel foolish for allowing him anywhere near me. I need to remember he’s no different from alcohol. He’s just another addiction. Much like alcohol he needs to go. I’ve blocked his number and this time his email. The damage he’s caused in the short few days that we’ve communicated. It causes me to feel foolish, shameful and worthless. He triggers so many child trauma issues. My therapist tells me to let it go because he uses my compassion, patience, empathy and kindness against me.
Time to remember who he truly is vs the façade he tries to portray.
I’m grateful for the support this community provides that is judgement free. I hope you all know how truly grateful I am.
Sleep well everyone.
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Im glad ur posting and getting that all off ur chest. Past relationships can be sooo hard to let go of but ur worth soooooo much more than how he treats u. I remember how hard it was letting my abusive ex go. Ud think it would be as easy, but its definitly not. I had to constantly bring myself back to reality and stop living in a fantasy world of what i wished the relationship to be and stop looking at what is potential could be if he wasnt abusive. The trauma bond was real thats for sure. Anyway, i can relate to ur post and i totally get how hard it is. Im proud of u for blocking contact with him. What we allow is how people will treat us. So its good ur setting boundaries. Hugs 
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Thank you Dana. I appreciate your support and kind words. He’s harder to give up than alcohol. I feel so foolish because I told him two days ago we can’t be friends, we can’t communicate and he begged to be part of my life only to ghost me yet again.
I will re-start the detox from him and remember who he is. I allowed him to get into my head. He’s dangerous to my well being.
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Not much to report. It was busy at work and that made it fly by. Gonna hit the hay early I think. Much love 
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50 days AF
Checking in 
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Called made appointment to get back into group and see my counselor and med therapist. I used last night, I have not told my mom anything yet, she is planning on coming with my girls tomorrow and I just want there to be peace. I will be honest with her though. I got a check from school and think I should give it to her before I stupidly spend it. I think that is a huge reason y I relapsed in the first place bc I got my check and had money. Idk just trying to check in and stay accountable much love.
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They will pass. You WILL feel less shitty. It may take some time; everyones journey is different, but I think we all can relate to day 1 feelings, cravings and coming here is helpful 
Im not sure if this will help, but Im learning to lean into shit days. Its just a day (sure sometimes it goes on longer and if it goes on too long of course, we all need help and to try what works for us), but some days are low, unconfortable and just down right crap. Sometimes we can act our way out by doing stuff, and sometiems its okay for me to say: hey, i feel like shit today. Im not giving in to it, Im just allowing it even if it sucks.
Also what I did in early days was make a list of my triggers (what would makes me want to drink? When do I want it? When do I just blow right past making a choice and it just feels automatic?) And what are some “tools” I can put in place to help with those (things to avoid, actions I can take and ways I can reach out and also just simply take care of myself). The reason I drank was addiction but it was also a way to cope (sure didnt work well, but its what I did…i know for you its smoking, my thing was drinking) with all this shit I couldnt cope with.
It gets better, and it gets easier and we’re here for you. Keep checking it, and the urges youre fighting now are so strong in the beginning it feels like they wont go away…but it does get better. Hang in there. Xo.
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Great day with bestie here. Super low key, made a fire and beaded all day while she played these videos of celebrity tea. It was hilarious she says she watches them all the time and I just went along for the ride. Made a roast for dinner and just lounged all day, in my pjs it was really awesome. Miss my kids & hubby, but happy to have my time away and be with my bestie. Thinking Ill drive in to see my mom and nephew for a night before going home, but want to check in to see how hubby is doing with kids.
Still feel an emotional pit in my chest, but thats okay. Listened to the song majorie today by Taylor Swift and it is very beautiful. Reminds me of my sister. I miss her so much and I miss my nephew. Xo.
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Yes, and this is not in anyway me saying dont return to this group. But something I have learned, and it helps me is
Not all help is helpful.
Xo.
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2000
When I started this journey, I thought 30 days clean was a miracle. Never in my wildest dreams did i dare to imagine I’d put 2,000 days of continuous sobriety together. Through the death of five family members and a lengthy prison sentence for my Brother, I managed to stay clean. I love the life Sobriety has given me.
NEVER CRAVE ALONE
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So I heard on the news there was first snow in some cities around.
The Winter Is Coming…
As for a truck driver… Last years winter was extreeme at moments 
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