Checking in daily to maintain focus #59

Day 387 alcohol free
Day 8 social media detox

I miss social media less and less, the first week was tough tho. I thought about reinstalling TikTok more than 1 time.
But giving in would only fuel my racing mind and things would get worse and worse again.
Like with alcohol it helps to play the tape through til the end :+1:

I did a good workout for my back, the pain that bothered me went down by I would say 80% :heart:
Iā€™ll do that every day now again, including a planking session after. I was able to hold it together for 22 seconds today :upside_down_face:

Food is on the stove and I got me some nice bath additive that Iā€™ll try before I go to bed to loosen those hurting and stiff muscles.

Have a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong :kissing_heart::muscle:

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So very relieved for you and your family and grateful that your cousin is alive. :heart:

Breathe love - i do hope you have a easier day :people_hugging:

Captains log day 6. Happy Monday! Slept ok, vitals (although high) are good, positive attitude, and i even went to work and got some stuff done. Oddly enough there are no AA meetings on Monday mornings here. I guess i will settle for the noon one.

Today is the ā€œanniversaryā€ of my divorce. Wow that was a fun time in my life. NOT. Im so thankful im sober today otherwise i would get drunk and depressed. Not this time.

Well there is a bunch more i could say but i dont wamt this to become a book and bore everyone haha. Thats what my jounal is for.

Have an awesome sober day my friends!!!

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Day 1038,

Went to my therapist this morning. Did some session on the depression. Itā€™s with online modules, not really my thing. Also had a phonecall with the doctor from the treatment centre who deals with the adhd medication. Also discussed antidepressants and what they could do for me. I just donā€™t know what to do with that. Any first hand experiences are welcome. She said that the adhd medication doesnā€™t take care of it all and antidepressants might just be a hand in my back, not a miracle med. Wished it was all over, I find it hard to each time discuss the things. She also mentioned that Iā€™m in a though position and it must be lonely. It for sure is, %#>%^^$. Kind of keeps bringing it back. Itā€™s a lot. Tomorrow my first hours as a volunteer, see how that goes. Itā€™s just to much, writing it down helps a bit. Just wanna cry, scream it all out. Gonna take a bath and see whether I can eat something, itā€™s blocked right now.

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24.8

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Thank you so much!

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Good to see you Frank
:pray::heart:

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Thank you!!

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Day 695

Just not feeling it today!

Maybe tomorrow will be better, maybe it wonā€™t. I honestly donā€™t care anymore!

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Youā€™ve been through it lately it seems. Please keep going. Giving up is permanent and drinking or using about problems never help. šŸ©¶

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Iā€™m sorry for the snappy bullshit yesterday guys. I just hate myself

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No one here hates you. That is true growth. Expressing emotions and then taking accountability, that is some serious adulting shit. :clap:t3: Happy youā€™re back.

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day 600 of no self harm

I had therapy today and finally opened up about my eating habits

it went well she actually seemed concerned about it which I guess I expected but seeing my therapist concerned is just a bit of an eye opener

since change is such a big issue for me weā€™re gonna try one small thing every session for now. tomorrow Iā€™m going to eat chicken nuggets I used to eat on the regular at home

she also changed my treatment plan and put food as our main thing to deal with.

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Mike I joined TS waaay after you, I donā€™t know your story well, for me you were one of those who are doing great in recovery. You relapsed, that sucks. But you can move forward. Donā€™t look back. Iā€™m thinking about my cousin now. He also have 2 daughters, little bit older than yours. Heā€™s not doing so wellā€¦ Heā€™s losing them. Older is already so disappointed and upset she said she doesnā€™t want such a father, and she is just 10yo. He was 2 times in clinic and 2 times left before his time. He left week ago without telling anybody where, why; he disappeared for a week. Scared the shit out of us. His probably soon ex-wife is done. For now she think he chose alcohol and coke above them. Why am I saying this. I just hope your daughters would never tell you they donā€™t wanna know you. Even if itā€™s not true, it must be very heavy thing to hear.
Donā€™t hate yourself, you were on good truck, go back on it.
Big hugs

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Iā€™m accepting today isnā€™t me at my best. Will sleep it off . Thanks :blush:

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52

Hello, 52 days AF.
Sober from SH too.

Handed over the old apartment today.
Packed things out, organised, washed, did yoga, I ate.
And I joyned a meeting. Listening, laying down, incognito.
But I loved the sharingsā€¦ :heart:

Boss cat was over here again tonight.
Black-white. he is a panda cat.
This afternoon he tramped around in his nest like crazy,
didn`t notice I saw him. Lol.
He is still a bit confused.

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@Hoss a belated welcome back :blush:
@KarenKW belated congrats on 2+ weeks :tada:
@JazzyS thank you :blush: šŸ©µ Im sorry for your rough night after the Kombucha :people_hugging:
@Kareness belated congrats on 2500 days :tada:
@TrustyBird sorry for your loss :mending_heart::people_hugging:
@JennyH I hope youā€™re enjoying your time off :blush: sorry about the headache :people_hugging:
@Mno thank you :blush: Iā€™m sorry you didnā€™t hear back from the group therapist initially, I wouldnā€™t have felt like going after that either :people_hugging: Iā€™m glad youā€™ve been able to get out to wear your new footwear in :blush:šŸ©µ
@kkmrn welcome to the forum :blush: great to share how youā€™re feeling here rather than picking-up. Congrats on that :clap:t2:
@mx_elle sending you strength to not hurt yourself in the process :people_hugging:šŸ©µ
@SelfLove_42 well done for getting yourself checked over :clap:t2: I hope you get some advice on how to manage your condition :people_hugging:šŸ©µ

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@Pattycake belated congrats on triple digits :100: :tada:
@DresdenLaPage welcome back :blush: weā€™re all in this together :people_hugging:šŸ©µ
@BrOKenWolf I really hope Jā€™s send off went as well as these things can :people_hugging: sending strength šŸ©µ
@Barber508 belated congrats on 40+ days :tada:
@DanaM56 well done for blocking contact with the ex :clap:t2: sending strength :people_hugging:šŸ©µ
@Juli1 belated congrats on 50+ days :tada: I hope youā€™re settling into your new home well :blush: I really love that you have a rental cat :cat2: I love the updates :heart_eyes_cat:
@Mindofsobermike well done for reaching out and making the appointments :clap:t2: if money is a trigger itā€™s a great idea to give it to your Mom to look after it for you. Iā€™m glad you were able to let some tears out :people_hugging: stay connected. Sending strength šŸ©µ maybe you could ask for an extension on your English essay?
@Wunderbar belated congrats on 2000+ days :tada:
@Butterflymoonwoman sorry for the flashbacks :people_hugging: sending strength šŸ©µ
@SobrietyForMe belated congrats on 30 days :tada:

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@Mischa84 sending strength :people_hugging:šŸ©µ Iā€™m so glad your cousin was found safe.
@Noshame belated congrats on 2+ weeks :tada: belated happy birthday too :birthday::balloon::gift::partying_face:
@SleeplessMoonlight belated congrats on 2+ weeks :tada:
@Looking4Support Iā€™m sorry about the news about your brother :people_hugging: sending strength šŸ©µ
@Bones_80 congrats on all the 3s :tada: but Iā€™m sorry youā€™re back in hospital :people_hugging: I hope they can get your symptoms back under control asap :crossed_fingers:t2:
@PositiveThoughts congrats on the pouring away :clap:t2: :tada:
@GC1111 welcome :blush: congrats on 3+ days :tada:
@lostinmind welcome :blush: congrats on day 1 :tada:
@Marlowe welcome back :blush:
@MooseTracks I hope your first day went well today :blush:

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Oh Mike, I know youā€™re disappointed.
But donā€™t say you hate yourself because youā€™ve done great for a pretty long time.
You know how itā€™s done right because you did.
Yes you fell.
And what do we do after we fell?
We get back up!
Yes itā€™s hard, life is hard. And us addicts have to be stronger than non addicts.
Get back up!

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