Checking in on day 142 AF.
I took it easy yesterday as I was feeling depressed, it was particularly bad in the morning, but it moved on in the afternoon. My daughter made dinner with a little assistance from me. Then I stayed cosy in the evening. I listened to a positive affirmation recording at bedtime,and although I found some of the affirmations hard to agree with, I have woken up this morning feeling much better. I went to chair yoga, which seemed more inviting than the more movement based class. It was a lovely class. There were just four of us plus the teacher. Really nice.
Iāve done a couple of my puzzles, eaten breakfast and now Iām having some coffee.Iām having some groceries delivered shortly and then this afternoon I have a telephone appointment with my GP. Iām going to try to see if I can get my living room tidied today as junk seems to have built up again.
Wishing everyone an addiction free day.
Morning from chilly but sunny Scotland this old guy still living the life sober 13,553 days ,21 days till our Japan trip .
Hey all, checking in on day 1227. I hope everybody has a good one!
Doing the best I can under the circumstances. Iām too hormonal at the moment to kick ass, but no doubt Iāll kick ass soon.
Starting day 7. So if i dont mess it up that makes it 1 week back. No plans to mess it up by the way. Got up at 5:20 for an online AA mtg. Dang that was hard lol. I reminded myself that getting up at 5:20 to drink if i had the day off would of been no problem.
First day back at work since getting sober. Im both excited and nervous.
That will do it for now but may check in later. Have an awesome sober day my friends! Thanks for the support.
Checking in on a Tuesday morning. Iām on day 104. Posted about depression, loneliness, and insomnia yesterday, as they are giving me a bit of a rough time lately and I have seen these themes on this thread a lot .( @JazzyS , thanks for checking in on me, I so appreciate your loving kindness! ) early morning thunderstorms cut last nightās sleep short, but at least I had 6 straight hours, so Iām glad for that!
Where are you going to visit (apologies if I asked before!) 
Side note: just speaking on the quote that came today.
Its not between you running the day or the day running you. This kind of motivational speak is what helps build a dichotomy and black and white thinking btw Im in charge vs Im a victim. Theres just more to it and other ways of being.
Embrace the day. Accept the day. Go with the day. Fl9w with the day. Hunker in the day. Make it through the day. Etc. There is not just āthisā or āthatā. The only other option if you are not ārunningā the day is NOT just letting the day run you.
There been a few of these āinspirationalā quotes I havent loved but this one for me encourages problematic thinking. It aināt one or the other. We cant run every day, and the days we arent running doesnt mean we doing anything wrong. Sometimes the day gone run you, no shame in it and its learning what to do with those days that count.
Fuck black andwhite thinking. Xo.
I agree, and this is exactly the difficulty I was having last night with the positive affirmations.
Day 82
Just checking in
534, checking in.
Day 1039,
Just a awake from a nap after my first hours of voluntary work at the elderly home. Serving diner and worked a bit behind the bar. How should I have known two of them would order a bear with their diner at 12 oāclock. Well as an addict of course I should have known 
. But I had no problem making a draft beer. I used to work in restaurants/hotels during my studies. I liked the atmosphere a lot, it gave me a great feeling. Felt like I was connected with myself and a bit already with the people their. Donāt know when I have felt that the last time, must be a long long time. In my professional career I was only using my head. Working without an ego was fine. Like this I had no problem working the 4 hours straight, but the nap felt welcome and deserved.
Morning Check In
Day 618
Goooood morrrrning TS fam! How are u all today? We got alot of snow yesterday and its sooo pretty!
I love getting bundled up and venturing out into the cold
Not like when i was in active addiction running the streets in -40Ā°C weather to get my fix or to make money. I hated winter then. Wow has my mindset changed.Today consists of running an errand and then coming home to exercise. Doing the usual cleaning and tidying up in the apartment. And thats about it. Relaxed day today. Much love to u all!
Day 17 no weed 167 no alcohol and 98 days without a cig or vape
Iām quitting lozenges today
Iāve been sucking on 2mg for long enough
Iām totally ready to stop nicotine completely
Tokyo 3 days then ship then Kagoshima, then Nagasaki ,then Taipel Taiwan then Hong Kong, then Vietnam an three days in Singapore , fly back to Edinburgh via Doha .
Heavy life workload this week, and limited rest.
Just keep putting one foot in front of the other + breathing deep + staying present in the moment.
Checking in day 5)
Iāve been getting my thoughts down on paper a lot the last few days. Today is a complete ramble about social media; I didnāt think about what I was writing but here it is. (Iāll type it because I write like a 5 year old)
Todays world of Fantasy
TikTok, Instagram, Facebook, Snapchat, YouTube; itās not real, man. These platforms where advertisers and influencers pay ridiculous money to get into your life and into your heads, people you donāt really know or give a fuck about sharing pictures of their lives in an attempt, (which can only be described as desperate in the truest form of the word), trying to show you how happy their lives are.
How many hours do you spend scrolling only to find yourself bored shitless at pictures of peopleās kids, filtered selfies and pointless, vapid, empty posts about nothing and countless pictures of last nights piss-ups? Exactly how many pictures do you ladies need of all of you standing side by side in pretty much the same outfit and gents did you really neck that pint or was it just for the fucking camera?
How fucking hard do we try to convince people that weāre having a good time when in reality, that picture took 20 takes, that TikToK has been manufactured to fuck and that YouTube video took hours to edit?
That really is social media isnāt it? An editorial of peopleās bollocks lives that have taken us away from the real here and now - so why do we do it? Well, thereās a human need to be accepted - the ālikeā button has a lot to answer for; just another way for us to escape daily life (and not a good one when you considered itās all manufactured - essentially lies). Just another fucking drug that we consume because everyone else is doing it.
When you remove yourself from social media and the people on it, what are you left with? A bunch of fucking free time is what. You realise youāve been ignoring the real world - Youāve been living in todays fantasy world. Those comments you leave get forgotten, those videos get outdated, those statuses become memories - literally - Facebook has the memory function does it? We donāt even need to use our own memory bank anymore because social media will do it for you.
Memory is supposed to be a defence mechanism - āI remember that stove was hot; I wonāt touch it in case I get burned againā, oh and that Snapchat you made in full confidence? I guarantee you, at least one other person has seen it.
You know that irritating kid you have? Try putting your fucking phone down for a minute and read them a story, try reading a book yourself. Better still, remove yourself from social media altogether - the truth is, no-one in your friends list are your friends. They donāt give a shit about you and you donāt give a shit about them except how they perceive your output of crap.
I hope one day social media has its day because itās not a real world and until we start living in the real world again, weāre all fucked.
Forget connecting with āPeople you may knowā and try connecting with the people you DO know, the people who shape the very fabric of your existence before there are no people, no fabric and no more you.
Post.
Either you run the day or the day runs you
Very true for me today
Time to take a minute, breath and refocus
Isnāt a dusting of snow wonderful? Cleans everything up nicely. I love getting bundled up too ā¦ until my puppy nocks me on my arse and itās a struggle to get up! 
Enjoy your beautiful day 
Iām going to be honest I didnāt quit the loszengis just yet
I have 2 days off after today
My first day off Iāll be trying not to do any unless I have like a nic fit
Nicotine is so unhealthy
Super unhealthy and when I quit I saw my health as bad
Iām getting healthier. Smoking isnāt really the most common sense things to do or think wonāt hurt. I was inhaling smoke and chemicals in the smoke for a long time