Euuurgh yuck yuck yuck YUCK YUCK!!
Restless sleep and first “drunk” dream! Gross gross gross!
It was one of those ones where you wake up and actually feel drunk and it also felt like someone was in my apartment.
God I have NOT missed those 
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@pattycake how are you doing Patricia? I am sorry you are grappling with depression, loneliness and insomnia – super rough. Sending you much strength and love 
@tragicfarinelli how did your day go my friend?
@rob11 I don’t have any experience with either meds but I do hope that they are helpful to you. I am so sorry that you have to keep bringing it up. I am grateful that writing it out helped you. Hoping for a wonderful day for you with your volunteering.
Oh dear friend I am so very sorry for all the pain you and your family have / are going through. Please don’t lose hope. Are you able to reach out for support (someone to talk to)? We are here for you – lean on us 
You have been through a lot and are still standing. I am so sorry for how hard it has been for you Richard. Sending you so much love and comfort 
@mindofsobermike I am sorry for the emotions and the fight you are going through with urges and this nasty addiction. Do not let self hate take control of you. You are a strong man Mike and I know you can get back on the sober track as I know the desire to be addiction free is strong within you. We got your back here – lean on us and your irl support systems. ODAAT 
@sadmemequeen Way to go Megan! You are doing amazingly well at 600 days! Oh sweetheart – I am so grateful for your therapist and that you are going to be working on your eating. I have hope that you are on the healing path. Much love my friend.
@timetochange totally understand that some days are just shit. I do hope you slept well and are starting off a stellar Tuesday
@mx_elle ugh – sorry you are having a hard time eating. Would liquid diet be appetizing for you so that you can still get proper nutrition (vegetable juices, shakes, soups). 18 days and going strong my friend – so thrilled to see your days stacking up. I do hope you get your appetite back soon.
@butterflymoonwoman So grateful for your supportive husband my friend! Grateful for your productive good day.
@katiee 120 days – rocking the sobriety journey! Sorry about your dream. It is nerve-wrecking when the dreams are so realistic. Grateful to know that they are dreams and we are over that lifestyle. Keep strong my friend – you are doing fantastic!
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Checking in at 128 AF
It was a hood day. I was able work out again. My back pain was minimal. Work was not too hectic for a Monday. I am thankful for that.
Grateful for the peace and serenity I’m my life along with the abundance and support. Truly tired so goodnight sober family. Sleep well
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thank you much love
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That’s a nice number. Thinking glass half full, that’s over 2/3 of a year! A quarter of the way to 1,000! And many more days than I’ve ever had! Crazy. It hasn’t really felt that long.
Nice, easy day. Normal and kind of boring. I don’t really feel the need to get out of the house the way I used to. I did go out for errands, but I used to feel like I had to have a plan every day. Something exciting to go do. Something I’d unnecessarily spend money on. I feel more content just existing.
I think cleaning up little by little has helped. A lot in my apartment has been in the same place since I moved here(6 years ago). Not even moved to dust or vacuum. It’s taking some time but I have been chipping away at it when I can. Throwing away almost half of what I go through each time. I’m excited for it to truly feel like mine and my daughters home once and for all, free of evidence left by my ex. It felt like a prison while he was here. Then my brain a prison after he left. So grateful to be over all that 
Another day off tomorrow. Having dinner and games with my family. I’m looking forward to it 
Goodnight you sober warriors
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I am so sorry Drew. With the colder gloomy season here its hard to soak in the sun – may need to get some Vitamin D. If you haven’t recently checked – maybe get your blood work checked to make sure your not deficient in your vitamins. Sending you energetic vibes
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Checking in on Monday night…
WOW - i am grateful for a wonderful and productive day. I was able to clean the house, 2 loads of laundry, a couple of hours of computer work, made dinner for family (dropped it off at parents), baked sugar free cookies. I am grateful that i did not have urges today.
The pain was intense and only got worse as the day progressed. I am wide awake at midnight - hoping to shut down now and meditate - hoping to fall asleep soon.
Hoping you all had a wonderful addiction free day! Sending you all so much love
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Hahaha, could not agree more! I hated it!!
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Day 35 check-in. Good day, still sober.
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Checking in on day 359.
Getting ready for another day at the office, then a quick hour in the gym before relaxing watching football on the TV for the rest of the evening.
Have a great Tuesday everyonre.
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53 AF
… being aware of falling back into other addictions
Much love
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Day 122. I feel fu@n flat. Not good. May take this Thursday and Friday as annual leave and sort my head out. Not good. Working from home sometimes feels ok but some days its having a dog which gets me outnthe house. Up, logged.on and Working
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Morning everyone, checking in on Day 40. Those days are stacking up now!
It is different this time, I am not exercising will power alone. I have accepted that alcohol isn’t a part of my future. Now I am welcoming and embracing that.
That’s all incredibly positive, but I am struggling a lot with sitting with my feelings. I am learning so much about myself, and I am changing. I also seem to be in need of complete distance from people atm. I can’t decided whether that is a temporary thing, or I am picking up in my teens when I withdrew from everyone. It was always my coping mechanism before drink.
In terms of my day, I have no idea. Probably another day of trying to be Super Mum to my daughter. I am beginning to see why I spent her early years permanently exhausted and guilty. It was never enough! She is very sweet but so much energy, and combining that with my need to be perfect (only just realised this, where did it come from??) it is hard work.
I seem to be having regular revelations since getting sober this time around!
Wishing everyone here a peaceful day
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Good morning Jenny.
I have had problems talking and spending time with people since my childhood. Probably because I never felt valuable, I either acted like a person I wasn’t to make them like me, or I walked away completely. As my mental health got better, I realized that this situation completely coincides with this situation; When you see a predator, you run or fight. Of course my way of fighting was to become their pet lol. When our body sees a danger, it activates its survival mechanism and begins to secrete stress hormones. My method of dealing with this situation is very simple; I just become aware of the stress hormone and remind myself that the person in front of me also secretes this hormone. Suddenly, calmness comes over my body.
Spending time with people has never been easier. I hope it works for you too. 
Nobody is perfect. It’s just an illusion in our society.
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Thank you, that is so helpful. I have been in a couple of really dangerous situations in my life and have learnt that my instinct is to freeze (luckily a friend had the fight instinct for both of us!) I think the freeze/flight is similar and what I am doing. Lots to think about, thank you 
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Day 388 alcohol free
Day 9 social media detox
I’m on my way to my Dr because of my back. It hurts since last week and I won’t wait any longer until I’m a complete mess again.
Whatever the Dr tells me to do, I’ll do it. I want to get rid of that fast.
It’s better today than it was yesterday tho but still, better safe than sorry.
No cravings for alcohol or social media 
Have a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong 
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Checking in. Sober. Had some good days lately. Not counting last saturday, when some food in my throat again felt like stuck. And now today when I feel like Im having heart problems. And again thinking is this serious this time, or “just” anxiety, again!
Hope all of you have a great day
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Day 44 went to 2 meetings yesterday
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39 days alcohol free.
T.
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