Checking in
Day 619
Hey everyone, just wanted to pop on and say hi! Today has been go go go. As soon as my boy got on the bus, i have been running errands. Took the bus with my wagon to the Childrens Hospital to pick up my sons formula for the month. Took care of some dental paperwork. Now off to get my sons adaptive winter boots. Then home to workout and eat before he gets home. Still snowy and cold out here but i quite like it! There is just something about the stillness of winter that I love. Have a great day everyone! 
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Evening checkin.
@ home sober 
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Yes you have! I’m glad you came back when you needed the extra support.
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Hope u got through work ok 
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Day 83
Just checking in
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I had to cut out 1/2 hour early. I survived it thankfully. I am beat now and pain in on another level…will take an Aleve and try to sleep. Appreciate you checking in. 
Hope you do get a long weekend and find yourself surrounded with positive energy.
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Day 1040,
Had a nice dinner with my parents and son for my birthday at a restaurant. Nice to see the connection between them. My connection still mwa, but it is what it is. Being in crowded space draws my energy even with my meds.
First time in about thirty years I didn’t receive a birthday greeting from my closest friend. At least I thought so. But it’s fine, I’m changing and some or a lot of my friendships will not survive the transformation which is far from done, ODAAT . Of course there is another voice that speaks out of resentment, but that one needs to shut up.
Gonna sleep, goodnight 
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Welcome back @Sunny11
I’m sorry to hear about your relapse but it’s great that you’re back here now!
Like you said you proved that you can do it already and you can do it again.
The 3 years are not gone though you still have the experience of 36 sober months in your pockets!
Wish you all the best!
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Your experience scares me for you
Life is long and self sabatoge can last a long time
Getting in a safe environment is a must
I dont know where you are but please be safe out there
You dont need to feel this way ever again
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Happy birthday 
I am glad you had a nice dinner, although sorry about your friend. Sleep well
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Thanks man. This isn’t any fun I can’t lie
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Checking in day 6)
2nd time
I’ve got plenty of drinks left in me. I don’t have any more recovery’s.
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Did you make it to group? Talk to your counselor? Find a meeting?
I get that it’s hard to get back into that motivation after a relapse but it is the only option you have. You need outside help. You will not be able to stop doing it alone. This forum is a good place but if this is your only tool that’s not going to work either.
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I can totally understand that its not fun
Im curious what substances youve got into this recent relaps
Its not important though
What maters is that you are safe
Your fresh start to sobriety starts better when your safe
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Nope I chose the drugs instead
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Your very upset… 
Is there a reason
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I’m not upset I’m just telling him I chose the drugs over his suggestions
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Ok thats fine with me
Is it getting any better out on your end?
Even a little better maybe??
I remeber you from years back
You were strugling then got to rehab and did amazing for so long
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Wow!!! Clap clap clap XO.
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