@lotusflower Love ya too friend. So grateful that you are showing yourself compassion. It is so easy to let the negativity suck us in. Together we can keep each other keep our faith and stay positive @mira_d Lol – I totally get the happy to be tired line – so very happy for you and your new job! @milele so lovely to see you checking in. I am very sorry for the mistreatments and bullying you have experienced. Kindness should not be viewed as weakness. Grateful that you are going to stand up for yourself I do hope that you were able to get some sleep. Know we are here if you need to vent or talk. We can’t change the past but we can work on ways to let go of it. @finallytime way to keep strong and keep your counter Evelyn. I am sorry to hear about your stressful day. Whatever gets us through the day – sugar, seltzer water, screaming, crying – it’s all great therapy. In the early days we are literally removing the one crutch we were so dependent on for so very long. Our bodies and minds have to figure out how to cope without our DOC. You did a fine job today – should be super proud of yourself @trixie1 Knowing that the situation may be triggering gives you the upper hand of going in prepared. Have your exit plan, know what you can order / take or make available to drink safely, have your phone charged so that you can touch base with us if need be, remember the early days and how far you have come – no need to repeat the pain of early sobriety. You are stronger than this addiction!! We got your back @krissymae so good to see you back here and posting – great work on day 2 @michelle Sorry about your rough day. Grateful that you were able to manage those cravings. Great to see working on your meditation and journaling @happy_trails Oh friend I am so excited to see your 1 month milestone tomorrow. So happy to hear that you are still cancer free and are doing well
Checking in on Tuesday morning
405 days free of alcohol and weed
820 days free of cigarettes
I am surprised that i am still up and so awake. I had a very productive day. Wanted to watch something and stumbled on Erin Brockovich on Netflix - love this movie and am sucked into it again.
Not much to say - another successful day of staying sober.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening! Sending you all so much love
60 days of checking in here every evening, actually maybe a bit less because I think I started on day 4.
Can say the thought of not being able to check in here and keep my day count going definitely got me through a few cravings.
Have largely been free of cravings this past month. So far in the last 2 months I’ve steered clear of situations that I know will really test me. But I’ve also broken the everyday habit of getting beers at every opportunity and rolling through life half drunk.
Back to work tomorrow for another hangover free shift
Another fulfilling day. Went thru all my paperwork. Why is there always so much?! I hate when my space is cluttered with papers, yet I allow it to happen Happy to have it organized. Also went thru my living room closet some(the biggest closet). There’s alot that needs to go and I’m still feeling motivated to see this thru. I didn’t get to everything I wanted to since my lay off started but the things I did get to I did right and plan to continue into the spring.
Really not looking forward to our meeting tomorrow morning. At least it shouldn’t be too long. Then I’ll have the rest of the day Gonna hit the hay soon so I have the motivation to get moving in the morning. The first week back is always tough, readjusting to their schedule after living on my own for a month. Hoping for an easy transition this year. Keep fighting the good fight
Another long day. Finally got my little one to sleep last night at midnight and woke up at 6.
(She’s been staying up till 10am and sleeping all day for the past couple weeks) but that meant I had to get up at 6 with her.
It’s now a little after 1 am and I have to get back up at 630.
Then a long day of appointments, errands, and then work.
@Scorpn
It’s good to have you checking in. You’re always thought about. Wishing you the best with all you do. Big hugs. And big congrats on all your clean days from so much. Super proud of you my friend.
Hi Milele. Thanks for talking this out here. I’m sorry you were bullied, my sister was bullied constantly and to this day thinking about it still brings up anger.
Maybe the issue with the teacher and your Mom is popping up because your body is ready to let it go? I have an exercise on my anxious nights when I can’t sleep where I think of people that I dislike or am having tension with and before I go to sleep I say “I hope _____ (insert name) is well and happy”.
I go through the list of people on my mind until my thoughts stop spiraling. I think it has helped with some of my anger and I know it has improved relationships with some of my most annoying co-workers.
I’m glad you posted @Milele … and that it helped you get to sleep. That’s the beauty of TS. Sharing these burdens and these awfuls lessening the effects of the burdens a little by talking it out. Earlier, I posted a meme on the meme thread that could be helpful for you. Life is always going to have its hard times, we often are going to question why this and why that and we just go forward the best we can. Again talking about it is always helpful. Big hugs. Nice to have you post on this thread although it’s traumatic stuff you’ve been through.
Edit. I posted a meme on the Mental Health thread. Will repost here for clarity.
Second edit to say that the meme is not meant to be derogatory or critical at all. You have every right and reason to be upset about what you are upset and concerned about.
There’s nothing that you have done wrong so I don’t want to imply that with the Meme picture and the biggest message from it is just what you said. To go forward the best you can.
Fighting the fatigue is real. It might be the start of a chest infection. The familiar slight burn at the point in my chest where the lungs start. Great. Either way, whatever it is I will get through it sober. Its not like I even have to get dressed to go to work if I don’t want to. Perks of working from home.
Thank you sober peeps for your posts that keep me working for my next 24.
Congratulations for the months @Mischa84 and I keep my fingers crossed that the kids feel better soon!
And @tifflynn07 well done for the days as well as @SolarEclipse and @ShyBert
Double digits @Pamela Hope you had a good deserved night of sleep.
Another milestone for @MrFantastik , months in your pocket Marty!!
Think up front @Trixie1 what you are going to say if someones offering you a drink. It’s easier when you have a reason to say no to a drink if you are feeling wobbly. I uses the “no, I cannot drink because I use medication that doesn’t allow me to drink”
Welcome back @KrissyMae your story sound exacly the same as my last relapse. Never again! Glad you decide the same
I hope it isn’t a chest infection @LastryHave a nice calm day at home work and take your time to rest.
I wanna make an effort to reply to you here, might miss some points, but let’s try. Here I go!
I do relate, I don’t think I was given a reasonable enough example of how to keep healthy boundaries. It’s something I had to work on for sure. And I can tell you that sometimes saying no to things that I felt uncomfortable with, I’m pretty sure I’ve thrown the baby away with the bath water. It’s been a learning curve, and still is.
And yes, I absolutely I agree on keeping that past where it belongs - in the past. Sure, the memories will come up, I really liked this exercise, if you like, to wish those people well, when they pop up in my head. Ans thanks for the meme! Definitely a great reminder!
As for sleep, I got some in, and am surprised that I’m not feeling too tired this morning! Yay!
Tummy bug = not much eating anyways. I’ll probably get out of bed at some point. I even had some rice and broth yesterday. Although I’m not looking forward towards food or eating. Too much nausea.
A good day for tinkering about, anime and naps.
*Day 1960
Had a small argument with the hubby about something and this time I saw clearly what was triggering for the both of us. I saw our behaviour patrons in this, like how we always do this and have the same outcome
I want to change this for the better. So in the evening we talked it over and discussed how we could help eachother trough such small dilemma without making it bigger by triggering eachother.
Hard to explain
Today I’m starting to feel a bit more like myself. The sun’s out (still freezing, but it’s nice to see blue skies), so that might be helping a bit… I got a whole bunch of deadlines to meet, errands to run, and workout to complete. Not in that order.
As a side note, this week I’ve discovered the joys of overnight oats. How did I not make these before? It takes 2 minutes to make the night before and voila! Healthy, delicious breakfast waiting for me in the morning.
Good morning beautiful people! Checking in on day 61. Now that I am physically feeling better I need to find myself some therapy, so I will be looking into that today. My dog got her drains out on Monday, everything is looking good, stitches come out next week. Thank you so much to @JazzyS, @CATMANCAM, @Jasty2 and @Misokatsu for the shout out, it really means a lot! I hope everyone has the most amazing day! and
Happy to have it organized. Also went thru my living room closet some(the biggest closet). There’s alot that needs to go and I’m still feeling motivated to see this thru. I didn’t get to everything I wanted to since my lay off started but the things I did get to I did right and plan to continue into the spring.
Gonna hit the hay soon so I have the motivation to get moving in the morning. The first week back is always tough, readjusting to their schedule after living on my own for a month. Hoping for an easy transition this year. Keep fighting the good fight 
months 
days as well as 
months in your pocket Marty!! 
Definitely a great reminder!
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