Welcome GFP. I am new here as well. I am still learning the way the boards here work, and the nuances of “fitting in”. My belief is that in person social events will always win vs. online interactions. However, any amount of effort to integrate with other humans surely has to help with healing that hole in our chest through which the cold North wind blows.
Keep learning about other peoples lives here, try to relate with how our lives have many similarities, and post daily so we can trust in you to be there for us as well!
Thanks Solar, and good advice. Take for instance there are restaurants here in this town that serve the dogs bowls of food. Lots of options if I could snap out of my funk. I literally for the most part only speak to a cashier three words per day type of thing for example, and it is not good because humans are social. Thanks for the push. And good advice that being here to help others is important, and probably stimulates all sorts of good chemicals in the mind. Thanks again Solar.
Just after midnight here and I’ve already flipped to day 12, I should be sleeping. Had a good day. I’ve been surviving on working out, which is a positive thing, bootcamp at 5 am, then work and then home to ride my Peloton. I’m falling in love with the bike, well it’s a love/hate relationship, that thing is hard! But I thrive how it erases all the chaos in my mind, if only for 30 minutes.
After the ride I enjoyed my night on the couch, had a basketball game on, but only half watched, my mind had moved past the bike ride and went back to producing chaos, hence I’m still awake!
It’s snowing here again, snowed almost every day for a week and not supposed to stop all weekend. Should have another foot of snow at my house and they are saying the mountains will get another 3-5 feet of snow. Winter is definitely here, but the white covered mountains and valley are beautifully. Excited to get some snowshoeing in.
Going to listen to this storm, the wind is howling, and try to get some sleep. Bootcamp tomorrow morning after I shovel out of the driveway, again. Then it’s time to take xmas down, I’ve just been staring at that tree hoping it will just magically disappear!
You are doing fine by writing here! You just found one of the most active treads of this forum, so welcome! For me this forum and the people in it are my peer group filled with like wised sober and clean people. I come here if I need help, celebrating my milestones but also when I want to chat wit someone. So yes it can be a social place and fill in some gaps for you. But you also need people in real life. Maybe there is a puppy training where you can go to with your dogs? A great way to join other doglovers? Just a thought
Dinner with old friends was nice last night. Today I’ll do something outside although I’m not quite sure what yet. Hiking or biking, including organic grocery shopping on the other side of town or not. I’ll have another coffee, have a look at the weather forecast and think about it a bit. One thing that’s sure is that I won’t be drinking or drugging today. Never again. One day at a time as always. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
Pic is my sweet Rosa. She’s been on my mind in the last days. Luna’s sister that I lost in 2014, a week after my dad died. It broke me in two, even more than losing my dad did. Truth. Fuck cancer. Glad to have Luna still with me.
@Pavlovs_Dog Welcome to the forum! There’s no right or wrong way to use the forum I’d say. Use it at your convenience. This place has been my safe place and my place to find my sober peers since I first came here in June 2019. I have a problem socializing in my daily life so for me this was the perfect place for companionship on my journey of Recovery/Discovery. Take your time to read around and get a feel for this place. You already found a perfect spot to check in! And maybe you’d like to try a meeting online? Lots of people are helped by it. This is a good place to find 'm: In The Rooms: Online Addiction Recovery Meetings and 12 step Programs
Wishing you all success, and welcome again. Glad you are here with us all.
How awesome!! I am a bit jealous
I’m so happy for you! Please share some pictures later if you like, I would love to see them and I know many others here would too!
Last night was Probably hormones again. Woke up groggy and with a head ache
Anyways, I’m looking forward to visiting a friend recovering from influenza. There will be cake there, which I’m not wild about. But I’ll eat a good meal before and will hold on to my coffee .
Some house work , hopefully time for yoga .
No using, no numbing. Going through the day eyes wide open.
654 days.
Has been a long and hot day here this Saturday. Took some lunch and snacks up and visited my niece and great nieces and nephew. Was lovely to see them all. The 42 degree day was a bit gross tho
About to start chores in the house, my son will be here in the afternoon. The soccer competition starts again, will be dressing up warmly it will be bloody . Trying to let go of thoughts on a suicidal dream a few hours ago. Don’t know what to think of it, trying to get the positives out of it. Grateful I can let it out here, because I felt the urge to keep it in. Things need to change that’s obvious, but I’m working on that, so probably my addicted mind trying to pull me back or something like that.
Good morning, checking in on day 43. Feeling better each day. Every day has its challenges but the days are getting easier if that makes sense. I hope everyone has the most amazing sober day! and
Checking in with 1 week!! Longest I’ve gone in so long without a drink. I’m so proud of myself. I’m thankful that I feel better than yesterday. Yesterday was rough with the headache and chills and body aches but i feel more like myself today. Next step is 10 days!
I am a bit jealous 
Probably hormones again. Woke up groggy and with a head ache 
from influenza. There will be cake there, which I’m not wild about. But I’ll eat a good meal 
before and will hold on to my coffee 
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, hopefully time for yoga 
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hugs x
. Trying to let go of thoughts on a suicidal dream a few hours ago. Don’t know what to think of it, trying to get the positives out of it. Grateful I can let it out here, because I felt the urge to keep it in. Things need to change that’s obvious, but I’m working on that, so probably my addicted mind trying to pull me back or something like that.
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