Day 446.
Today I thought about drinking for the first time in a while. It was a fleeting thought I immediately dismissed, but it was there. Right now, I’m stressed, anxious, on edge, and got a lot of shit on my plate. This morning, another stressful thing got added to my juggle list and it gave me a mini-panic attack. That’s when the idea to check out of my responsibilities with alcohol hit.
So… here I am. Checking in sober. There’s no problem drinking won’t make worse. And thinking about wine doesn’t mean I have to act on it. It means I need to stay mindful and vigilent and protect my sobriety at all costs. I didn’t come this far to only go this far.