Happy 90 dayysssss so proud of you!!!
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Checking in day 95ā¦ 
Hope everyone has a wonderful day today!
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Thanks Tiffany, trying to stay up with you my friend 
Keep taking that lead!!
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Thanks you Eric. I really appreciate the acknowledgment and you!
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Weāre killing it friend weāve both had ups and downs this journey but ODAAT ā¦ weāve come so far 
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Thanks very much Patricia. 
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Appreciate it Joeā¦ keep up the good fight.
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I love your pace car @tifflynn07
Itās great to have a little pace car 
@Its_me_Stella Twinnie.
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That we are. Iād like to say itās always been easy and straightforward, but Iād be lyingā¦ but through friends like you it helps me stay motivated and keep a positive outlook on this adventureā¦
Now, a 2 hour session in gym.
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Checking in on day 97 alcohol & cigarette free. Fast approaching triple digits.
I didnāt exactly have a craving recently, more like a musing. Iāve had flu since Sunday afternoon. Basically slept between then & this morning. Sunday night I thought that in the olden times (last year & before) I wouldāve just drank the flu away with 13% wine & just kept going until I felt ābetterā.
Seems crazy to me now but thatās how I dealt with everything in my life so back then that was the norm. Canāt do that now!
Anyway although I am still feeling like crappy, I still have a cough & my head is still sore, I had to take the week off work, havenāt been outside since Sunday morning, had dreams about being in work & a couple of nightmares where I got back with my ex 
I still feel better & happier that Iām sober.
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Day #10 sober from daily cocaine use!!! Yessir!!! 
now officially in the double digits of sobriety :DDD
I woke up today having some toxic thoughts about wanting to get back with my ex, but I donāt think itās worth it. He moved onto some girl anyway and basically ditched me as soon as he got with her. He is a real dickhead tbh, basically used me for sex until he found someone new. He often lied to me and hid things from me.
Plus, I think getting back with him would put my sobriety at risk. Whenever he stressed me out, Iād always wanna use cocaine. Just not worth it.
It kinda frustrates me that heās in his new happy little relationship, and Iām just over here fighting my demons and fighting cocaine. I donāt understand why someone so awful is able to go and have a new happy relationship while Iām just struggling with my sobriety. I feel like he doesnāt deserve a happy relationship after everything he did to me, but I know someday when Iām ready Iāll go looking for a relationship again and Iāll find someone better and then I wonāt care about this guy anymore 
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Ah the eclipse. Where are you based, if you donāt mind my nosiness 
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Day 291. I took a few days off of work to relax. I drove to the beach. Iām going to stay here for a bit. Good day to be lazy and watch the waves.
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A dear good friend of mine once said that if I spend time worrying about what others have as opposed to focusing on what I need, then Iāll never be happy.
Things come and go for everyone, and while Iād never wish anyone ill will, all I really concern myself with in this life is me and mine and how to make things better for us.
Make yourself happy sir, and put focus on you and your wellbeing. Itās what matters most.
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Hey Eric, stay in your lane and keep the road clear of debris. Happiness is perception. Culture your own inner happiness my friend. Everything will be ok as long as you keep looking forward.
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Congratulations on 90 days! Keep on keeping on
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Hey, congrats on day 10. My drug of choice is alcohol. I know itās very different from yours but Iām assuming the struggles with resisting & cravings are somewhat similar. Just hang on in there. You can do it.
As for your ex, you said it yourself.
People show us who they are with their actions, not their words. You deserve better than being used or lied to. Ignore what heās doing in his lane, keep to your own lane, work on your sobriety, work on filling your life with happy, exciting things & eventually you wonāt even notice what heās up to š©·
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98 days. Happy 24 all.
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Thanks yall I appreciate it a lot for real, your responses are helping me work through this 
Yeah thatās true thanks yall, I need to focus on myself. Good things come and go for everyone at different times Iām grateful that my life is no longer on pause now that Iām no longer using cocaine to numb my feelings I guess thatās a good thing I have going for me right now.
I hope yall are having a good day, and if youāre not having a good day, your good days will come just keep on keeping on
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Im going to echo what everyone else says; keep your side of the street free and clear of debris and nevermind what heās doing on his side
Butā¦ because we are just suffering from being human, people who use people are not happy people and even when theyāre gone and theyāre sleeping with other people and immediately forging new relationships, they are still not happy people. The work youāre doing to overcome your cocaine addiction is more meaningful than any of that. Iāve had 3 women use me for something; one was just a total player, one just wanted a visa and one just wanted money. The player is still somewhere in London playing the game - the one with the visa is 15 years into a 4 year degree waiting tables at the same Irish bar in Prague (nothing wrong with the job but Iām alluding to the lack of growth) and the one that wanted money isā¦ well sheās broke. All 3 of them are probably with other people, probably were at the time and thatās fine. They are all back at the same stage I found them. Because siphoning as a solution for anything, money, sex, visas whatever ā¦ is not a viable solution - Itās easy to rely on other people but itās better to put the hard work in and grow in yourself. Nothing changes if you donāt change yourself and you are making waves at doing that.
So as far as the ex goes - forget it. I guarantee once he sees growth, your turn to say āNo thankyouā will comes.
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