Wow, so glad and relieved to just know things are going to get better - I’m already feeling and seeing it.
I’m so glad my relapse was every few days over 3 weeks, and not 2 yrs like my last one.
I am really keeping positive and trying to stop the negative chatter in my head. Like when I get anxious about going outside to do gardening I’m trying to channel my thoughts to the enjoyment il get out of it.
Instead of getting into a panick or over thinking or even telling myself oh I can’t do that il have a panick attack - I’m telling ng myself oh that would be nice to get out plant those seeds, oh that will feel great when you have done that, oh wouldn’t it be nice when you do this. Instead of I telling myself I can’t, and all the negative thoughts I’m thinking of the actual activity and enjoyment it will bring being productive.
In a shorter version basically I’m telling myself, I can and I will instead of nope your not going to do it. Facing my fears head on, preparing for the worst that would happen if I go outside etc… have a plan just incase it does and go for it. (Usually my thinking is over dramatic and nothing I thought terrible happens).
I also know I’m still the person I built up to be, who I was 3 weeks ago, before my relapse, but I also realised that she relapsed, I relapsed and Its good I’m still in that place to bounce back, but I need to think what I can do better this time because I was struggling and I’m still on ice.
So yh not sure if any of this makes sense, but I must keep communicating because I know for a fact It works.
13.5 days - we’re racing forwards to 2 weeks! Woo hoo!
Feeling much lighter today, and I’ve noticed that I wake up every day thinking ‘I’m glad I didn’t drink yesterday’!
Had an amazing meeting with my union about work - work have been absolute bastards for the last year and have been refusing to pay me whilst I’ve been off; now they have to pay me in full and backdate everything!
My advocate said how much brighter my skin looks, and how much happier I look.
Went food shopping and fully stocked my fridge up. I literally haven’t used it in the last 6 months because I would never eat when drinking, but I’ve done a deep clean and now it’s stocked with meat, veg, fruit and cheese!
I’m thinking of a lovely lamb dinner, chicken and sweet potato curry, cheesy spinach and mushroom pasta, and guacamole for this week!
Also did my washing, took the bins out and vacuumed, which I never did while drinking. I’m really starting to feel like me again, and I honestly thought I’d never get her back.
Gotta go back up to the shops later to buy a new phone charger and energy drinks (a vice, I know! But not as bad as alcohol). It’s lovely and sunny here, I feel so relaxed and happy!
Oh my god, that’s horrendous! Good attitude to have, but what disgusting claims they have thrown at you!
Always vent here, if you need to. That’s a lot to take on by yourself.
I’m so pleased work has sorted out your payments properly, and that you have stocked up on food and your feeling and seeing how well your doing and that all the little things are coming together and your happy
Proud to read this, proud of you
Congratulations on your 2 weeks
I’m proud of you too for coming back and doing the damn thing! You’re doing amazingly and I hope you’re starting to feel a little better.
Every road has it’s bumps, sometimes we’ve got to pull over and re-evaluate the situation, but the important thing is that you’ve got back on that road!
Keep trucking along friend, you’ve got this!
Mid day check in. Well it’s Friday already Had some snow last night just a few inches and expecting around 10 inches Sunday. Spring is in the air Oh well it’s been a mild winter so I won’t complain. Not much else to report so let’s all have a good day!!!
Yes!! The days leading up to my cycle were always some of the quickest/worse blackouts and the older I got the worse they were. hope you get some good rest for your exhaustion
Im grateful for my boss smile today,
Im grateful for my friends saying you looks pretty good
Im grateful i can eat good food
Im grateful that i can save money
Im grateful im getting good productivity
@JazzyS congrats on 15 months alcohol and weed free @MrsOdh I like that thank you 🩵 @Just_Laura congrats on 400 days @Mno thank you 🩵 I’m glad you enjoyed the first creative writing class @acromouse a little yes I’m sorry about the panic/anxiety attacks but congrats on 4 months of freedom from sugar @Jimz thank you so much 🩵 @MrFantastik congrats on all the 1s @IamThechange that was exactly it and thank you @Juli1 I love these reflections, sorry you had to go through it all to get to this point though 🩵 @Lighter congrats on 3 weeks
@Mindofsobermike sorry for the social media accusations, that’s awful of her. I do like your attitude towards it though @tifflynn07 I hope your day got better sending strength 🩵 @Lile01 please for you about the Union meeting, and all the benefits of your sobriety congrats on 2 weeks @Timetochange congrats on 9 months @Thumper1213 congrats on 150 days
1320 days no alcohol.
785 days no cocaine.
300 days no vape.
45 days no binge-eating.
It took me from 6am to 10:30am to get ready, I wish my brain wasn’t like this, it wouldn’t let me get in the bath until I only had an hour before I needed to leave. Much to my frustration and despair. Then it took me a little while to battle the anxiety about the drive to my brother’s house, but I got through that too, and eventually, I was on my way, on time.
It was such a nice visit, even though my SIL labelled it as a ‘bad day’ (baby niece was tired but wouldn’t nap, so there was lot’s of crying, bless her). I suggested going for a walk, so we did that, baby was quiet but still no closed eyes.
It was so nice to be able to talk to my SIL, we’ve always got on well, but these days there’s always other people around when we see each other, and my 5yo niece of course, so we don’t get to catch up like we did today very often anymore.
I’ve caught-up here, now I’m planning an early night, so I can get into action on cleaning the flat this weekend. That is my sole mission for this weekend, so I’m hoping to activate hyper-focus, and get it done, bit by bit, with short breaks.
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Im currently sitting in a hospital room at emergency with my son. He spiked yet ANOTHER fever last night and appeared really unwell. So i took him to the hospital earlier this morning. Hes resting now on his ventilator and seems to be a bit more comfortable. But we are being admitted for probably at least the weekend. He had a ECG done bcuz his heartrate is 170, had a chest xray done, has shortness of breath, fever, body chills, and lots of chest conjestion. I hope they can figure out whats wrong. Thankful for the Drs and nurses here. Praying things get figured out.
Hey guys I’m back to day one I drank heavily yesterday before dumping the rest of what I had left of a bottle I almost finished in two days…I’m getting really nervous about the whole quitting cold turkey thing bc of how heavy I have been drinking. Like I just want to be completely done and then people say don’t quit cold turkey or you can have a seizure and die…I’m confused on if I was drinking THAT much where that could happen. Most days I do drink many shots of liquor though. I feel terrible today. Not even hungover terrible, feels like withdrawal is already happening racing heart headache & im so tired.
Had some snow last night just a few inches and expecting around 10 inches Sunday. Spring is in the air 
Oh well it’s been a mild winter so I won’t complain. Not much else to report so let’s all have a good day!!! 
fab. Thank u for support folks. Small steps
I’m sorry about the panic/anxiety attacks 
but congrats on 4 months of freedom from sugar 
and thank you 
my son only has a very mild cold right now, I can’t even imagine. 🫶🏻