Hello and Happy Easter to all who celebrate, and a very happy day to all.
My head has been spinning in the future. Itās exciting, but I need to come back to today. I will pull up stakes and move away, but not for a year or two. Yes, itās a good area and better cultural fit for me, but Iām in early recovery. I can stay in that happy future place for a minute but not long. I overthink it. If I moved today, Iām not sure I could handle it and stay sober. These things come later! Iāve cleared myself space to recover. Going to stay right here, today. In all ways. I have a good home here.
Congratulations Marie and very wise to not try and do to much to soon. We need to get used to sobriety and stay in the process I think for some time.
That said it is fun to imagine what our lives can become in a sober wayā¦
Thanks Nick! Last night I was on the real estate sites and started imagining myself in different houses, and how walkable they are, where the restaurants are, reading the reviews for the restaurants near the housesāit was insane but fun! Thereās a lot about recovery that isnāt dramatic or super different day-to-day. So I was craving an adventure I think. Once I get myself sorted. No Zillow today.
Slept amazing, up at 6:30am and showered immediatelyā¦ thatās new for me since retiring, lol. Shower first thing before I even come down for coffee or AG1 drinkā¦ yikes
Itās a beautiful, albeit brisk day here on the coast.
Nothing major in store today, definitely gym for an hour or so.
Son and I took sofa out of gym area to open space up a bit yesterday and rearranged equipment. Think I have better space to move about.
Probably take boys for a hike this afternoon to the trails to keep the cardio going as I am finding the addition is helping limber up the hips and glutes which have been tight lately.
Some shots of rearranged gym. Enjoy your day all!!
@MrFantastik congrats on 120 days! @KellyKelly way to go on 2 years @Seizetheday good job, Hannah, on 90 days! @Lighter way to go, Marie on 30 days sober! @Chevy55 85 days! I need to get in the gym @Thumper1213 Happy Easter. Congrats on 159 days! @Just_Laura 409 days, love it! Hey, I tend to have dreams like that too, I have dreams of using and then somehow I end up in a high speed chase with law enforcement. I wake up in panick.
Happy Easter!! Day 102, heading back home this morning, everyone is drained. None of us ever sleep well in a hotel, so I stayed up working on some new apparel for my brand, wife and kids blamed me for no sleep because when I did fall asleep āI was snoring like a freight trainā . Weāre all ready to get home, I hope my wife cooks so I donāt have to get on the grill today, . Hope everyone has a fantastic day, #ODAAT,
Back home again from Hornborgasjƶn and the Crane Watching.
12 y/o builds his D-Day tank model he got in his Easter basket.
14 y/o is playing with his western bulls eye shot game he got in his Easter basket. (Your supposed to aim the laser at a specific point on plastic cans and bottles on a plastic log and fire, hoping that you aimed right so theyāll fall down.
Me and my husband is just taking it easy.
Had a quick talk with my Ma when I called to wish her Happy Easter. She was sober for once. Always a pleasant surprise
Just wanted to show you guys the pictures from the Crane Watching. Thatās why I did another check in.
Feeling quite good and relaxed,
Despite of some aching bones and muscles.
Donāt know if I am fighting against an infect or if my body is just happy about a break.
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Happy everyone!
Currently at work until 4pm and then home to celebrate the holiday with my fam. We dont really do much other than let our son open a few gifts and play some games. No big dinner or anything as we dont have relatives here where we live. So its pretty quiet. Had a chance to do some reading on here today which is always nice! Grateful for every single one of you Not much else to report right now. Looking forward to later today and for tomorrow when I can hit the gym in the morning. Have a great day everyone!!
Day #6 of abstinence from a heavy cocaine addiction!!! Feeling better every day :DDD
Last night, I saw one of my online friends went to some rave and he was doing a bunch of cocaineā¦ It triggered pretty bad cocaine cravings in myself, but I made sure to use my strategies to calm myself down and keep me from my āmonkey brainā taking over and making me buy/do cocaine. Unfortunately, the cravings lasted all the way to this morning. But still, I resisted the cravings and came back to my senses.
Sure, other people are able to do cocaine and be fine, but not me. I cannot allow myself to do cocaine regardless of if other people were doing cocaine. I still havenāt forgotten that Iām feeling so much better BECAUSE Iāve been staying away from cocaine and taking care of my life; I do not want my life to be on pause again. Using cocaine wouldāve done nothing but put me in a very stressed-out, paranoid, negative thought loop about āI have to quit I have to quit how the fuck do I quitā while continuously railing line after line. Fuck that shit!!!
BTW what kinda music do yall like? Iāve been listening to a lot of heavy songs about addiction. Been helping me stay sober :3 For example: Spotify
Retired to this home 2.5 years ago and thatās when I began working on it. Every new piece was supposed to bring a stop to drinking and a focus to fitnessā¦ needless to say it didnāt but I starting amassing a decent place to start working out.
Fast forward to January when I decided to get sober and start using the gym dailyā¦ and now here we are coming up on 3 months and loving it more than I thought I ever could.
(I think) so congratulations 
sending lots back to you 
. Weāre all ready to get home, I hope my wife cooks so I donāt have to get on the grill today, 
Not much else to report right now. Looking forward to later today and for tomorrow when I can hit the gym in the morning. Have a great day everyone!!