I guess it is, maybe I just need a new way to look at it. And as you said be grateful (I always is) for what I actually got and put my energy there enjoying every minute.
I’m sure you and your daughter find your own way of doing things eventually, both of you just need to give it some time.
Allergies is horrible, personally I do whatever I want anyway. As long as it won’t kill me or put me in deep pain. I love being outdoors,and I refuse to let my allergies stop me.
I just pack extra tissues and takes the full recommended dose of Allergy meds. I do have an inhalator too but I don’t really like it, it makes me dizzy. It’s also said that local honey can eze the symptoms. You’re supposed to eat a teaspoon everyday.
Slept long enough, but I don’t feel particularly rested this morning. Well, it’s my holidays. I can basically do what I want today. No pressure. Weather looks nice. That might call for some outside activities. I’m going to have another coffee and see what I come up with.
Whatever I’ll do it will be sober and clean. Just for today. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Clean and sober. Love.
@Juli1 Cheers and belated happy birthday my friend!
Those are hard emotions. You’re mourning the absolute awful tragedy and you’ve helped a tremendous amount.
It’s okay to not let it take you down and to do your own normal life and the things that make you and your family happy.
That’s not disrespect of what’s going on … that hurt is with you.
And loving and wanting to be with your own family is normal for so many reasons.
You’re not deserting the cause just doing your own thing which is fine, great and good. Big hugs. @MrsOdh
Happy Birthday a day late @Juli1 …
Happy days the whole year through!!
Glad I saw this, I’m doing poor job keeping up w the threads rn. Wishing you a fantastic year!
Thank you,I needed that today.
Not sure it feels disrespectful it’s more like it feels unfair.
I still have everything and everyone I love, and they lost it all in a heartbeat.
I’m up a few hours too early. I’d rather be up than fight with insomnia. And then, I think of bright European birds singing…they’re there singing right now -it’s daytime there. Yes, I’ll go log onto TS instead of turning over one more time in frustration. There was a continuous thunderstorm that was illuminating my bedroom all night as well, so fro, insomnia, I’m getting coffee!.
I think the lack of sleep is worth it. I have had no hangovers and far fewer bad decisions have been made. I’m hopeful and I couldn’t feel that 6 weeks ago.
130 days
Strained my calf today, its minor and I’ll look after it and be fine. Previously injuries were a thing that really brought me down. Now Im finding that overall my mindset has returned to a generally positive one.
Just keep moving foward.
Thanks Rosa! Trying not to fight with it, just enjoying the wee hours. I’m going to exercise once caffeinated. Maybe I’ll clean A lot easier to have insomnia without the drinking part!
On to day 4. Mood went very low yesterday, mainly due to lack of sleep. I’ve had another bad night on top of that last night. I’ve never been a great sleeper but I reckon I’ve had about 4 hours the last two nights which is crap even for me.
I’m going to keep myself busy today. I’ve a few things that need doing. Probably best making a list.
Back at work tomorrow for a 12 hour shift (6am to 6pm) so could really do with a good nights sleep tonight.
Things are looking a bit better. Gonna extend my sick leave until next week because I’ve barely got enough energy to do basic stuff like eating, showering, etc…
However I had a good meeting yesterday.
Lots of new faces.
Well for them I was the newbie. Guess that’s what happens in due time.
Hope everybody is doing okay and have a good wednesday.
Day 147 morning sober fam. Things are going pretty well. Hit two months at work the other day and pretty proud ive made it to work every day other than having to leave early a couple times and a day from the doctor. The 15th will be 5 months so that will be nice too. Much love everyone
Yes, I’ll go log onto TS instead of turning over one more time in frustration. There was a continuous thunderstorm that was illuminating my bedroom all night as well, so fro, insomnia, I’m getting coffee!. 
A lot easier to have insomnia without the drinking part!
