Day 292. Second check in. Mid day break at work. Listening to some music and a bit of reading. Will log back on at 3.
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I’m missing the peak district (where I use to live before Cornwall)
I miss the seasons and the landscape. Cornwall is beautiful but seems to be wet for six months then summer, then wet.
Long term I may head north again. Get back out across the moors. A case of just seeing where life goes.
1 day sober!
No weed or smoking / vaping of any kind
Nighttime has always been hard for me. Even back as long as I can remember my family had a really hard time putting me to bed because I would just cry and cry and keep getting up.
(Theory is I have trauma I don’t remember at nighttime, as a toddler I stayed with multiple different families. Or just abandonment anxiety)
Last night was no different and the first thing I wanted to do was smoke. Instead I felt the feelings, the physical sensations. I thought maybe at this point the crying is comforting and familiar, and not necessarily a bad thing. which may sound odd, but I fell asleep soon after!
Mornings are also difficult but easier than night. This morning though, I’m just looking forward to another run with my boyfriend when he gets home today, and in the meantime some self care and home keeping 
Day #17 sober from my DOC yessir!!! 
Thanks yall for helping me with the cravings last night 
Day 105.
First therapy session. Strange but good. I felt like I was just talking really matter of fact about really traumatic things non stop, without any real emotion or pause. I was very honest, but I still feel as if I’m standing behind a really really thick skin saying things I’ve come to terms with behind my really really thick skin.
It’s done. Cancelled all classes today and will nap and think instead. Feeling the need to feel cosy and safe.
Day 148. At work and just enjoying the morning. Looking forward to this weekend so i can put some new parts on my bike, the upgrades are almost complete lol. Got this service star this morning which was pretty cool, i really do love my job and where im at today with sobriety. Much love
Holy cow, people are crushing it left and right!!
@maxwell and @Seizetheday , congrats on 
days!! @Chevy55 , you’re just about there, gotta feel good!
@Teresa.13 , 2 years is absolutely amazing! Congrats!
@suechu , good going on reaching double digits!
@BJonns , two weeks now, girl, many more to come, stay strong friend!
@Charlie_C , one month plus friend, done and dusted. Good on ya!
@Soberbilly , I’m gonna do that equanimity meditation. Thanks for sharing it! Refuge recovery is so inspiring,
@Rookie , look at you , close to two months! Way to go!
I’m checking in on day 274, all. Keep rockin it, no matter what the numbers are! 
Day 1209,
Have been a interesting last two weeks, full into living life. Rest and balance is becoming key. I can only do so much in one day, moving feels great though.
Have a good 24!
101 holy crap! I’m more surprised than anyone!!
Keep trying and never give up!! 
Close to 33 days smoke & alcohol free
Smoked for 35 years
Few Cravings today (alcohol) 
they passed quick
I actually don’t even think about smoking now . i guess it was just the right time to quit as failed twice before ( last year ) actually started smoking again when drunk , beer & smoke tastes wonderful 
what a twat
It really is 
. Oh no, no relaxation but it has been good just me and the boys. Mom misses everyone and is ready for us to come— told her I know it’s a work trip but enjoy the break away from the kids and me (I know I probably get on her nerves more than anyone…
oh well) we’re going to meet her Friday after school and spend the weekend. I do miss her a lot, it’s different when we don’t see each other due to different work schedules or something like that but knowing she’s out of the city makes me miss her more.
Another funny thing, your cats name is Luna, and our pet Oakleys mom is named Luna. Hahaha.
Yes, 7 puppies, they are so cute. I wanted to keep this female but mom said she had someone who wanted her and She said 2 of the pups hasn’t had any inquires so we’ll probably be holding onto them a little longer. We have 5 sold just waiting on their 6-8 week mark.
Hi all, checking in on Day 11. Been napping today, don’t sleep at night at the moment but usually manage to catch some zeds in daytime. Had to stay in for delivery so missed out on swimming. Too much mooching around the house for sure. Anyway glad to be here and thanks to all you guys for being there.
2y1m29d
Day has been pretty decent so far. Its only noon here but so far i mamaged to get some cleaning done and play a few rounds of my sons fav board game with him. Hes home today so I wasnt able to get my workout in but my eating has been good. He has an appt which Im feeling a bit anxious about. But im sure it will go well. My parents are taking a trip to come visit us. They left today and will visit us on Sunday for my husbands 50th birthday. Im super excited to see them!! Not much else to report right now. Just going to try and do some deep breathing and relax to help get rid of this anxiety. Have a great day everyone!
@whereswaldo Hope your ADHD assessment went well and the multivitamins / tablets help you. Great work on your 24 days friend! Glad your tests went well and you are getting the assistance / help you need. Yeah to sober living!
@goku2019 WOW – see you about to hit 30 days caffeine free – that’s impressive work – hope you are feeling better these days 
@bjonns Way to go with your 2 weeks – keep up the amazing work.
@leigh231 YES day 5! Great work on all of it friend. For me the sugar cravings did increase when I quit alcohol but dwindled down after 6 months and now I’ve been back on my no sugar diet. Keep working on your recovery friend – you are doing an amazing job! 
@k_s Oh man you got a lot of juggling going on. Don’t ever feel bad about not catching up here. We are just happy to see you posting and around Kenny. 7 puppies 
so much adorableness at once 
Sounds like you are doing a great job holding down the fort while your wife is away. Hope you find time for yourself as well
YES! What a great feeling it must have been to lay a sober head on the pillow. Great strength Zoe. SO very happy for you.
@laner Way to go Elana! 1 week milestone is impressive work and I am grateful to see you have such lovely support around you in real life. Keep up the amazing work
@chevy55 OOH a tendon / muscle pain sounds rough to deal with. Hope it has gotten better. Yes please have it looked at if it does not get better. Wow those are both great 1st to have done without drinking or feeling urges. Should be proud of yourself.
@jonase Yeah day 13! Hoping all goes well with your moms surgery. It is a great feeling when we can be clear minded and available to help out our loved ones. Keep up the amazing work friend.
@Juli1 congrats on 72 days AF. Those flowers are so beautiful. Have a good day, Julia. Keep on keepin’ on! 
@Timetochange congrats on 292 days! Hopefully you’ll be able to get some good rest on your off days. It’s good to be able to look bad on the past and see the growth over the years. Motivation to keep striving. Keep on keepin’ on!
@Whereswaldo so happy you’re “getting on top of life”. I understand exactly what you mean by looking for the next thing to work on. You know, you finally stop trying to run away from things and face them head on. I’m glad you’re feeling more confident without any mind altering substances, alcohol only did that for me a little while until I started doing dumb shit and messing up all my friendships and relationships. Congrats on 24 days, and yes it really does get better. Yeah, there are gonna be some crappy days, but a few crappy days compared to a lifetime of crappiness sounds a lot better to me! Keep on keepin’ on!
@BrOKenWolf congrats on 865 days, Richard! Thanks for sending the good vibes to us all!
@Laner way to go on 1 full week sober!! It’s get better as you go on and make your sobriety you’re main priority. Without your sobriety being first, how can you be the best version of yourself for the people that love you?! Keep on keepin’ on!
I wish you the best on your sobriety journey.
@Nordique congrats on 1397 days, hope you have a good one too! Keep on keepin’ on!
@JonasE glad you’re checking in with everyone on day 13! Congrats!
@CleanHeart congrats on 47 days!
@Chevy55 congrats on 97 days, bro! No gym today? Nothing wrong with a break bro…hope today is a good one for you.
@danny81 congrats on day 5, Danny! Hopefully you’ll continue working your way towards a better sleep each night. Sleep deprivation is a MF! Hope today is a good one for you! Keep on keepin’ on!
@s_unrelax Welcome to the community! Congrats on 4 days. Physical AA meetings are important, gives you that opportunity to really feel others and know that you’re not alone. Love the expression of gratitude. Keep on keepin’ on!
@Lighter congrats on 41 days, Marie. Have a good day!
@Rookie congrats on 59 days, Kristen. I’ve finally got off my sweet tooth run. Yes, OTAAT! 
@Aviva Welcome to the community! #ODAAT congrats on starting your sobriety journey. I wish you the best.
@Tragicfarinelli congrats on 105 days. That first session can be very difficult. It gets easier and you begin to feel more and more relaxed as you go back to those times and relive those emotions but finally speaking out about it and actually being heard and getting it out. It helps me a lot. Hope you’re having a good day! Congrats, again. #ODAAT
@Mindofsobermike congrats on Day 148, Michael. Hope your day keeps getting better and better. Congratulations on your service star.
@Pattycake congrats day 274, Patricia. Keep on keepin’ on!
@Kvee keep on keepin’ on! Congrats on day 33!
@Rob11 congrats on 1209 days, have a good 24!
@Max199 congrats on 101 days! Keep on keepin’ on.
Checking in. Day 113…Not a whole lot going on today, everyone. I’m alive, I’m sober, and I’m thankful. There used to be days I didn’t know how i would face the day. I’m thankful I’m no longer restless irritable and discontent. I use to be a complete Jackass and a (D), if you came around me you would immediately feel the negativity coming from me. These days im vibration at high levels, and passing positivity to those around me…I find my self walking around happy and singing, more cheerful, smiling more.
When I was in treatment I was told the following and had to memorize:
Addiction is a progressive and fatal disease of personalities, attitudes, and a general negative outlook on life, rooted in fear, insecurities and low self esteem.
I’m thankful I’m no longer trapped in my addiction.
I’m thankful that I came to believe that a power greater than myself could restore me to sanity.
I’m thankful that I chose to turn my will and my life over to the care of God as I understand him.
Have a fantastic day everyone one! #ODAAT
This made me laugh Richard. Hope you have fun with the chaos – sometimes just gotta let loose 
@aviva welcome to the community friend. Have you tried to listen to a nighttime meditation or soothing noise that would help you get to sleep? I did try nighttime hypnosis through a app that I found useful. Great work on day 1. Join us on the Grumpy A-holes (quitting cigarettes/ nicotine products) thread too – maybe reading through might help you with tips. Great to have you here with us
Wow that’s a lot to process and verbalize (even without emotion attached I know deep down you are still dealing with the emotional impact of these moments. Grateful that you are taking it easy today and resting in a cozy environment. Hope the therapy sessions help you untangle and shed the thick layer of skin. Many hugs dear TF.
@Mindofsobermike WOW that is a lovely card to receive Mike. Great work Mike – 148 days is mighty impressive. Grateful to see you shining in your recovery.
@Butterflymoonwoman So glad that your parents are coming to visit. 50th Birthday – wow that is an awesome celebration. Happy early birthday to your hubby! Glad you are enjoying your day with your son today Dana
Checking in on Thursday afternoon
I can’t believe its already 2:30 here. I did manage to do some Tai Chi today (still can’t do a lot of moves but grateful for the ones i can). Have tried to start walking more in doors so that i can get better and be able to do more outdoor walking when we have nice days. Itsa cloudy rainy day today and i am loving it. Taking it easy yet trying to push myself if that makes sense. ODAAT!
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day! Sending you all so much love
Hahaha, no, no urges. The thing pushing me to tipping lately is people and nonsensical babble. I’m not sure how I’d fare out in the real world right now.
no need to try and find out right away either. Just keep doing you and as you build up the days you will build up the tolerance as well I know the nonsensical babble can be overwhelming and take a lot our of our own energy levels – keep your energy in tact Nick!
I love this mantra. There’s always a lot to be thankful for 
Cheers, Kenny, my man 🫶🏼
