Beginning of Day 24 
Off to the vets at 11am with stewy (cat).
Hopefully everything is okay but I feel his not himself. So a check up will be helpful.
Day off from all everything and just going to do the vets trip, shops for something nice for dinner and then just take it easy.
And enjoy the day.
Have a great day everyone I will catch up this afternoon once I know my stewy is okay 
Day 293. Long weekend off now. Was a good week at work. Been working on lots of quite onerous but important tasks… And nearly completed them all. Which is a good feeling
I think the sun is out!! Going to plan a trip t see my parents soon (up north) and maybe a holiday abroad? Jan or Feb to Venice again
132 days
Last day off before back to work tomorrow. Went for a swim with the wife. Its cool because she is a good swimmer and it gives me something to work at.
Have been nursing the calf muscle last few days, have a fitness assessment at work tomorrow so hopefully it holds up. The assessment itself will be no problem but don’t want to aggravate the injury and set the recovery back a few days/week.
I hope Stewy is all right 
Enjoy your day.
Hi guys! Checking in with 744 days 
I wanted to reach out and say hello again. I’ve been fairly strong in my sobriety, still having those little waves of cravings from time to time. But filling my cup in other ways. My husband and I started running together, which has been really hard but really rewarding. We’ve been running along the coast with the sunrise, chuckling to ourselves about how all of our mornings used to be hungover and terrible and how wonderful it feels to enjoy our health now. If someone told us a few years ago we would be early morning runners we would have laughed at them 
Still crocheting a lot, working, I even cut my work week to 4 days a week which has been so great!
Looking forward to reading and catching up on the threads. I’ll post some of my crochet and running snaps in the threads 
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. Some more writing today. And maybe a shortish bike ride in the afternoon. Weather seems nice enough. Will see. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
@Seb Right on Sebastian!
@Elisabeth Always room for more friend! Welcome to the thread!
@Twizzlers Success with the vet visit friend.
@Mischa84 Hope you’ll have a good chat with your sis.
@Thumper1213 Those are the most satisfying ones in the end Billy. Good days and bad ones. Using never helps.
@Alycia Great to see you Alycia! Thanks for dropping in and giving us an update!
Thank you for sharing. He’s such a cutie 
Hi all, I am behind after a busy day yesterday, have tried to read everything though. Checking in on Day 19. Just trying to cling to the last moments of peace and coffee in bed. I love the slow starts the school holidays brings to my mornings.
Have a good day everyone, thank you for being here
@Juli1 belated congrats on 70 days 
and belated happy birthday 
love what you said about not reacting, so true. That cat looks beautiful 
@JazzyS yep, and I already waited 3 years whilst the doctor kept reassuring he’d made the referral (he hadn’t), so I had to start again. Thank you friend, I do really hope to be back on track from today 🩵 I’m glad to read you’re doing a bit better mentally, and that you pushed for an appointment 
I’m also glad you were able to get some relief from your back pain 
@Davina_Davis thank you, I’m really not looking forward to going back for a filling on the 22nd 
@Chuckie22 I am so sorry 
sending you strength today 🩵
@acromouse thank you, I will try to plan something for after my filling on the 22nd, that will really not be a nice experience plus I have a therapy session directly before it so I’ll already be feeling vulnerable.
@Lile01 good to see you checking-in feel better soon 🩵
@Lighter congrats on 40+ days so glad you are feeling some hope too 🩵
@Lotusflower sending you strength 🩵🫂
@maxwell congrats on triple digits 
so glad you stuck with it 🩵
@Teresa.13 congrats on 2 years AF 
and on 1.5 years smoke-free
@suechu congrats on double digits
@ceejayboi welcome to the checking-in thread 
@RosaCanDo that was so lovely to read about your time with your family 🩵 9 hours is definitely quite the trek! 
@Seizetheday congrats on triple digits
@EarnIt sorry to read you’re struggling sending strength 🩵
@MikeA sending strength 🩵
@Michelle @wahtisnormal welcome back to you both keep fighting 🩵
@SadMemeQueen good to see you checking-in, I’m sorry for your struggles and the lack of support from your doctors, keep pushing them for the tests you need! Same for the insurance company! Sending strength 🩵🫂
@BJonns congrats on 2 weeks
Day 105 I’m doing ok. Not working today & have made plans to go outside even though the weather is miserable. I almost had a relapse dream last night. It was such a weird dream.
Still sober in my real & dream life 
@Laner congrats on your week
@Aviva welcome congrats on 1 day
@Tragicfarinelli I feel the same in my sessions so far, I’m so disconnected from my feelings and emotions. Hoping we both will benefit in the long-run 🩵
@Mindofsobermike congrats on your Service Star
@zzz congrats on 2 weeks the graphic appears to be breathing 
@Elisabeth welcome to the checking-in thread
@Mali welcome back glad you came right back 🩵
@Seb congrats on 60 days
@Collins welcome congrats on your sober time
@Ashley_luvz_starz congrats on 2 weeks smoke-free
@Lainenicole96 bless him, that’s amazing!
@Mischa84 I hope you and your sister are able to reconnect soon 🩵
@Just_Laura I’m glad you’ve been catching-up on sleep 
@Twizzlers I hope Stewy gets the all clear from the vets 
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@Alycia good to read from you, I’m glad you’re doing well 🩵
1340 days no alcohol.
805 days no cocaine.
320 days no vape.
0 days no binge-eating.
Had a bad quality sleep Tuesday night, and didn’t wake up properly until 9am Wednesday, which is very late for me. The sugar I consumed Tuesday will be to blame for that.
I drove to my dentist appointment Wednesday morning, had my check-up. He noticed a shadow on my x-ray around a pre-existing filling, so I have to go back on the 22nd to have the filling re-done, and I will be having a clean at the same time as it’s included in my plan. The filling is £95 though. I will be absolutely dreading this because I hate dental work, not that many people enjoy it, it’s just so invasive and loud and painful, I find it torturous!
I didn’t do any of my routine things Wednesday at all. I just felt too fatigued, which I put down to the sugar on Tuesday as well.
Then Wednesday night I had a big takeaway including desserts, so had poor quality sleep again, and didn’t wake properly til 9am again yesterday.
I had another takeaway for lunch yesterday, a carvery with dessert. This one was “planned” as “one last…” 
(before I get back on track).
I didn’t do any of my routine things yesterday either. I hate being so out of sync and in relapse/addict mode.
That’s it now though, I’ve had enough of the madness. I much prefer feeling calm, focused, and being in my routines. I also prefer not abusing myself and my body with any form of poison, junk foods and sugar included.
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My instructor is a very passionate lady and informs us regularly what you just said about keeping us young. She has trained in many disciplines and says the trick is how strong this makes her feel and the emotional connection also. I do Les Mills Body Balance and I think that rotation was number 33 … Try and check it out, there’s genuine feelings it brings up after the hour. It also incorporates some level of yoga and pilates. On my first class I lay on the floor tearful during the affirmation meditation at the end. I’m not a crier in the least… This makes me feel so good.
Yeah. I was evenly saying things like how my mother repeatedly hit me and how my father cut the telephone wires so we had no outlet… Like it was a police report.
I did think an awful lot afterwards though and I think it’s kicked up some sand. It still felt good to say these things and she asked me to have goals for next week. Can you identify actual SMART goals that you want to achieve by your therapy?
Also, and this isn’t funny but it kind of is. She thought (on one small moment) that i was upset and assured me that it’s fine and I will be getting upset. I had just got something on my eye and was rubbing it. I just let it slide as then I started to think I was abnormal for it not being a real tear or emotion. I think I thanked her.
I’m going to go deep into this though, I’m into the talking at least… Felt like I didn’t shut up!
Speedy recovery
25 days. Have been off the app a bit but still checking at the end of the day. Works been really busy so it’s difficult to catch up on everyone’s posts. It’s so active and brilliant to see so many people trying so hard.
Have a great weekend guys!
Day 6. I dont know if its a mental thing but physically feel great. Had a good nights sleep at last and replacing pub time with a bit of swimming seems to be doing the trick. Not getting ahead of myself as the previous two days have been shitty.
I find the weekends particularly challenging. I never allowed myself to drink on weekdays unless I was having a particularly bad day but would wait till the weekend and binge. I kept strong boundaries around drinking times (like only drinking after 21:00 never before) but I could never stop at just 1 drink. And would go through crazy things to get alcohol in secret and never would drink infront of people or out even if someone offered it to me out. Anyways…it was me feeling the need to keep my habit a secret that made me want to stop drinking this way. I want to be healthy and safe. All that to say today is harder for me but I’m doing okay. I told my secret to my closest friends and they didn’t judge me or treat me any differently. Only wanted to help and support me so I’m thankful for them. It makes me hopeful. This weekend I won’t drink but be with my friends.
