So sorry Dana 
Is there any chance your partner can take half the shifts?
What a poor situation for you. 
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Day 1220,
Checking in, a lot of movement and activity. Donāt know whether I shared it already but I donāt need to apply for any job in the foreseeable future. Gives some room and some double feelings but itās the beste outcome for now. Dating goes very well, balancing my recovery with real life is bit challengingā¦.but I remain calm if things are not going perfect. Progress not perfection 
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Day 44 sober & smoke free
All good 
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I am just getting caught up and am so horrified that you and your son are being neglected this way. This is service through your government provided healthcare? Is there any way you can raise a stink up any chain of command?! This is not even humanly possible/reasonable to expect of you and they are seriously abusing you at this point. Iām sending all the strong momma vibes. You have been through a lot in your life, you can and will get through this. It might be hell, but it is temporary. Just remember that. It really will pass. Iām so sorry youāre dealing with this.
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Im so sorry 
im sending you so much strength and support. 
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Checking in day 112 AF 
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Cheking in. Today is a wierd day. Im so tired, out of energy, feeling like in a sleepy zombie mode. It can remind a bit like how I feel when Im sick with flu/fever/start of coronaā¦ Omg! I did not think of that. I hope thats not whats coming!
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And the mood deflatesā¦hormonal likely.
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Thank you @Tragicfarinelli @RosaCanDo @wahtisnormal
My husband and I chatted about him taking on some shifts but then decided against it as he operates heavy machinery at work and really needs to be alert when driving. I get it and i agree with that also. I hate how this situation is making me sooo negative. Its very unlike me to be such a downer. Im normally such a positive person but I have literally let this situation have power over me. So im going to stop complaining and just push thru. Complaining doesnt change the outcome at this point. It wont make nurses magically show up lol. And your right @RosaCanDo this is temporary and i have to remember that. This wont last forever. Ill be honest tho, that thought of using came up bcuz ill need help to stay awake. But i obviously wont turn to that bcuz it would absolutely make things 100x worse. I dont need drugs. Coffee/tea can help me and when im able to rest abit, i will take advantage of that. So moving forward, im going to focus on being positive and just being gentle with myself over the next week. I decided to do some extra cleaning and laundry today so that i wont have to do it later on in the week when im tired. And ya just going to take it as easy as i can 
thank u all for the support 
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Day 36.
Head to the doctor this week to get the results from my blood test and liver scan. My pysch should have sent the doctor the report about my adhd by then too hopefully and we can get on a health plan to make my 30ās my healthiest decade to date.
Have a great day everyone
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@Shel75 well done for coming here to check-in in the midst of chaos, thatās huge 
Iām sorry about the panic attacks, they are so rough 
Iām sending strength and calming vibes š©µ 
@SubmarineMonkey welcome to the checking-in thread congrats on 4282 days 
love what you shared and that you have family that understand š©µ
@Mno I hope your first day back went okay 
@GOKU2019 Great share, thank you š©µ
@Just_Laura woah that is scary! Iām glad everyone was safe. Congrats on your prosperous brunch shift
@acromouse thank you friend š©µ congrats again on 5 months sugar-free
@s_unrelax congrats on 2 weeks
@Steve92 congrats on 90 days weed-free
@Thumper1213 feel better soon š©µ
@Noshame congrats on double digits no marijuana
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@Danwood85 welcome congrats on 2 days
@Butterflymoonwoman Iām so sorry that they have given all of your sonās night nurses leave at the same time, that is really bad on them. Not sure how it works where you are, but are there other care agencies that could help when these situations come up, because this is happening far too often and itās not fair on you or your son, you need a more reliable service. Sending you so much strength š©µ
1351 days no alcohol.
816 days no cocaine.
331 days no vape.
0 days no binge-eating.
It was late by the time I got to sleep. I woke up to my alarm going off.
Bathed/showered.
Drove to therapy today, because I didnāt think getting the bus home and waiting around would be pleasant after the dentist.
Therapy was hard. I felt such heavy shame that I couldnāt even hold my head up today, let alone look at her. She suggested next week that we sit facing the window side by side instead, so I have to remember that, itās worth a try.
My dentist appointment got moved to tomorrow, because the dentist had only just landed back in the UK 30mins before my appointment.
Drove home. Waited in for a delivery.
Stupidly went on the takeaway delivery website, added and deleted an order 3 times, but then did end up ordering. I will not be browsing any of those sites from now on. I donāt know what possessed me, but also I think it wasnāt fair to myself to expect to have a successful day 1 on therapy day.
My dad came with a van load of stuff to store in my garage, so I helped him with that. Before he left I had the conversation with him that I will no longer be eating with them on any special occasions, because I relapse every single time that I do, and itās just not worth it for me. He said āI understandā. So thatās that taken care of.
Tomorrow I have the dentist at 11am. Looking forward to getting home afterwards and reading my book some more.
š©µ
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Day 55 sober. Out of surgery . On my way home to lay around and not do anything. I can share more later.
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Good to hear youāre ok! Let us know how youāre going when you are up to it 
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Thank you,feeling better this afternoon.
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Today is day 210 af. Went to my home group today. Have not felt the best today. Stayed home from baseball tonight because of it. Have a nice evening all!
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Hey Rosa, thanks for checking in. Things are good with me. It finally does look like spring up here (though we didnāt get much of a winter this year). I think itās because I finally bought a snowblower last fall, so it snowed only like twice 
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Hey sober friends, checking in. Sometimes itās nice to remember that there is a lot of good in the world, even when things seem difficult. Hope everyone is doing well today.
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@butterflymoonwoman OMG This is super frustrating and of course you want to scream! WTF is wrong with this company. How can they expect anyone to be ok with this situation. I feel like this incompetence on their part should be reported. I know you can do this. I know it will not be easy and seems super daunting right now but you have endured worse before and come out ahead. Are you able to get any support to help during the day from your hubby or anyone else so that you can spend the time on yourself and get the sleep you need to do the night shifts? I know the weekend shift if going to be tough. Try not to think of this at the moment (not easy I know ā Iām sorry). Go ahead and scream ā it will help release the stress. Sending you so much love my friend ā I wish I could hop on a plane and come be by your side right now. I am so very sorry that you are being dumped on like this. Are you able to look into any other facility or are you bound by this company ā not something you need to answer right now ā just feel like they are not treating you as a priority or a human. Just saw the update ā oh man ā I understand your hubby not being able to help ā safety first. I get that you want to stay positive and I am sending you loads of positive vibes āits ok to vent if you feel overwhelmed. Always right here for you friend 
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Wow thatās wild! Iāve had batteries explode but no fire. Even if the cables were reversed that will normally pop some fuses. Be interested to here the cause if they can detect it.
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