I don’t own a car and do not drive on a day to day basis. I just don’t need it where I live and I really don’t care for sitting closed up in a car. I prefer riding my bike in the fresh air and getting some movement, or taking public transport for longer rides and realaxing or reading.
But I keep my licence current and I am registered with a car sharing system here. So whenever I need to drive somewhere I just book a car, do my stuff and bring it back afterwards. Works great as an alternative, and as you said: It opens up destinations otherwise not available. But I don’t have to take care of or finance a car.
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Good morning friends!
Day 4
Major struggles with work and life right now. I’m incredibly thankful for my therapist. I realize I don’t have much of a support system at all. For life in general, not just sobriety. I just don’t know how to make friends as an adult. Didn’t know as a child either. I’ve always felt different. Always on the outside of groups. Never really felt a sense of belonging. I did recently join a craft meet up where we bring whatever we are working on. They were a fun group - surprisingly young, liberal, and inclusive. But I don’t feel like I fit in there either.
But one foot in front of the other.
OFDAAT
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Todays is day
299 no alcohol
330 no vapes or ciggs (39 no firm of nicotine)
Houestly day 1 no form of marijuana
I had 1 hit of pot yesterday
No excuses just weak willed
It was at home and i was safe
I had a long talk with my wife and the dangers of alcohol and drugs about hownit just takes 1 time to completely distroy everything
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Day 103
Super gloomy morning. I’m ready for Halloween 
! October can’t come soon enough.
The return of sleep is helping me out. I also have to process many things with a clear, rested mind which is difficult. The icky truth about certain people, places and situations. Stuff I haven’t been able to process until now. I would rather not but it will be cathartic. I don’t ever have to go back there.
Have a great sober day
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I said this yesterday! I LOVE HALLOWEEN! roll on spooky season
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. Yeahhh! Not a summer girl, but soon after Summer is spooky season!
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What will your cats be for Halloween? Black Cats? 
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I had a job interview in the morning and it went well, next week I go there for one hour to check if I like it and ofcourse if they like me. So there is a big chance Im gonna work in kindergarten 
That would never happen in my active addiction cause I simply wouldn’t try. I was so full of doubts, negative self talk and also lazy cause hangovered almost every day. Yuck.
Today I was in the nursing home to help during the coffee time (mostly help people on the wheelchairs) and one old lady was such a bitch! 
She was all the time complaining I was doing something wrong (I gave her wrong scarf or I was pushing her wheelchair to fast/to slow for example) and I’m pretty sure she called me idiot under her nose. Later the girls that works there longer (it was my 2nd time) told me she is always like this and it’s nothing personal. All situation was actually pretty funny but I’m glad I don’t have to see this lady often
Other than that - all fine. I have 3 full days without sugar and yesterday on my run I had my best time for 1km (5:04min). So what can I say, I’m on fire people! 
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Welcome back Karen!
I missed you 
Good to have you back!
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134 days AFmfA
There it is! Hormons kicking in, but I had so much to do with mum and niece, no chance to listen to these ugly thoughts… 👩🏻❤️👩🏻
Having ear pain again,… That was near a swimmers ear pain yesterday.
So no swimming,…
So, no more words needed! Lol.
It gets better cause I used some special lamb wool with natural linolin… This shit is a bomb!
Ordered ear plugs for swimming (never wanted that but my ears seems to be sensitive - oh how surprising hahaha something sensitive about Julia again) and I will use this wool in my ear after a swim! Already packed a little box in my swimbag.
Love you guys 
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Day 80. I finished my first step last night and will meet with my sponsor later this week to go over it. I feel like i have only been half way participating in my recovery up to now. Step 1 made me see some things about myself and my addiction that kind of surprised me. I am starting to get excited about my recovery instead of just doing it
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Checking in day 86. Have a great rest of the week everyone!
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I’m going to throw talc on both of them and they can be Cocaine Bear cubs like in the movie.
- No offense or trigger intended *
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@MrFantastik might be worth getting checked over by a medical professional. Feel better soon 🩵
@Marinetc6925 welcome 
@KarenKW welcome back 
congrats on 3 days 
we’re not alone here 🩵
@Whereswaldo thank you 🩵 I loved your share happy birthday 
@icebear congrats on 3 years 
@Pattycake congrats on 11 months
@ForrestKump enjoy your time off
@Lighter I love all of this for you 🩵
@EmWiz welcome congrats on 2 days
@Foxy8 congrats on 2 weeks
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@Seb congrats on 4 months
@JazzyS thank you 
that’s a good shout, I could read over that compassionate letter I wrote myself. Feelings are so hard when I can’t get them out. 🩵 Your car alarm issue sounds very frustrating! I’m glad you got it to shut up in the end, way to persevere 
@Mira_D I hope you feel better after some sleep 🩵
@Kareness I hope your sponsor called back, and that you felt better afterwards 🩵
@Mno feel better soon 🩵
@Mischa84 good luck for next week 
@CHASE.E.U congrats on 80 days
@Juli1 ear pain sucks I’m glad you found a remedy 
1401 days no alcohol.
866 days no cocaine.
381 days no vape.
0 days no binge-eating.
Checking-in with yesterday’s numbers…
I couldn’t sleep again, so instead I watched 6hrs of BGT that I had left to watch. It’s strange when something can be triggering totally unexpectedly. Sydnie’s semi-final performance had me in tears, mostly because it was mind-blowingly good, but also because it was the last song every night when I worked in Greece at 20yo as a hotel entertainer. It was the best and worst 4 months of my life. I was sexually exploited by the men I worked with and the chief/boss. I also felt very alone and had no one to talk to as I was the only English speaking person there, so I felt very sad for that part of me who’s dream turned out to be a nightmare. Tears felt good, there wasn’t many but some are better than none.
I had a bit of a binge last night, still minimal compared to my usual ones, but still bad enough that my blood glucose level has been sky high all morning. Even though when I tested it an hour after I finished eating it wasn’t so bad, it must have been a delayed response. It’s finally starting to come back down now, 15hrs later, but it was 20.9 when I did my fasting test, scary!
I slept for an hour this morning, then my cats woke me up for their breakfast. Then I spent the next few hours anxious that I wasn’t going to be able to make myself shower, but I did! At the very last minute.
I attended my rehab appointment for my back, told her which exercises were causing me pain, so she gave me some adapted versions, will continue with the other ones plus the new adapted ones for another 6 weeks, then I’ll be seeing her again to review. In the meantime, I’m hoping to rejoin the gym so I can start going swimming again. It has been way too long.
🩵
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Day 336 check in.
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delightfully irreverent. They will be huge kitties by then!
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Good day everyone. Day 145. I have a full schedule today, and am checking in on here instead of doom scrolling elsewhere for attempted stress relief.
I spent a little while early this morning trying to get back to sleep, reminding myself that the amount of poison I put in my body for 22 years up til last year is in the past, not my future.
My mind is back in a better place now that my day is going.
Have a good day!
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Day 1271,
Just checking in and checking out some mountain trails on “El Camino” 
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@Karenkw sorry that you are struggling. I too find it harder to make friends as an adult. Keep putting in the effort with these types of groups. Hopefully you’ll find someone that you click with. In the mean time you are socializing and creating some cool things.
@Noshame back on track is the key! Other timers are very impressive… keep up the great work.
@Lighter ugh… sorry it’s so gloomy…I too can’t wait till Halloween. Excited to see Halloween stuff already out in a few stores. This was a thrilling surprise last week. Sending you strength and love as you deal with the icky stuff.
@Mischa84 oh this is exciting Mischa! So happy for the changes in your life and the new opportunities. Congratulations on your best run time 
@Juli1 sorry your ears are giving you trouble and you can’t swim. Hope you heal quickly. Keep stacking up the days and telling those ugly thoughts to hit the road
@CHASE.E.U great to see you friend…
80 days and going strong lovely to read that you are excited about your recovery. The beginning is just about getting new routines and detoxing. Now you get to enjoy healing and all the joys sobriety brings
@Whereswaldo happy birthday
@Tragicfarinelli omg!!! I love the talc idea and can’t wait to see pics 
Oh this is lovely. Glad you came here to check in. Hope your busy day goes smoothly.
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