Really wasn’t in the mood to work this morning. My body just didn’t want to move fast. Luckily it wasn’t terribly busy. I’m glad my daughter was able to go to a friends after school bc I didn’t have the energy to keep moving the rest of the day. After some rest, I found cleaning motivation. I’d like to do more tomorrow so I’m glad I got a couple easy things out of the way. My neck is already bothering me again, only 2 days after the chiropractor. I need to figure out the root cause of it so I can fix it. It’s gotta be some motion I’m doing and don’t realize Ah well, I’m just happy to have tomorrow off. Hoping to feel good and enjoy it Hope you all have a great one too
I love Paradiso! Been there just few times but it was always great and gives me that “place with a soul” vibe. Can’t wait when my boys gonna be old enough to stay home alone so mom and dad would be able go out and have some fun.
Have a great day
The day started well, but I felt really disappointed after seeing my father’s message on my phone. It’s time to pay the due amount for my sister’s education, and I can’t help but think back to the toxic days when I wasted so much money on alcohol. If I had saved that money, I could have paid all of my sister’s education fees. I’m really sad about that.
*Day 2094
Today I work in another store so I will feel double handicapped. At first hearing very bad temporary and second work in a different environment were all products are stored different so I cannot find a thing. I’ll live.
At 17.00 it’s done
194 days
Feel like I’ve turned the corner with this sickness, feeling much better today.
Still had a low key day.
Kids to school then this evening they had netball.
Hoping I’ll be able to get to the gym tomorrow morning.
Got a bit of a big Saturday coming up in a couple days. Got a big group of old friends getting together and going along to support our league team. Will be lots of drinking but I’ve already volunteered to drive some of the guys in and Im confident that I won’t have an issue. Its going to be an awesome night
@MrFantastik Glad to hear you are feeling at least slightly better. I hope your health keeps improving. And do have fun on Saturday. It does sound like lots of fun coming your way @Juli1 Sending a big wave of mood change for you @SoberWalker Good luck with your challenging work day. The yurt looks fantastic. @s_unrelax I get why you are feeling disappointed with yourself. But what I see is a person who does not let alcohol destroy his care for his family. You still care for your sister’s education. You still want to help her. This is a precious part of being human. Addiction has not destroyed this in you yet. Keep holding onto it and help your family the way you can now. @Just_Laura I hope you can find out what is making your neck bother you soon. It’s really frustrating to keep coming back to the same pain again and again. @Mno Enjoy your show! Have lots of fun. Come back inspired! @tailee17 I am glad to hear your wounds are healing well. And I do hope your home situation improves. You are a very brave person in a difficult situation @Butterflymoonwoman I do hope your cough goes away soon and your health improves. I had a bad bronchitis going on for weeks this spring, I so do empathize. Don’t let addiction trigger you. These thoughts come and go, I also have them on the strangest occasions. Sometimes I am surrounded by my DOC and I don’t care at all. At other times I am doing something completely innocent and my mind comes up with fantasies of using. Our brains are just nuts @Kareness Your day sounds like a lot! You try to do a reasonable thing and then the result is completely the other way as expected. I really am sorry for this. I have no idea if this helps a bit, but these insurance systems are designed to keep you paying more and them paying less. That’s how they make their money. It’s not your fault, the system is rigged this way. And you already have the right perspective. You are doing your best possible work Maybe do something nice for yourself soon. Just to get your mind off this car stuff and find some peace. Sending you comfort @Marinetc6925 The addiction voice in you will come up with all kinds of lies as long as it can make you use again. Don’t fall for it. It does not care for you or your well being. Not for you feeling good, or healthy, or accomplished, or just ok. It only cares for being fed, no matter the consequences for you. Don’t listen to those lies friend. Keep coming back here.
204 sugar
68 UPF
75 gluten
54 dairy
16 overeating
The sun is up, me too.
I want to work more on my prototype today. I hope to finalize the basic rules set so that I can move on to digital prototyping after my trip next week. My daughter will go to the in-laws after school, so I should have plenty of time today.
There are some errands I want to run in the afternoon. The gardener was closed yesterday in the afternoon so I’ll get there today. Need to pick up stuff at the pharmacy.
I also want to prepare for my daughter’s and my trips next week and the busy weekend ahead: packing lists, last errands, booking a car for tomorrow and Saturday evening. Stuff like that.
Yoga as always in the afternoon and I want to join a Recovery Dharma meeting tonight.
Let’s work on a day of peace, kindness and freedom today friends
@zzz double digits? Congrats if so @Butterflymoonwoman I hope you can get checked out asap feel better soon 🩵 @Juli1🩵
1402 days no alcohol.
867 days no cocaine.
382 days no vape.
1 day no binge-eating.
Checking-in with yesterday’s numbers…
Last night I allowed myself to fall asleep at 7pm, instead of going to buy crisps (and whatever else I’d end up not being able to resist), when I first woke up I felt the twinge of shame, but then realised I hadn’t binged.
Today I am on an in-person course, called ‘changing words into action’, it’s a full day course. It is one that I went to last summer, but they cancelled it because I was the only person who turned up. So I’ve waited a long time for it to come around again.
I will be in the city centre, surrounded by all the foods. I am planning to get a healthy lunch if the place I am planning to go is still there (I’ve heard it was closing down).
Feeling sad/depressed/stressed out tonight. Glad to have the day off tomorrow. Going to try to take a shower I guess and focus on self care before I go to sleep. Just feeling really low and alone. I have so much to process in my life I don’t even know where to begin. Saw my therapist earlier which I enjoyed and am grateful for. Second or third time in a row they teared up during our sessions which is like… wow, my life really is fucked up but glad I have places I can vent about it and people who are willing to listen.
Hope everyone is having an enjoyable evening/morning. Proud of every single one of you
@Kareness that’s BS and I’m sorry your insurance company is doing this. Are you able to change companies? Sending you strength and love and hoping you have a much better day today @butterflymoonwoman sending healing vibes Dana …hope you feel better soon @tailee17 sending you love my friend… grateful the healing is going well and the staples are out @s_unrelax unfortunately our addiction(s) have taken a lot from us. Do not live in regret over what has happen and let them take any more of you. Be proud of where you are today and the changes that you are making @SoberWalker sending you strength and calming energy…hope today at the other store is going well. Oooh that’s so exciting… looking forward to hearing the reviews @wahtisnormal big hugs Zoe . Glad you are talking with a therapist and going to practice self care. Indi hope this wave of emotions passes soon for you…you are not alone. 60 days girl!!! Should be proud of yourself 2 months and counting. Much love
Checking in on Thursday morning I was exhausted last night and ended up falling asleep as I was going to check in. Now storms are supposed to come through so I’m going to delay my walk and get the deliveries done first. Coffee is ready and I’m semi awake so let’s get this day started
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day… sending you all so much love
Good morning friends!
Day 5
Slept a tad better but still had nightmares. At least I’m feeling a bit more rested this morning. Just feeling overwhelmed by work and life. Trying to remind myself to breathe and just do what I can. I have a vacation coming up in a couple weeks that I’m definitely looking forward to.
Checking in day 33. Missed yesterday’s check in. Picked up my daughter and son-in-law from the airport and got back late.
These next couple of days will be wonderful.
Day 355. Watched Ricky gervais on Netflix again last night. Always makes me laugh
Slept well. Working 7-3 today. Day off tomoro but got three meetings to attend sods law.
Feeling OK. Father’s day on Sunday. Sent my dad something from m and s. Thank god for m and s!
. I’m not envisaging anything from my children for father’s day… I am tho pretty confident my dog will get me something
Day 211. I tell yah man, the relapse dreams i have are so fricken wild and i dont know why so many are happening. Idk if its just because im so invested in keeping sober, even my counselor was in my dream and then it was funny bc yesterday i had a one on one with him as well. But i mean in the dream, i could feel like the dizziness and how like sick i felt and it just sucked. It was a good day off yesterday though, sarah worked at 7 so i came and had dinner with her before work. Tomorrow we are going out to dinner with her step sister and her bf again. Which is exciting, and still yet no thoughts or signs of sex and im not even worried in the slightest. I can say with past girls, sometimes id be trying so hard by day 3. And id still kinda talk to other girls and if i could possibly hook up behind the talking since i was still technically single. But no im not doing that at all with her, and the other day a secretary on one of the floors asked me if i wanted to hang out sometime, and it was good bc i was able to politely decline. Well anyways much love everyone, looking forward to that 7 months. I believe i have like a little over a year of no chewing tobacco. Although i do still use the nicotine pouches.
Woke up at 4 a.m. and still upset and depressed this morning about selling my car and having the insurance go up. I have some work I don’t know how to do today. Just wish things were easier. I really should have kept that car for my son to drive when he is ready. Not good, but Im not going to drink. I might call my therapist but we don’t usually talk by phone. I do appreciate those who responded to yesterday’s post, thank you!
Ah well, I’m just happy to have tomorrow off. Hoping to feel good and enjoy it 
Hope you all have a great one too 
I had a bad bronchitis going on for weeks this spring, I so do empathize. Don’t let addiction trigger you. These thoughts come and go, I also have them on the strangest occasions. Sometimes I am surrounded by my DOC and I don’t care at all. At other times I am doing something completely innocent and my mind comes up with fantasies of using. Our brains are just nuts 
Maybe do something nice for yourself soon. Just to get your mind off this car stuff and find some peace. Sending you comfort 
feel better soon 🩵
but glad I have places I can vent about it and people who are willing to listen.
