God @Just_Laura I just got literal flashbacks at your description of symptoms while drinking 
I never wanna go back.
570 days!! You little inspiration, you. 
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Lol, na. Iām in California. Itās been hitting 100f here. I thought it always snowed in Canada? Stay hydrated. Stay cool.
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222 days AF
Hi guys, doing great. The new company is giving me an experience of a total different culture. Feeling so good until here. Got to know 70% of my team and they are all soo kind. I know, in average there have to be difficult people too. We will c. Took several challenges this week where I had to jump out of my comfort zone. And ohgosh there was no big ugly monster waiting on the other side. All fine. Felt uplifting to do so. Here I got possibility to practice what I learned. Have to work more on site in the first weeks before doing homeoffice.
Waiting for my tax regulation, as soon as I got it I will order my ice tub to be installed. So I will have a comfort zone challenge everyday.
Had a crazy swim yesterday of 3600 meters. First 1200 I thought itās not a good day, after 1600 I had this pointā¦ Lol! Had a ultra long nap in the afternoon afterwards. So nice. Today will be similar but not such a long one, lol. 
Love you guys 
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Having my Sunday morning coffee. Travelling tomorrow, not too far, but want to a see a bit of nature during the holidays. Autumn weather predict for the coming week. Well, weāll bring our sweaters and raincoats. Weāll be fine. Weāre on vacation and weāre sober and clean. ODAAT. Pic is Oude Kerk, a new exhibition by Iranian/Dutch artist David Nuur opened there yesterday.
Have as good a day as you can all. Clean and sober. Love.
@MrsOdh This looks definite Sophia. Be good friend. I have my doubts about being here at times but Iām great at procrastinating and the feeling of wanting to leave goes again after a while. Much love and hugs.
@FullaFarts Usually we build up tolerance to alcohol. But then we start damaging our bodies and our tolerance goes down again. Could be anything but liver damage is the first thing that comes to mind. Which can be reversed when proper action -like quitting drinking- is taken. Take care and success.
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@Mno My first glimpse of your picture and my mind alread conjured stories about you taking a hot air baloon trip and getting stranded in an old church 
That church is awesome!
@Juli1 Nice numbers there girl! 
Glad to hear you got into the zone yesterday 
@Just_Laura Thank you for sharing your story. I am sorry you had to go through that. Sorry for everyone here suffering. But I also am glad to read this story to know: I am not alone. I can do that. I am with friends 
@wahtisnormal Big shoutout to stuffe animals 
They are always there to give comfort.
@Butterflymoonwoman My daughter told me to tell the nice lady on the internet how gorgeous her dreamcatcher is. 
@1in8billion How long has your roadtrip been already? And how long are you planning for it to go on? And last question: Do you have an estimate about the distance you already covered, will be covering? Iām a very curious person 
And thanks for your philosophical shares. I do really enjoy reading them 
@Mr_Sobriety Nice streak you are building there 
@Bomdhil Congrats on 14 days! Two weeks is a very good time 
291 sugar
155 UPF
29 gluten
29 dairy
Today is my daughterās birthday party. I have to pack up all the stuff for the city game the kids are going to play, including something to read for myself, as Iāll spend most of the time waiting for them to arrive at the designated stations.
My mum will pick us up around late noon and weāll get going to our starting spot - an abandoned cementery. There is a ghost giving the poor people there trouble 
Iām very much looking forward to the whole thing, a bit anxious if everything will turn out well, but also curious how the day will got. And definitely looking forward to a - hopefully - boring and normal week starting tomorrow.
However the day may unfold: I want to find peace and love life just the way it is 
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Day 191
Iām here and discouraged. Sleep has been brutal. Every night, a drenching cold sweat at 2 am. Heart racing, anxiety. It takes a couple hours to subside. Sleep is impossible until the adrenaline leaves. Trauma is some wicked stuff.
I know what to do- get up and get coffee and a snack. I had a couple weeks recently where it was gone. Someday it will be gone. I am safe now.
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Iām sorry to read you had such a shitty night! 
I trust itās only temporary and will improve soon!
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Morning check in! 
I just had breakfast, yesterday after work I felt very tired, I finally went to bed at 11:00 pm, and slept until 9:00 am! 
I havenāt slept that many hours without interruption in a while! Seems like I needed a good rest! 
In fact the cats woke me up miau-ing like crazy, asking for foooood! Itās been raining this morning! Yeah! Finally rain, holy water! 
Gonna start cleaning now while listening to an audio book! Have a good day everyone!
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What a storm last night; blinding sheets of white flashing for hours right above us, no spaces between the rumbles and the jungle beat of light. It was exhilarating and cosy, to me, at least. My other half not so much!
Sunday comes around again. Itās that strange quiet day that used to always terrify me, it was literal abject terror:
The childhood home needed cleaning manically; girl you are in the way
Thereās going to be drama, you know it
School tomorrow; lady, itās gonna be bad
Passive aggressive coexistence
Aggressive existence!
Antiques roadshow on the box; fuck my life!
Anyway, the Sunday scaries are gone pretty much these days. We shall eat roast chicken with all the trimmings and I shall do whatever the hell I want.
Have a good one all
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Iām 50 days sober today. Very grateful for that and the mindset that has came with that amount of days. Iām feeling so much happier. One day at a time
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Awww, thank you 
Iām alrightā¦ after all, Netflix is the cure for all
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One week down.
Happy Sunday all.
Letās go
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Day 209
Sunday night, ready for bed. Great gym session today, bbq lunch and some cheeky online shopping.
I got asked if Iād like to have a beer yesterday by someone out at a sporting event but I felt super comfortable in saying no thanks.
Very empowering and self proud.
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@Borderline_Billy congrats on your week 
@Lighter 
love the cat photo, so cute
@Laner sorry for the rough nights
@ASP congrats on your week
@Seizetheday congrats on 250 days
@Vanessa8 congrats on 5 months
@Butterflymoonwoman love the dreamcatcher 
@Juli1 congrats on all the 2s that is an epic swim! 
@acromouse I hope the party goes well
@Dan.h84 congrats on 50 days
1489 days no alcohol.
954 days no cocaine.
469 days no vape.
1 day no binge-eating.
Not much to report from yesterday. I felt sad and depressed for the most part. I walked to the healthy food shop around 4pm, came home, ate.
I spent the rest of the afternoon/evening meditating, and fell asleep at my usual time, so no meds induced insatiable appetite to deal with.
I hope youāre all having wonderful sober weekends. 
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Hey all, checking in on 1547. I hope everybody has a good one 
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191-2
It is so lovely this morning. First nice morning since May. Fallish. Got out and walked for 30 minutes at a brisk pace. It was so easy in the cool air. Even cooler tomorrow morning before we go back to Summer for another couple weeks. Glad I did. If nothing else, I try to make my exercise goals. Sleep will return. Might be able to open the windows tonight 
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Checking in day 174
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157 days sober
Well I still didnāt sleep the best last night ended up sleeping through my alarm and missed Sunday morning group which was disappointing but I was needing the extra sleep. I had another quiet day just felt like I needed it to be more restful. Had a decent hike and then relaxed with a book. And drank a lot of tea.
Tomorrow the Dutch doctor and his wife arrive so itāll be a busy day. On Tuesday they will do a clinic in town and then Wednesday meet with all the social workers to talk about the effects of alcohol addiction on the body. Iām looking forward to it all! Am really glad they are putting in the extra time to come here and do this. They will also have a free day before they go to another village so am thinking about where to take them on a hike or what we can do.
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I have also been struggling with this the last few nights and thought of you, your coffee and similar problem while laying in bed not sleeping. It made me remember Iām not alone in this (wish you also didnāt have this) but found the thought of not being alone comforting. Hope your nights get betterā¦my bad nights are becoming less frequent with lots of good nights inbetween. I try to focus on that and it helps give me hope.
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