Do you think it is coincidence that your presentation went well, and that you were sober for 16 days before it? I know that in my own life that sort of success is connected to sobriety.
I used to be successful and drunk, but it came at the cost of everything else in my life. My health, my wellbeing, respect of my family. I had to focus so damn hard to succeed in one area that the rest just fell away. All because I was drunk or recovering. One or the other.
Congrats on 16 days, business success and keeping on the path
In my case, alcohol was a part of almost every celebration or social event. Any excuse was good enough for me to get drunk, and when I did not have an excuse I got drunk anyway, since I had nothing else to do
Now whenever I think of anything - for example a barbecue, my mind instantly thinks of alcohol. So I have been avoiding everything. I am not sure I will be able to control myself if I go to an event where alcohol is being served and I would rather avoid any such stressful situations.
Day 15. Can’t shake this tired feeling. And definitely over indulging in sweets, maybe there’s a correlation?? Should probably look into that…
Need to re-focus with my kids. Oldest, 12 he is being so oppositional!! Like dude, can’t we just have one normal morning without you starting shit??Middle little 10… Being sneaky, not following rules, lying & hiding stuff, and is officially grounded. My youngest is honestly being the best, and she’s my wild child, go figure. I definitely fell off as a parent due to my drinking everyday for over two years, probably closer to 5, if I’m being honest with myself.
Here’s to anther day sober.
Happy birthday beautiful 40? You are looking fantastic. Hope today is all about you
Sorry that you have to deal with it at all. Know you aren’t alone and can reach out during these episodes. We are here for you @JP123 I do hope your new ritual for starting off the day helps. The winky feeling did stay with me for a few months as I think I just wasn’t used to living in the present. Being aware of everything everyday was all nee and took a bit to get used to. Especially my emotional side - I hadn’t given that side a thought for so very long prior to sobriety. Keep doing what you are…all great positive steps forward @HiyaKat 38+ days is fantastic. Are you able to fill the evening time with stuff to keep you busy? I found that I would need that distraction to keep me from wanting a drink or turning to old habits and find healthier ways to cope with our emotions that we tried to stiffle. It does take a while to rewire this brain of ours. Hope you are feeling better today maybe also putting positive affirmations around reminding yourself that your work is worthy and wonderful. We tend to be our own worst critics @Just_Laura I hate when the neck gets twisted during sleep. Hope it’s feeling better today. Wow! That is super cool about the tix. I do hope you go and enjoy…one of the shows I really wanna see too. @Mischa84 oh no!!! That’s awful Mischa. I’m sorry you fell and the bike may not be rideable. Grateful you weren’t hurt worse. Hope the pain subsides soon . Dang it- the boots were ruined too? Sorry love. @seb wow - I’m really puzzled at how long it’s taking them to get you an appointment. I’m sorry that you are being made to wait this long. Glad you had a good getaway and that you were not triggered at all. Thanks for posting more lovely pictures @acromouse rest easy my friend. So grateful that it’s not something serious and you will heal. Awesome work - 1 year with TS today . It’s been so lovely having you here with us
@Chevy55 triple 3’s!!! That’s awesome my friend…you are doing great work. Hope you are feeling better today @BrownGecko you did great in working through the cravings and the addictions mental push. Keep that reminder of how hard it’s been to get to this point and you don’t want to risk having to do it again. A risk cause we never know if we will be able to get back once we slip. Keep stacking up the days avoiding things for now is good. Focus on getting your sober muscles trained. Then you will be able to celebrate the things in life without association to alcohol. Takes time to rewire but it can be done
Oh yeah- big correlation. We are trying to replace all the sugar the alcohol had. I personally went for ice cream. For the better part of the first year I could not end the day without ice cream. I knew this was waaaayyyy better than the alcohol and I knew from stories that the system would finally regulate and I wouldn’t crave it as much. Now I am no longer in need of that fix. Keep pushing forward
Checking in on Tuesday morning
I feel like I slept decent. Still so damn fatigued and all that jazz. Gonna make it a good day today
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day - sending you all so much love
Then avoid them at all costs. If you aren’t certain you can stay sober then don’t go. Your sobriety is top concern.
You will get there one day but probably not this early on.
Until you are certain you can abstain, why take that risk? Your health, your work, your relationships, your success will thank you.
Checking in!
Day 4 of my holidays. I’m still playing with the thought of going somewhere just on a quick short break. The bad thing with living on a relatively small island is, that it means you have to take a plane (which makes it more expensive, specially over the festive season - Dec 6th and 8th is a bank holiday over here)
This morning I went for a 7K walk (my plan is to go every day during my holidays), and after that I spoilt myself with a brunch in town!
I ate double the calories I burnt during my walk this morning, but that’s ok!
I also went to a shopping mall (something that I usually hate doing) and bought myself some things, nothing flashy nor expensive, mainly yoga pants, some warm fleece socks and a hoody!
On Thursday I’m finally getting my MRI done for my shoulder! Yeah! 10 months later it’s finally my turn! The pain is still there, so I’m definitely going, even though I’m a bit stressed about it (first time doing an MRI)
@GOKU2019 I never had internet on my own until I moved to this apt. 7 years ago! All we had was VHS/DVDs. Our public library has an insane collection to borrow from. And I gotta agree with Austin Powers 2 being the best one There’s some movies I’ve been thinking about watching with my daughter too. My advice is rewatch before bc there might be an unexpected scene you forgot about (just happened to me with something I “remembered” being okay )
@Seb I never heard of a beer garden so I googled it Looks to me like you’d miss out on more drinking in a place like that, since alcohol fogs our perception of the natural beauty around us(at least for me it did). You probably got more out of it than anyone else there
@StacyAnn I’m not one for sweets, but I did eat alot of them in my first few months. I honestly had no idea how much sugar is in alcohol. It’s absurd. I found fruit helped those cravings. All the fruit
@JazzyS Your response just reminded me…my neck doesn’t hurt at all! Neat
Checking in. Today has been a pretty good day. It snowed today, so it’s not so gray and depressive outside, snow brings some light which is really nice. I took a walk and then I’ve been just reading. One of my friends is drinking today, so she constantly sends me messages in Messenger which is okay, I’m not triggered at all. I’m just happy that I’m not drinking and I don’t have a hangover tomorrow.
243 days sober
Been super busy the past 2 days. Yesterday I started in on my new project and the first days are always crazy. And I love those crazy days! Involves lots of meetings, organizing and preparing. Today I meant with the social workers to talk over the project and set up meetings with certain people who can help give insight. So all in all it’s been a real sociable and productive few days!
Also yesterday one of my good friends gave birth and today I went to visit. And I feel very blessed because my friend named the baby with my name. I cried a bit when she told me and I held the baby for a while. It is such a blessing to see this baby and family together! Am really looking forward to seeing this little girl grow and to see my friend who is so happy to be a mom now. It made me realize again how beautiful life is.
40? You are looking fantastic. Hope today is all about you 
maybe also putting positive affirmations around reminding yourself that your work is worthy and wonderful. We tend to be our own worst critics
…so happy to hear that 
There’s some movies I’ve been thinking about watching with my daughter too. My advice is rewatch before bc there might be an unexpected scene you forgot about (just happened to me with something I “remembered” being okay 
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Looks to me like you’d miss out on more drinking in a place like that, since alcohol fogs our perception of the natural beauty around us(at least for me it did). You probably got more out of it than anyone else there 
