Seriously!!? Where is it that you live and why can’t these people give you help / care / treatment that you need / deserve?
I am so sorry Megan. This is beyond frustrating to read and I’m sure not a picnic to experience.
I wonder what your therapist would have to say about this
Please don’t loose hope. I know you’ve hit a lot of road blocks but there has to be decent caring humans willing to help . I do hope you find someone who listens and helps 
I see my therapist Thursday i don’t think she’ll be very happy about it. this is literally the only crisis center in my town. initially I was supposed to be put in one an hour away but I get in the car and then got dropped off here and they said they were expecting me so I don’t know what happened there.
Thursday is a ways off. How are you doing? I’m sorry that you are being sent home with no help or support. We are here if you need us.
I wonder what happened with that mix up. Wonder if your therapist could call up the other place and have you set up there? May be easier to get in if a direct call from her?
Stay positive my friend. You are loved and I’m wishing you positivity and love. Stay safe
Day 995
Todays been a bit rough. Just emotionally and mentally im in a funk. I took 10 min to myself just now to try and turn this day around. Appt this afternoon for my son and then home to clean. Hope everyone is doing well today!
in this moment, I’m just full of anger. I’m extremely discouraged and disappointed. I don’t see myself improving but i don’t see myself hurting myself either. most of the anger i have towards myself that makes me want to self harm has been directed to the mental health system now.
I totally understand and get the anger…glad you are correctly aiming it at the messed up mental health system and not inwards.
I’m keeping hope alive for you. Hoping things get better and you find the help that you need and deserve 
thank you. I’ll try to check in more often you guys have been a great source of support during all of this
Man addiction can be a mind twist. When i 1st quit nicotine i craved and vraved and got dizzy and blured vision… now if i have a thought about nicotine its as easy as letting go of the thought. 6months ago i wouldnt believe anyone telling me that
Rock n roll moonwoman. Stay tough 
I definitely feel this one. Life can seem a bit dull sometimes after the ups and downs can’t it?
When I feel like this I try to focus on the downs and I quickly decide I quite like not feeling so volatile!
Day 11. Closing in on two weeks. I have no social plans at all this week because we’re now into prime temptation phase. Hitting the gym, sleeping well, feeling great. That’s always the moment I want to celebrate by poisoning myself 
Seeing friends on Saturday night but thankfully it requires a designated driver so that’s me 
I no longer obsess about the far future and possible temptation. I take it a day at a time and at maximum form a plan a week ahead for situations where there will be alcohol I can’t avoid seeing/ being around. I find deciding firmly in advance that I will not drink, but specifically what I will do NOT to drink is a helpful process.
Example - buy something AF that I like in advance so it’s there ready and I don’t have to risk going near a shop which sells alcohol in a period of high temptation.
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Participating in a workshop today.
Nice results.
And on I go - sober.
Feeling stable, feeling healed.
Listened Dr Julie Smith a lot and made some of her practices. Also during daily life.
Love you guys
Hi Friends
Day 251. Great AA Meeting this morning. Great turn out. Book study on Step 2. Great shares.
I have tasks to complete today. All quiet and calm in my household. I feel so good and happy on my sober journey.
Have a great SOBER day everyone.
Checking in day 308 AF 
Thank you . Its crazy how fast things are going. 9 months at work, almost 5 months with heather. And none of it would be happening without being sober. Very grateful for the one year to be real this time, not lying and sniffing welbutrin or sneaking drugs
Dear TS community, I’m closing soon my 2nd day of being sober, soon putting my sober head on a pillow. I wasn’t enjoying life much as there were just too many relapses and I stopped believing in myself. Fortunately my mindset has changed, I needed a key to keep it up with days over and over of being sober - started to read Allen Carr on alcohol addiction, so got to understand the whole point about illusion,alcohol vs withdrawal trap and yet again a good reminder what’s the ‘value add’ of drinking which is right the opposite of course. So, this was my day - and it feels different this time. Less willpower-ed and at the same time feeling stronger, calm and convinced I’ll make it in the long run. Plan is to stabilize my body in first days, reading Allen and slowly but inevitably start running, exercising. Have a pleasant day, evening everyone
@climbin so grateful to hear that the meds are helping .
Great plan and I’m excited for you.
@Butterflymoonwoman I’m sorry that today’s been rough. How are you feeling now? Were you able to connect with the financial person you’ve been playing phone tag with?
@SadMemeQueen yes please do keep checking in and keep us posted . Wishing you so much comfort 
@Noshame funny how our thinking changes. I honestly never thought I could live without my addictions. Literally thought that I would fall apart without them. Funny how I’ve actually started living and gaining health in sobriety. Keep building your arsenal and stacking up the days 
@james83 great work on 11 days and for realizing this is a tricky and slippery time. Love that you are doing things to keep yourself busy and having alternatives for when the urges hit. We got your back… keep connected
@Bunto great to see you back friend and love that you have a new mindset. Great plan and know that a good support system in place is also helpful. You are not alone.
Checking in on Monday evening
Not a great day but I expected the fatigue and symptoms getting worse with all the socializing of last week. Grateful that I’m able to rest and relax
The day has been dreary but temps have been decent. I am loving that we are experiencing so much time with Fall weather.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day/ evening. Sending you all so much love
Checking in - Kind of a meh day at work, but had a good work out session which has totally boosted my mood.
Having a quiet night in with my cat.
You folks rock! Wishing everyone peace and love
Would love to do that someday
No urges today. If only that could be true every day!