Happy Monday!
A rainy 60 degree day here in Chicagoland. I got to spend time with my granddaughter yesterday. I was and to be in the moment and not drunk. It was priceless and I want her to have positive memories of me when she grows up.
Looking forward to hetting things on my list taken care of and very positive today. Its 5 so time to hit the gym and get the day going.
MAKE it an awesome day my friends!!
Day 248
Good morning. Up and going for my 7 am driving shift. Hopefully a relaxing morning as Iām NEW and I hate being new 
So happy to be back at work, volunteer or paid!
Enjoy your day 
Hey all, checking in on day 1604. I hope everybody has a good one!
Checking in day 30 
It is going to be a great week. Not a big fan of the time change but hope in a few days it will feel normal again. Traveling some this week, always adds a bit of a challenge. ODAAT. I hope everyone has a great week. 
Well put! I always thought that if I was clean of my vices then life would be perfect. So not true. Itās just that now Iām getting to enjoy the good and the bad without numbing myself or glossing over all my emotions. Way to go with your 6 years 
that is incredible work 
@Mischa84 so happy to read your post. Sound uplifted and excited today. Glad you got out for your run before starting your day and you will get some ME time soon.
Omg! Iām sorry Claudia. Thatās awful 
. Iāve never had it myself but can imagine how horrible it must be. Hopefully you are able to get through the treatment quickly and those fuckers die off soon.
@TeaCosy oh sorry to hear about your loss and it totally makes sense to hold back the tears. Itās fear of having too many emotions thatās keeping you from expressing what you are going through now. Are you able to talk with someone IRL? Maybe have a safe space where you are cared for if you become overwhelmed with emotions. I do think it would be good for you to release as it can cause harm to hold it in. Sending love and comfort your way.
Interesting way to put it and no I am not willing to pay that never ending bill. With the winter months and your 1year milestone approaching, it makes sense that your mind is working hard to romanticize drinking. Way to see the lies and remember how you were on day one and how many day ones it took to get this to stick. I have to remember the last part to remind myself that one drink or binge doesnāt mean I can just hop back on the sober train. I may be lost for a while again and may not find my way back. Keep up the great work TF. Love seeing you thriving 
congratulations on your 1 month no THC 
@rookie congratulations on your 1 month milestone hope your travel goes smoothly for you
@TrustyBird thinking of you Emilie. Hope you are doing well and getting plenty of time to rest and enjoy those cheese fries once the procedure is over 
Checking in on Monday morning
I too feel our of sorts. Think I managed some sleep but not certain. A headache is developing and my nose wonāt stop running.
Not much planned for today so that is a blessing. A cool rainy day here and that helps me with my cozy plans.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day. Sending you all so much love
Checking in day 231.
Have a great week everyone
Checking on on day
544 no alcohol
52 no form of marijuanna
6months no form of nicotine
I needa check in more
Excellent numbers
Today Iām celebrating being 7 months sober! Itās been hard but am doing what I can to take care of myself. Some days still suck but Iām really proud of what Iāve accomplished so far.
Morning checking in well it has been going better. I feel the last few days have been a mix of emotions but good. I have finally found a med that is helping me feel stable. My thinking is clear and some of them make you good to the bathroom. Ugh thank you this one is not doing that. Lol one wake up left. Laundry and go throw boxes for clothes so much going throw my head lol i just need to stop thinking about it do what needs to be done. And if i forget something then i can buy it there.
My dad im worried about him. But my sister is here. My dog she is amazing hope she will be ok.
What am i going to do to pass time ? Lol hope they have some where that has acl so i can play. Guess they have no salmon fishing there. Dang it. Guess i could catch fish lol. Well i wish everyone a amazing day.(Odaat)
Thatās great Laner! Congratz!
Morning Check in. Itās Monday, got off to a good start, hit the gym for the first time since October 8th, took my little ones to school with the wife, and now iām at work. Getting to the gym is the definition of self love for me, along with my bible reading and therapy session on wednesday. Hoping to keep the game in the closet this week to get proper rest and more time with the family. Balance, self compassion, and selfless behavior around the house while prioritizing my wifeās needs. We are getting there, ODAAT.
Day 355. Not much to say i suppose. Just hey and much love
Way to go!!! 7 months
Itās silly really. Iāve wanted for years my life to be more balanced and now when sobriety gives that, small part of me misses the craziness.
I am sure this blah feeling is just a phase that will pass.
So far I have written down things I enjoyed doing in the past and will try them to see if I still like them. I also want to write down hobbies and such that Iām interested but have not tried before.
Iām looking forward hearing your plans.
Day 765 of freedom 
Stay strong fam!
One year soon Mike! Look at you rocking that! 
Day 499 , worked 7-5. Work was ok. Wow. Day 500 tomoro
All good
Have a fab evening everyone
2y 8m 2d no self harm
for Anyone who didnāt see my last few posts,
Thursday i go to therapy and my therapist tells me I need inpatient. I was 80% sure i was gonna harm myself and I said that. i got evaluated and they told me thatās not enough for inpatient. so that was upsetting because I expected help.
i felt like I was gonna do something so I went to the ER the next day. i waited 15 Hrs to speak to someone, and then it took another 7 hours to be placed inpatient. well Iāve been here a day and a half and they tell me Iām going home. they havenāt even changed my meds or anything. they said and i quote āyouāve had these feelings for a long time, they didnāt develop overnight so thereās not much we can doā.
so conclusion. Iām never asking for help again
Seriously!!? Where is it that you live and why canāt these people give you help / care / treatment that you need / deserve?
I am so sorry Megan. This is beyond frustrating to read and Iām sure not a picnic to experience.
I wonder what your therapist would have to say about this
Please donāt loose hope. I know youāve hit a lot of road blocks but there has to be decent caring humans willing to help . I do hope you find someone who listens and helps