Another hard day. But still here. One day at a time guys. š«¶š¼š«
Day 1115 AF
Sup, fam.
Didnāt get much sleep last night. The little man woke up around 4 a.m. and wanted a drink of water. I noticed he was breathing hard, and he asked if I could hug him. He said he had a scary dream. Took him a while to fall asleep. Anyway, after we woke up, he told us all about his dream. He said there was a black cat with blood that climbed on the bed and took away his plushy. He didnāt seem to be frightened in the morning. Hopefully, there will be no more scary dreams for the little man.
Didnāt do much today. Work. Watched a show. Iām still dealing with a cold. Nothing crazy, though. I think Iām at the tail end of it.
I hope all is well with everyone. Goodnite. Take care. ODAAT
Iām happy when Iām home alone for a few days.
My grown-up children are here almost every day, my boyfriend is here at the weekend and I have a pretty small apartment. I love them all very much, but itās also good just to be alone. I can enjoy that much better without alcohol.
Of course, the thought of buying alcohol comes up. Several times a day.
I put up with it, practise HALT. One day at a time.
Day 9.
Sending and wishing you lots of luck and serendipity and happenstance that things get better @Butterflymoonwoman . So sorry itās hard. But love costs nothing and you seem to have that in abundance
Congratulations with the months milestone @BillsMafia13 Keep moving
Glad you are here @s_unrelax to check in
Thatās the spirit @Butterflymoonwoman Dana, you have built such a nice family life around you. You can deal with this a healthy way too powerwoman
Day 2239
Iām no longer a moderator. After a few months of doubts I decided to quit. It felt as a relief so it was a good choice.
It gave me a glance behind the scenes and I learned a lot. But at the end it cost me a lot of energy as well so I had to let go. The language barrier was bigger then I thought it was for me.
Today? Getting my eyes checked for new glasses and work.
Have a good day ore night TS people and letās do so sober. Recovery needs work, but o boy what a reward to be sober!
Thanks for your service
I personally appreciate you and all your words of wisdom. I do hope you stay around even though no longer moderating.
@SoberWalker Oh I feel for you! I remember how I felt the first time I found lice on my daughter It was a nightmare trying to eradicate them between 2+ households(as it was contracted somewhere on her fatherās side) I donāt think I ever actually had it, but it sure felt like I did! I hope they stay a thing of the past for you
Ew Iām just like you, that is seriously the worst! I have a gas inspection next week to arrive anywhere from 8am-4pm. Wtf kind of window it that?! Annoying is what it is. Iāll have to nap on the couch to not miss their knock if itās on the earlier side
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Extra late for me. I could not fall asleep last night, got maybe 3/4 hours so I was tired. I tried taking a long nap to make up for it, but I couldnāt fall asleep again! Later, I developed an earache for the first time in forever Luckily I had extra drops from when my daughter had one earlier this year. They helpedā¦but only when I was laying down. So I spent most of the day resting, which is why Iām still up at 2:30am. But shouldnāt my body think itās 3:30?! Wtf is going on On the bright side, thereās no school tomorrow for some reason. Idk why, but Idc I love waking up without and alarm. Hoping to refuel with enough uninterrupted sleep Goodnight from here, Good morning to you there. Enjoy it wherever you are š©·
I attended a session last night of RTT/Hypnotherapy (Rapid transformational therapy). It was for self worth reprogramming, and it was pretty good. I saw it as a boost to mental health really. But saying that, it was a good chance to revisit some scenes in my life and rewrite the learning. Not sure I was hypnotised per se, but apparently hypnosis is just being suggestible.
Spin and weightlifting this morning. Then have lots of kitchen bits to do and some chores around the home.
Thank you Lam, Iām going nowhere
This place is my AA so when I should leave I would have to find a replacement for it.
Iām sober because Iām here a lot.
I hope so too. Itās a lot of work to comb trough my long hair everydag But no lice sinds 3 days
Day 500
Not sleeping v well and work is a bit rubbish. Alot of financial pressures jnto the future so its a case of seeing where thst rubbish all lands
Have a great day folks
Nice numbers though
Congratulations and hope the rubbish lands somewhere else
Day
9 AF
1 weed free
Iām really struggling, I donāt seem to have motivation to stay sober. 9 days ago I drank few pints and recently smoked some weed. Iām a mess.
339 days
Good day. Walked the dogs, took the kids to the gym. After they went home I stayed on for some hard sparring rounds, bit banged up but its all good.
@Timetochange Wow! Congrats to 500 days. Living your life sober even with all the rubish in it is a truly heroic effort. Hope the rubish lessens
@Tragicfarinelli You have to be a very brave person to be willing to dive into your own āmessy memoriesā in order to heal. Enjoy your exercise
@Just_Laura Get well soon!
@SoberWalker Thank you for service to us all here, and many thanks for this fabulous picture. Good luck with your new glasses.
@Joyce19 Enjoy your āmeā-time. I donāt get much of it either and savor it when I do. Youāve got some nice days stacked up
@MrMoustache Sorry to hear you are going through such a hard time David. Maybe surrounding yourself with sobriety related material will help a bit: books, podcasts, tv shows, this place here. I also would strongly suggest to invest into self care and attend a meeting of any programm daily, in-person or online. Wishing you the best. Keep us posted and donāt give up.
@GOKU2019 Glad to hear your cold is on its way out
@s_unrelax Good to see you checking-in.
@Butterflymoonwoman So sorry to hear youāve gotten one more bill on your plate. This financial stuff is a āgreatā source for anxiety and worries.
I think itās a great achievement that you are aware of your thoughts about sex work, and I am really glad you are open about this situation being triggering. As you already said these thoughts will pass, but I find it easier to see them pass by when I share.
@Philipwithonel Nice to hear you have had a day full of meaning and great connections.
349 sugar
213 UPF
87 gluten
87 dairy
23 mindful eating
Still having this cold. My daughter is in the ācoughing phaseā. Me Iām more in the snot camp
Itās gotten colder these last few days. The sun is definitely on its way to hibernate through the winter.
I wonāt be doing much today. There are a few appointments I need to cancel due to being sick. And there is this online meeting for a games scholarship I want to apply for this afternoon. I am not thrilled to attend it in my condition, but it is the only one available, so Iāll try to concentrate.
Other than that: tv, books, games, naps, lots of tea, many blankets.
Todayās picture is a graffiti goddess I discoverd in November two years ago.
Peace and love for life always
Thank for your kind words. Itās been tough, but I know I can beat this. Gotta just get up ready for a battle again!
Thatās a nice one!!