216 days sober
Had a busy day here and slightly frustrated because we finally have an atm here but my card was immediately sucked in and then I was electrocuted when I touched the machine! I went and told the bank my card was eaten by the machine and was told I need to wait 5 weeks before it is emptied to get it back so am in a bit of a pickle trying to figure out what to do. And how to get money out until my card is replaced (would take 8 weeks to get it sent to me by mail…and the mail is super shady here) or the 5 week wait to get the card from the machine. But means either way I am cut off from access to my bank account. I know my friend will lend me money to get me by till my card probably is fixed but I’m finding it difficult to ask for her help…it’s a hard thing for me to do. Especially with money. I just need to get over it and accept the help.
And this issue has sorta consumed me today trying to talk to banks and figure out a solution. So am a bit frustrated and annoyed by it. Sorry that was a rant!
@phillipwithonel Glad to see you stacking up some good non addiction riddled days. Love the truck and the name! Congrats!
@mno What a beautiful picture 
Happy 59th birthday Menmo! 
Hope you have a wonderful time with your friends… its your day! Have the most fabulous time
Wishing you luck in navigating through this – it is not easy but it does get easier. A gentle reminder to yourself that drinking and getting high have absolutely NOTHING to offer. You don’t want to repeat these horrible days – ODAAT! 
@bunto Way to go friend – 3 days is impressive. Alcoholism is a progressive disease and your withdrawals will only continue to get worse if you keep going back to drinking. The body can only take so much and we are literally filling it with poison when we relapse. Hang in there – practice self care and work your tools – this shit doesn’t last and it does get easier!
@frank68 Way to go friend – 30 days completed with no caffeine. Impressive work!
@alisa Thank you for that announcement. A much needed message at this time 
@laner OH WOW – that is some shitty luck and 5 weeks??? 
damn that is a long wait for them to empty out the machine. Sorry friend. Interesting that they can’t find a way to let you have access to your $$. Glad you have some good friends to lean on. Hope the 5 weeks go by super quick. Don’t apologize for the rant – I’d be fuming too and its good to let it out rather than sit and stew with it.
Checking in Wednesday morning
Sleep still an issue and so is the rest of my body but gonna make the best of today. The sun has decided to come out even though it was supposed to be a rainy and cloudy day. Woke up to a sinking feeling as did many this morning. I am slightly in shock. Just don’t see how or why but here we are.
I have to dig deep for my peace and serenity. Be safe and take care of yourselves!
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day! Sending you all so much love
Day 357, up and at work. Just looking forward to getting home. Part for my other wheel should be here so might fix that, and also kinda want to go for a ride and test the new cammera. Made some delicious pork chops with apples and potatoes and stuffing last night so looking forward to some of that for dinner as well. My new youtube channel and tiktok are both @wheeliemike. If anyone wants to give them a subcribe and maybe check out my videos once they post that would be awesome. I also would love feedback when i do. Much love everyone have a beautiful sober day
@Mno Happy Birthday friend 
I hope you had the most wonderful day
I’m dead serious when I say I’d have a bedpan if that were my case 
And that’s insane about the ATM! I know too well how frustrating out of your control financial issues are 
It is hard to ask for help, but anyone can see this was not your fault and that’s a long time to go without money. I think any friend who could, would help in this situation
Thank you, thank you. It feels good to be on this side of things.
Day 501. Busy day.
But all good.
Working late and then on my course…
I like the autumnal winter months:)
Day 682
I should probably check in here more regularly. I’m in the background reading (and posting cat pictures obviously 
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Feeling a bit overwhelmed these days, like everything is on top of me. Taking the next 2 days off work and I’ll spend some time doing my college work (I work full time and study part time on top of that).
I’m not doing anything constructive to get through how I’m feeling (apart from running, running is my saviour) , so I think I should work on that, and get back to journalling.
I have been tempted to use a bucket in the winter😂 but haven’t gone that far yet! Yeah I wrote my closest friend and asked if I can stop by tomorrow to talk to her about the issue with my card. It’s hard to ask for help but seems more difficult when it’s about finances.
Hope you are having a good day!
Awe what a bewutiful picture of u and ur mom! Have a wonderful birthday my dear friend
Yes 5 weeks is a long time! The ATM is new and the truck to fill it and empty cards only comes one time a month. It came last week so ends up being a 5 week wait. I the funny thing is it runs out of money so sits empty about 2 weeks out of the month… a quirk of living here.
The problem is this is my American bank card…I usually take cash out and then put it into a local account when that gets low. But you can’t do any online transfer into the local banks here. So it leaves me a bit of limbo till it’s replaced or I get it from the machine. The bank did offer to give me a ‘loan’ if I provide them with a sheep which I found highly amusing.
Hope you have a good day. Sorry your sleep was bad but hope the unexpected sunny day is a blessing and gets your mood up!
Congratulations on day 3!!
Day 997
Morning TS! I had a really good sleep last night and feel fairly rested today. My son has an appt today at 1pm so that is the main goal for the day. Then some cleaning needs to be done. Thats really about it for the day. Im feeling pretty good mentally, not like I have been the last little while. So grateful for that. Hope everyone has a fantastic day!!
Thank you, my friend! I hope your sleep will get better.
@mxelle thank you 
your reply prompted me to buy some lemon and ginger tea, I will give it a try.
I do love ginger ale too so I’ll get some of that next time I go to the big supermarket that sells it.
@Joyce19 congrats on your week+
@SoberWalker yay for foot freedom 
and wow, I love London Grammar! How were they live? 
arrgggh about the lice! I hope you are free of them now 
enjoy the show tonight 
@acromouse I hope you’re feeling better 🩵
@Thirdmonkey congrats on 9+ months caffeine-free
@Kitster welcome to the checking-in thread
@4649Tobeme-now welcome back congrats on 5+ days
@Refreshedperspective I hope the date went well
@Dessy welcome back 
congrats on 5 days
@james83 congrats on double digits
@BrOKenWolf lovely photos belated congrats on 3 years 
@Mno happy birthday! 
@One4theroad haven’t seen your post but belated congrats on 6 years
@Tragicfarinelli belated congrats on 30 days no THC
@Lighter I hope your first shift went well 
@Rookie belated congrats on 30 days
@JazzyS feel better soon 🩵
@Noshame belated congrats on 6 months no nicotine
@Laner belated congrats on 7 months I’m sorry about the machine stealing your card, that’s a ridiculous amount of time to wait! I would have thought they would need to refill it with money more often that that! I know things are very different where you’re living, but here in the UK, if you go to an actual bank of the conpany you bank with, and you prove your ID, they will give you a certain amount in cash there and then.
@Bunto welcome back congrats on 3 days
@BillsMafia13 belated congrats on 60 days
@s_unrelax welcome back congrats on 3 days
@Timetochange congrats on 500+ days
@Chevy55 congrats on 10 months
@Thumper1213 welcome back
@Collins that’s incredible! did you study for the tests?
@Frank68 congrats on 30 days caffeine-free
1548 days no alcohol.
1013 days no cocaine.
27 days no vape.
0 days no binge-eating.
So I made it to 40 days for no crisps or binge-eating, my second longest streak ever, but Saturday night I couldn’t sleep and the voice got in my head that I needed crisps to watch the final of a program I’ve been watching, and without much conscious thought at all, off I went to the shop. I didn’t enjoy them, yet I did the same thing last night for the same reason. Time to start standing up against the voice.
I’ve had constant nausea since I first started reducing the dose of the first medication on 26th September, and a migraine on the whole right-hand side of my head since last Thursday, with neck pain on that side too. Can’t shift it. It’s making me even more useless than usual (if that’s even possible!).
I had therapy Monday, it went okay. Spoke a little bit about the abuse. I had seen photos from 11 years ago, some with my first abuser in, the night before, and had woken up sweating but couldn’t remember the nightmare.
I didn’t realise I hadn’t taken my morning meds Monday until 13:30 (I usually take them between 1-2am), so that explained why I hadn’t stopped sweating up until 30mins after I’d taken them.
I am in the very initial stages of trying to purchase a house. I have factors working against me but I can only hope. Rent prices are insane in the whole city I live in, so when my tenancy ends/renews on 6th June next year, I’m anxious I won’t be able to afford the rent increase, so it’s worth a try. The affordability assessor has gone silent on me though and hasn’t responded to my emails from Monday afternoon. I’m being patient and have been constantly researching related stuff, over and over again so I’ve stopped now and kinda lost hope.
Today was my walk with the Safe Soulmates volunteer, so l saw and fed some water birds again, and did 8K steps. I felt painfully guilty when some geese appeared after I’d already thrown the last of the food in though. 
Will hope to see them net week.
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Sweetie as I read the “Continued Adventures of Laner”. I feel so much love for you . First I want to give humor. I believe your community to be small enough that if you do borrow money from someone they know you and where you live. Mountain snowed in so you probably won’t run off without paying them back anytime soon. Maybe promise a sheep for collateral. Second suggestion. A bucket. Yep peeing in the night No way would I be going outside in the cold.
With my dumb humor aside. I am sorry about the anxiety. I wish I could remove it all. Lack of sleep is a bitch too. I think you are doing all you can to overcome the tough stuff. Please know I care and keep us posted.
London Grammar was fun to be with but the light show was far too bright so you could hardley see them on stage 
But her voice is massive and if they would adjust the light a bit and interact more with the fans it would be a perfect show 
Your response has me laughing. This group has showed me how much weird stuff and ways of living I’m used to now.
I have so many buckets in the kitchen full of water I’m too afraid I’ll pee in the wrong one at night if I get a pee bucket🤦♀️
And yes I think I won’t have a problem to borrow money until my card is back. Sheep as collateral is a solid idea! I just loved that the bank employee suggested this to me.
Thanks for the humor and more importantly for the encouragement! I really do appreciate how kind everyone here has been.