@Vanessa8 Well done on 7 months I know youāll make it thru New Yearās and beyond! Just keep working it
@james83 Way to go on 2 weeks! Those days are adding up fast
That was me with my last bf. I couldnāt even be around him otherwise. These types of relationships are difficult to understand if youāve never been there. I know first hand how much easier it gets sober. Learning how to react and respond with a level head makes a huge difference. Iām glad thereās more good times than bad
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Typical day. We had our first ever āBrazilian nightā at work, as the new chefās wifeās from there. Definitely something different, but enjoyed all around. My daughter seemed a bit off, but said sheās fine. Once I put her to bed, she was coughing alot. Hope itās as mild as mine was if she is sick Iād better wind down and rest myself. Have a great start to your weekend everyone
Good morning, day dear fellows, another sober night passed and so 5th day of being clean
Iām glad itās Friday and weekend starts soon, itās been a quite stressful work week and on top of that body was recovering from withdrawal,another stress-adder.
Anyways, looking forward to this day also as Iām meeting with a friend of mine. Have a great day folks
Just yesterday I felt grateful I can brush my teeth without the fear of gagging myself into vomiting. It happened so often towards the end I stopped brushing my tongue altogether! Little things like this really are special to people like us
Good morning
A short story. I follow this girl on FB sheās battling away for the last 100 days against alcohol. She posts maybe once a day and has been doing well, showing commitment made it through some tricky patches and we commented back and forth about sober Xmas coming up. For the last 2 or 3 posts I could see a very minor shift, miniscule tell tale signs and I saw it coming. She slipped yesterday
Iāll be selfish and take something myself from the situation. I saw it a mile away, it was 2 very miniscule tells that gave it away from me and even looking back over her posts Iām amazed that I saw it coming but I did.
2 things, Iāve been in this game a while myself and Iām taking positives personally that I saw it coming and that I hope, when the time comes Iāll see my own beast sneaking up on me.
Also it can sneak up very quickly and grab you unless you keep your guard up, so letās be careful out there.
Iāll try discuss the above with my FB friend when thee time is right but I fear it could be a few days before she popās up on the timeline.
Stay safe coming into this weekend
My boys are having a vaccinations today. Terrible. Last time they had some was 2 years ago so they were still not so much aware of things around babies. Now they are big smart boys and I feel so bad for the one who gonna be vaccinated as second. I donāt know which one should I chose to be a first Maybe we will be lucky and 2 nurses will be there so they will make it same time. You see how this shit stressing me out? And then my husband who is in general passively against vaccinations. I have mixed feelings myself but I trust they are smarter than me and know what they do. But he gonna talk and talk and talk while driving us there, my stress lvl will jump to the roof. And then all the cryingā¦ Ugh. See what kind of person I am? Iām already stressing about the stress I will have later Even I see itās quite ridiculous. Calm down Mischa. It will be fine, itās just vaccinations. Not like a surgery of something for fucks sake.
I also have appt with my Dr today. I want to get checked cause this cough is with me 3 or 4 weeks already. Last night was actually better but I know this trick my body do to me, every time. Right before the dr visit suddenly Iām all fine, all symptoms gone. So I donāt complain much when Iām there. But then, a little bit after Iām out it starts again. Itās like āha ha ha, we were just hiding! We are still here! Guys, the bad doctor is gone, we can party again!ā.
You not gonna trick me this time you little viruses, bacterias pieces of shit! I know youāre still with me.
Most likely they wonāt even feel it!
I just googled it and there were all kinds of ideas that just seem to draw their attention more to the fact that they were getting a shot and that it might be a ābig dealā.
Turn their heads where they donāt see the needle, and if you want, you could ask them if they wanted to bite the bottom of their lip, put their teeth on the bottom of their bottom lip. This is my own idea and not something I got off of the pediatric Internet info about shots.
Big hugs to your boys that the whole thing is not eventful.
Also @Mischa84 Iām so sorry about your friend.
Good luck to you too at your appointment. It will be important to the doctor whether or not youāre getting short of breath when youāre running.
Had a good talk at the job interview. There seemed to be a good connection, and I think Iād like it there. But will have to wait till next week to hear what they thought of me. I hate that sort of insecurity. But who doesnāt.
Anyway, Iām off today. Working the weekend. Not sure what Iāll do today yet but I am sure Iāll make today as good a day as possible, which I expect from all of you of course. Sober and clean or nothing would come of it. Which is a truth like a cow, to use a Dutch expression I like. Hence the pic from a few days ago. Love.
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Went to the cinema to see āThe Outrunā. Itās a movie about recovery and it takes place in Orkney, Scotland. It is a lovely movie, not a sad one. Really recommend it!
Today? A chill day and tonight goldsmithclass. Working at a ring with a big stone in it. Hope I wonāt brake it when setting it
Have a good day ore night all
Take big date. Remove the pit. Insert 2-3 halfs of wallnut inside. Whoalia you have yourself a healthiest natural Snicker Bar or whatever candy bar you name it - it tastes 1000 times better and has totally 0 % additives in it - all 100% natural candy bar! Soft outside, crunshy inside. Amazingā¦
Still sick, but definitively getting better. Slept better, woke up with more energy. Still tired though. Had a great RD meeting last night.
Going to chill today. Iāve been doodling a bit the last few days. Mostly somewhat in connection with my work, but with no aim. This is the upside of being ill. My mind takes much more to wandering and there is the space for new inspirations. As long as I donāt try to force the direction or the outcome.
Todayās picture is an interesting mural decoration I found in Esens, a small town near the North Sea coast a few years ago.
Iām finally starting to come through this cold I think .
My last day of articulated training on equipment is today. Iāve enjoyed it and look forward to snow clearing season (err, I think, lol).
After today I have a month off work, not returning till Dec 10ā¦ I have some physio, sauna and perhaps massage bookings and a focus to get my winter program in the gym nailed down and begun. Iām much looking forward to it. Some stretching, perhaps yogaā¦ lots of self care to drive me to my one year sober marker.
Best wishes for a smooth and healthy weekend to you all.
@Climbin grateful to see that you have arrived safely. Hopefully the humidity wonāt last for long. Sorry to hear about the hotelā¦are you able to switch up (may be easier to find a nicer one now that you are there in person) @JonasE sorry friend. We spend so much time at work and really need that environment to be welcoming and enjoyable. Wishing you luck as you sort through this @GOKU2019 hope the PT helps. I have not dealt with VMO pain. Sounds painful and uncomfortable. @Bunto yeah!!! 5 days is great and itās awesome you are heading into the weekend feeling good and clear headed. Stay vigilant and keep pushing forward
So true and so scary and that is why we must always keep our guard up and protect our sobriety
Damn I hate that so muchā¦like when you take your car in to get looked at and it refuses to make that sound. Iām sorry you are still not feeling well. Sending healing vibes. Hope it all went smoothly with the vaccinations @mno glad the interview talk went well. Hope you hear back soon. The waiting can cause anxiety. Hopefully you can continue your adventures and keep your mind off of it @SoberWalker that you donāt break the ring in the process. I too would love to see the finished product @acromouse 3 months gluten and dairy free is remarkable. @wahtisnormal how are you doing Zoe?
Happy Friday yāall
Not much to report. Not sleeping and feeling a bit anxious like Iāve forgotten something . Donāt think I have but canāt shake the feeling.
Gonna get some more rest. Not ready to be properly up yet
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free dayā¦ sending you all so much love
@JazzyS - yeah looking forward to the weekend and thank you Regarding your feeling you forgot something - what did you do this time last year ? Maybe you would want to repeat it this time around
1550 days no alcohol.
1015 days no cocaine.
29 days no vape.
2 days no binge-eating.
I forgot to take my morning meds at 2am when I fed the cats, so I ended up sleeping for longer than usual. Then I took them so found it a challenge to stay awake. Iām all out of sync.
The bad migraine, nausea, and neck pain are back with a vengeance I really couldnāt face the trains like this. So I emailed the psychiatrist to ask if we could do todayās session online, and he replied that it was fine and heāll send a link later. Relief.
So today Iāll be laying in the dark with my eyes closed, with meditations on a low volume, until therapy at 1pm. Then Iāll see how Iām feeling after that.
I know youāll make it thru New Yearās and beyond! Just keep working it 
Maybe we will be lucky and 2 nurses will be there so they will make it same time. You see how this shit stressing me out? And then my husband who is in general passively against vaccinations. I have mixed feelings myself but I trust they are smarter than me and know what they do. But he gonna talk and talk and talk while driving us there, my stress lvl will jump to the roof. And then all the cryingā¦ Ugh. See what kind of person I am? Iām already stressing about the stress I will have later 
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. Donāt think I have but canāt shake the feeling.
Regarding your feeling you forgot something - what did you do this time last year ? Maybe you would want to repeat it this time around
thank you.
but congrats on double digits 
I really couldnāt face the trains like this. So I emailed the psychiatrist to ask if we could do todayās session online, and he replied that it was fine and heāll send a link later. Relief.