Day 215 no alcohol
Day 4 no vaping
Day 62 running at least a mile a day
Hit 7 months sober today!
Yesterday was exhausting, I only got 3 hours of sleep and was up for almost 24 hours. Ran 5 miles and worked both jobs. I at least slept straight through last night but still only got 6 hours since I have to volunteer today this is getting frustrating because I feel like I donāt have any time to do anything else I want or need to get done like schedule appointments with my physical therapist/therapist/go to muay thai classes because Iām just going nonstop all the time so when I do have a day off Iām so exhausted I donāt have the energy to do anything.
Iām really tired still, Iām just looking forward to getting through the next 5 hours and coming home and going back to sleep. With running more lately and the significant lack of sleep, I just wanna keep stuffing my face with food, probably because my brain is like āwe need energy.ā Reached the point of not caring yesterday because I was so exhausted. So far itās feeling like today might go the same way. At least until I can go back to sleep.
One year. Im really seriously proud and grateful to be where i am right now. Im not lying im not sneaking and i practice being honest with myself about everything. Much love everyone
Iām not the only one thatās been waiting for this one Mike! Awesome work friend. Huge huge HUGE congrats. Youāve grown so much. Seriously proud of you. Awesome work. Big hugs.
Reset my clock this morning. I did not relapse of alcohol but I was still self medicating and I feel better knowing itās a fresh (and good) start today.
I am still struggling with lots of negative feelings Iām not sure how much attention I should give them and whatās done is done and I must go forward.
My goal today is to eat and be kind to myself. Iāve noticed I am the only one who has not forgiven myself for my actions.
I love seeing people reaching different milestones. It doesnāt matter if itās the first days, two weeks, a month or a year, it is worth celebrating.
Day 53
Itās been a good week so far even though there has been undertone of anxiety and restlesness. Iāve picked up my journal to write down things I worry and gratitude journal to change focus. Last year I journaled frequently and it was helpful. I want to build that habit again.
Iām excited about this weekend. I see a friend on saturday, we have a diy project. I think it will be a blast.
Checking in. Itās been a week or so. Not much going on. Not much to say. Iām just going through the motions. I know somethingās not right, but i canāt put my finger on it. Not sure what to do. I just feel blah. I donāt have much interest in anything. Im still sober, so thatās something.
Seeing some great sobriety streaks today! Just know that you all are inspiring and encourage the rest of us to keep this thing going. Thanks for ypur dedication
this is getting frustrating because I feel like I donāt have any time to do anything else I want or need to get done like schedule appointments with my physical therapist/therapist/go to muay thai classes because Iām just going nonstop all the time so when I do have a day off Iām so exhausted I donāt have the energy to do anything.
Im really proud of you!!!
We are our own harshest judges!
