everything is crazy overwhelming and difficult. since I’ve been away from home I’ve realized how miserable I was. I’ve made some friends here and I feel so supported but being in a safe place has resulted in my brain being flooded with things I never felt safe enough to process at home. I also got diagnosed with PTSD
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30 days ! Feels good to be back here.
No sooner had my counter ticked over than my brain started craving alcohol. Must be a subconscious trigger from every other time in my life that I did “dry January” or “sober October” and couldn’t wait to get stuck back in on day 31.
Realised that I was really just hungry, so instead of drinking I ate too much. Oh well, for me that’s not an issue so I’ll take it
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Proud of you for being there and for going through the program. It’s all steps forward. I’m glad that you’re getting the attention and treatments that you deserve and that you feel like you are in a safe space.
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Just checking in 
Beautiful day here. Cold and windy, so we didnt stay at the park after skating. Came home and built a gingerbread house which was so fun and messy, and I tried to get some cooking done but it felt like things didnt turn out right (my bread didnt rise properly, and my marys gone crackers were gross this time…i fuck with recipes alot so from time to time shit happens LOL). Feeling better today then Thursday and Im grateful for it. Sometimes youre just tired, have your period and need a break. Hubby made us a delicious meal and Im so grateful we’re in a place again where when I say, Im having a shit day we’re both not so stressed that we can give to each other. His instant reaction is ill get the kids, ill make us a nice supper. I am just so blessed for him and feel so blessed to be where we are in life.
Something i did today which i have not done since the recent months after her death was i just automatically went to call my sister. Miss her each day. Xo everyone.
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@mokk Great work Monica! Should be super proud of your achievements – each day sober is a day won! Great to see you checking in
@rockstar24777 Hope the tapering gets better and you start feeling like yourself soon. 
@butterflymoonwoman WHOA that is a lot of snow! Stay warm and safe.
@tailee17 Very ominous to find a board and no surfer. Grateful surfer was safe and appreciative of you rescuing his board. Rescued a dinosaur? Had to zoom in for that one LOL . Glad you are enjoying your vacation
@mrmoustache Great to see you checking in when you are struggling. How are you feeling now? I am sorry that you are dealing with the panic attacks but remind yourself that drinking / smoking will not help in any way. Waking up sober is always a blessing and a welcome gift. Keep working that recovery David Enjoy that book.
@sudsnstuff It is very important to feel connected with your therapist / psychiatrist and I’m glad you are finding someone else to that will hopefully be a better fit. Great to see you working your recovery and stacking up the days. Being honest and open is a huge step forward. Look forward to celebrating your 2 weeks tomorrow
@sadmemequeen WOW – I am so happy to see you getting the help you need and feeling safe in the recovery process Lovely to hear that you are making some friends as well. Wishing you continued healing my friend 
@james83 Funny how are minds are wired. Congratulations on your 1 month and a huge congrats to seeing hunger was the culprit to your urges. HALT does come in handy in these moments. Keep up the great work James 
@mira_d So grateful that you have a great partnership with your husband and the two of you can help each other when one is not feeling 100%, Big hugs my sweet friend. I don’t think that pain ever really goes away – just gets a little easier to deal with. Your sister is with you in your heart and your memories 
Checking in on Saturday night
703 days free of alcohol and weed
1118 day free of cigarettes
Not much to report. Feeling tired and hoping to sleep.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening - sending you all so much love
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Check-in day 9
It was a good morning and went to temple for prayer, Here it is 8.30am and waiting my mom to finish making breakfast.
Little disappointed today I don’t know why, May be I’m thinking about my past and alcohol destroyed all good gifts from god including job, health, wealth etc…
Praying to god , help me I’m unmanageable my life in front of alcohol.
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Day 1134 AF
Wud up, fam.
There’s not much going on. Same ol, same ol. I was in a funk on Thursday. I had a frustrating day at work, and the kids were bumping heads. I was trippin’ on my wife over something dumb. I didn’t say anything to her, I kept it to myself. I went for a walk to clear my mind and felt better afterward. I still feel silly about it. I know my drunken ass would’ve handled it differently. I’m glad those days are over.
Anyway, I did laundry at the laundromat this morning, went for a walk, and checked out a new public library in our neighborhood with the fam.
My mom is stopping by tomorrow to babysit the kiddos. Gonna go out and chill with the wifey.
That’s all from me.
I hope all is well with everyone. Take care. ODAAT
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Congrats on little victories and not letting your thoughts take control kudos to you!!
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Day 7 AF. Last day of the dreaded first week.
Played ball with my dog Rambo. Went for a walk with my wife. Feeling much better now.
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Congrats on your 30 days!! Keep at it
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1 week is sober is big achievement 
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Hey beautiful people 
Checking in 1 week sober
Feeling pretty good overall. Was pretty productive today and was able to tackle my laundry and organzing my apartment. Feels good to have a clean and organized safe space! Had some dark thoughts but was able to pull myself back. Motivated to keep adding weeks to my counter. Setting tools in place to not let myself cave into cravings that come up if I feel triggered. Gonna go to a lecture tomorrow on the study of Buddhism. Hoping to reconnect my soul to its spiritual self.
Wishing all strength today on their own journeys. Its not easy but its worth it
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Thank you. It was quite intense. Nearly gave in my cravings a few times.
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@zzz For English not being your language, I understand what you’ve explained completely(and also what you haven’t). In my work, I always try to inspire others with optimism. I’ve watched the whole ship go down from one bad mood, but trying to be uplifting all the time does get tiring and I’ve realized I don’t always have to be that person.
I’ve never really thought in black and white, but I’ve seen what it does to people so I’m happy that you’re beginning to see some grey(or that’s how I interpreted this at least). There are alot of unknowns that come with sobriety, but they don’t have to be as scary as some might imagine. I now see this giving up idea more as letting go. Going with the flow of what will come next rather than trying to control how it will go. It’s alot easier that way
@james83 Congrats on 30 days! Glad you got thru the craving 
Maybe that’s why they call it the danger chip in AA (at least they do around here)
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Definitely felt alot better today. So much so it made me think I was actually sick yesterday 
I really don’t know, which is crazy. I’ve gotten used to feeling slightly crappy all the time, I can’t even tell when I’m actually sick! Honestly tho, still not as bad as a hangover. How’d I do that every damn day?! I get to sleep in again! 
Hope to feel even better for my 3 days off. I really need to get stuff done around here. So. Much. Laundry! 
I’ve just decided it’s worse than dishes. Definitely. Gonna watch some of a movie until I feel done for the night. Have a happy sober Sunday everyone!
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☆ Day 2258 
Awake a 4.45 and at my feet at 5.15 after a shitty night of sleep 
So hi all!
Today? Going to the cinema to watch a movie.
Focus for today: find distraction.
Picture from “my” tree made from out a wheelchair. So I have made a picture again since a long time
Have a good day ore night all!
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Nice numbers Hakeem!! Congratulations! 
3 months is a very important milestone, at least for many of us. Well done 
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Thank you! Now if only there was a studyholics anonymous. I’m absolutely exhausted and need to sleep but the way my finals schedule is set up it seems borderline impossible.
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I can act like studyholics anonymous? 
Get to bed and get some energy to be at your best tomorrow?
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Lol thank you! If only this paper wasn’t due at midnight tomorrow 
. Gonna grind it out for a few more hours and then rest though.
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