Checking in. Dammit, my asshole “friend” is on a war path again. He keeps sending me really nasty emails where he criticize me being sober and now he also calls me with names because I’m a vegan. But this time I’m not triggered, because I can feel he’s hurting so badly, so I don’t reply him at all, I just let him rage. It’s pretty sad actually.
But despite of all that drama, today has been a pretty good day. Sun was shining and temps were around - 6 Celsius which was really nice. I took a walk and now I’m reading a book and about to make some coffee. Life feels good at the moment despite the unknown fear and anxiety.
Still have a bug I’d like it to go away now please. I’m terribly impatient.
Haven’t run since Saturday so I’m very much in my own head, can’t wait til I can get back to it. Nothing has ever kept my thoughts in check the way running has.
On the positive side, I WFH so I can still work, and get cat cuddles all day while doing so.
I hadn’t been using the journal feature on here but I have started doing so the past couple of days.
What now?! If you say so The same thing happened to me with someone who was treating me like shit. I realized how sick they were and instead of letting it get to me, just felt sorry for them. If it does start bothering you, I suggest blocking them, at least temporarily, but just know they say these things to make everyone hurt as much as they do. It is sad
Sorry to hear you had similar experiences. Yeah, I have already blocked his phone number and Signal account, but for some reason, emails are easier to tolerate. But if he keeps raging, I’m gonna block his email too. I know he’s hurting because he told me some time ago that he’s drinking and using drugs, so I understand that I’m kinda like mirror to him, he wants also to be sober but I’m afraid he can’t at the moment, so he’s pouring his emotions to me. Sad indeed.
Checking in 5 years, 70 days, 20 hours alcohol free.
The dogs have gone for their monthly groom and the house is empty without their little amazing how much space the little fluffballs fill
Glad to hear you have the knowledge of what is going on and can tackle what needs to be done. As for salads there are so many healthy choices that are tasty.
I agree. I kind of wished the doctor wouldnt of worded it like that. Fatty liver due to diet lol. I guess its better it being because of something else, which i didnt know if it could possibly be bc of somethint else. I really do indulge in sweets though, specially in the middle of the night. But it still doesnt really explain why i have always felt so fatigued and tired a good portion of my life. I havent always had fatty liver. Either way, i know eating healthier needs to be done, i geuss its sometimes hard to accept that.
@1in8billion How are you doing today? I am sorry that you have been struggling. So true that sobriety isn’t just about quitting but replacing these habits/ routines with healthier and better ones. I see the positivity trying to ooze out – hope it succeeds. The key I find is to surround ourselves with happiness and laughter (even if its with skits or movies or whatever / wherever you can find it) so that it seeps into us – especially on our down days. You keep fighting for yourself. We all have your back here @heath Lovely to see you checking in and great work on surviving a holiday week! Kee pushing forward and remember that we are all here to support you – ODAAT @billsmafia13 WOOT WOOT – 90 days is amazing work! Great job on your 3 month milestone @seb Oh that is fantastic news! Glad you were finally able to get an appointment booked @just_laura That is a wonderful looking number! Sorry for the night and that is super rude and inconsiderate of that party. Sorry that the dishwashers bounced too WTF! Glad you vented here and felt better with music blasting! Way to take the edge off Fingers crossed that today goes smoothly in all respects and you have a wonderful time! @mrfantastik Sorry to hear about your back! Do take care of yourself – hope it heals up quickly @s_unrelax 30 min a day is a lot! I know I had a hell of a time concentrating or having any motivation at all in the early days. Be gentle with yourself and know that this will not last. You will get your energy and motivation back. 19 days is amazing work @nesh1029 Welcome to the community and the check in thread. Great work on your 3 days of sobriety. Keep pushing forward
I love this! So amazing to see how far you’ve come and I’m glad that you are noticing it too. Congrats on getting the painting done and moving in – a whole new chapter for you
I totally understand being off kilter when we can’t get our morning exercise routine in. Hope that tomorrow starts off with a hike/ run! Way to go with your 8 months my friend @
@stacyann Way to go with your 2+ weeks! I know it may seem like you aren’t changing but believe me – your system is detoxing and healing. Each of us is different on when the outer stuff starts to show. Your skin, sleep and mental health will improve. You will see many more benefits too so please keep pushing forward and fighting for your sobriety @mindofsobermike Glad you got the results and have a plan to start working on it. Like Lea Ann said – many great healthy salad options. Some awesome sugar free sweet desserts too (maybe check out the sugar free thread for some ideas). You got this! @bomdhil Oh dear friend – you are gonna make me cry! Thank you to you! Well done on your 15 days. The anger was a rough bit to get through for me. I noticed that I was able to address it after my months of sobriety. For me my diet fed into the anger (hard to believe but I was eating foods that were too hot for my digestive system – not spicy so much but hot as in creating heat inside) this brought out the anger. I don’t know if you follow ayurvedic practices but trying to find a balance between the doshas (life forces).
Checking in on Wednesday morning…
Glad I got some sleep last night but seems that this fatigue is just not getting any easier. Still dealing with the rest of it too so I am going to do my best to just keep pushing forward. ODAAT! Grateful that I am not reaching for any addictive substances for help.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day - sending you all so much love
Checking in day 16, night 17. Lazy day today. Got kids to school, get back home and went back to sleep. It was needed now I need to get off my ass and accomplish something. House doesn’t clean itself!
I’d like it to go away now please. I’m terribly impatient.
If you say so 
The same thing happened to me with someone who was treating me like shit. I realized how sick they were and instead of letting it get to me, just felt sorry for them. If it does start bothering you, I suggest blocking them, at least temporarily, but just know they say these things to make everyone hurt as much as they do. It is sad 
i am grateful. Feels good to share with my children 
