- Just checking in.
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So like I said, I donāt always accomplish what I set out to do for the day. After back tracking to see where I went off course, it actually sounds insane 
My goal for the day was to set up the tree and decorate. In order to do that, I needed to clear a space. So I sprinkled carpet powder to prepare for vacuuming. While that sat, I figured I should do the dishes. But first, I noticed the dish drainer looking crusty. I took that apart, scrubbed it and the counter underneath, then moved onto the stove(which needed it more that I thought) Some stains on the cabinets caught my eye and I filled a bucket with soapy water, intending to follow up with a coat of scratch filler. Except while I was cleaning them, I found a few loose knobs I thought should be tightened. This led me to tighten everything in the house with screws in it! Ending in my bedroom, I sorted a random pile of clothes, trying on a pair of pants my friend gave me. They were short(typical issue for me 
), but would gain 2" if I unhemmed them, so I obviously did that. By this time, I had to start dinner. I realized I hadnāt vacuumed, so I did while it was cooking. I remembered my daughterās advent calendar that I ordered before Thanksgiving arrived today(2 day shipping my ass 
), so we opened 9 days of surprises! Then she wanted to watch Bean, the Movieā¦and that was the rest of my night 
Never polished the cabinets. Never did the dishes. Never got out ANY Christmas decorations!!! 
Please tell me Iām not the only one whoās brain sabotages them like this 
Now I have to swallow the frog tomorrow.
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Day 25
After noon check-in, Not sleep well yesterday and am planning to sleep sometime, waiting for milk to melt to make a Custard apple shake.
These days Iām smoking more than usual, when I was drinking Iām not smoking cigerates. but when Iām not drink, I used to smoke. I want to quit this habit also, Otherwise I will get addicted to this also. Im realized that I get addicted to everything very fast.
Hope you all doing well and Sober 
@SoberWalker , @JazzyS How are you doing ? 
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Happy birthday Seb 
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You know I need about tree fiddy
One of the best episodes.
On your day of half finished jobs, I can relate! I get in a kind of frenzy when I start with things to do and an empty space to do them. Ends up with the job I meant to do being unfinished too.
I started a little mental hack to deal with it which is to write down the OTHER things I notice on a piece of paper to do them later once the main job is done. Then, when I run out of time at the end of the day I just throw that piece of paper away. If something routinely turns up on those scraps of paper it lodges in my mind and I do it in the end, but most of those little things just do not require doing. Itās an adaptation of a life hack from Atomic Habits which is a great book about this stuff.
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Oh my god! This is me! Hahahaā¦
So relatable!
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@Seb Happy birthday!
@JazzyS believe me I am counting days. 
@Juli1 your goals for next year sound wonderful. 
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That looks much more comfortableā¦ lol.
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Thanks for the birthday wishes @tailee17 @Butterflymoonwoman @JazzyS @JP123 @Just_Laura @GOKU2019 @Dazercat @Raspberry @TeaCosy @Tragicfarinelli
Had a superb day and beautiful night out. Feels great to sit in a pub unfazed by being surrounded by people drinking
Hope I didnāt miss anyone.
Thanks again 
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Hi Sarath, Iām doing fine thank you for asking!
I recognize your story about replacing your addiction for something else. I did so too. And still concider myself as a person who has a senstivity for addiction. I think itās still the brain who wants a quick dopamine fix.
Well done for the 25 days! 
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ā Day 2275 
Overslept myself 
Had set a alarmclock at my watch but didnāt push the activate button.
So had to hurry to my appointment at the compagny doctore, but made it on time! 
Did my grocery shopping afterwards and can relax now.
Removed foto
Picture made during my holiday in France last september. Couldnāt do much because I injured my foot already. This day the weather was fine so I could swim. I was the only one in the pool and the water was only 18 degrees celcius (64,4 fahrenheit) 
But it was fun and I enjoyed the fact that this I could do without pain. I made a picture of my feet when I sat in the sun enjoying the warmth on my skin. When I saw the picture afterwards it made me think of an angel because the shadows in the pool reminds me of wings.
Tomorrow I can see those 2 feet in real life again 
Have a good day ore night all 
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Happy birthday Sebastiaan!
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Cool pic!! Happy for you that youāre almost done counting down!
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Day 285
What the hell is going on in my head at night? 
Then in the morning everything is like, cool, fine, ya, ok.
Iāll clean. Arenāt you supposed to clean before Christmas? Or is that after? 
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Happy Tuesday!
Its a great day to be sober and hangover free!
MAKE IT AN AWESOME DAY MY FRIENDS!
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Checking in on day
580 no alcohol
89 no form of weed
220 nic free
Iām tired
But
Iām allowed to get tired as long as I go to work
Right now Iām just drinking water
Maybe get myself a energy drink later
I left work 1 hour early yesterday
Wife needed some rest so I helped with our baby boy
Iām kinda stressed I think because of Christmas and the cold weather
I woke up early
4:45am to be at work for 7am
Iām happy I did that to get the momentum to get to work
Strange dreams about drinking last night
Maybe feel down Iām fighting a craving for alcohol
Clocking into work
Be back in a bit
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@JP123 Thank you for your kind words. I did a few minutes on the rower and then some stretching. It was more than I expected to be able to do, but also somewhat discouraging compared to what I was able to do a few weeks ago.
@Lighter There are different answers to your cleaning question. My mum would say: Only if you really have to, and only the part of the house the guest will see. My mum in law would say: Cleaning!? Where!? Sign my in! 
@SoberWalker That is a badass modern arts style angle there. Fits you perfectly 
@s_unrelax Looks like you are doing well in early recovery. Most of us find out that we tend to switch one addiction for another one. Mine was food bingeing first, work later. Until you find a way to be in the world and with life without the constant need to run away from it.
384 sugar
248 UPF
4 months gluten
4 months dairy
POTS symptoms are somewhat stable. I feel like last nightās sleep was slightly more restful than the nights before. At least I felt more energetic this morning. I managed to do a modified morning yoga routine and some meditation. I also tried a very light coffee. Iām not sure if this has any impact on my symptoms.
There is not much planned for today. Iāll try to do some simple things around the flat. I have some POTS-adapted strength training planned later. Yesterdayās rowing went quite well. It was frustrating to see how I could row for 30min straight just a few weeks ago, and now I can do 3min slow as a snail. But as we all know: One day at a time.
Todayās picture is some colorful streetart from Ghent in Belgium from last year.
Peace and love for life always 
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Checking in day 828. Mood has been improved the last few days. I finally got back to the gym Saturday after over a month away. Exercise really is one of the cornerstones of my emotional wellness and sobriety. Iām mostly checking in this morning to set the intention that Iāll be back at the gym after work today. Getting back into the routine is the hardest part, but once Iām in the swing of it, it becomes second nature.
Wishing everyone a terrific sober Tuesday 
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Checking in day 267. Have a great week everyone.
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Good morning im Good. Not. Sure how i feel about much of anything last few days i am thinking about leaving again in a few weeks if the price is right then why the hell not im not trying to get depressed and start thinking about suicide again because i know that is where my mind goes i dont think about that is just the way life is. I blame my self .knowing is half the battle lol wish everyone a great day.(Odaat)
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