Congratulations on 500 days @happyfeet 
im grateful we are walking this path together Anne 
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376 days
Slept a little in the morning. Last night was busy. Was the first time I had thoughts of moving from current place of work in the cbd to a quieter posting closer to home with less busy nights. But I love working here and being busy, plus we have a good crew. Iāve only ever moved in my career if I like the crew Iāll be working with, spend too much time at work to spend it with people I donāt get on with.
Iām back on nightshift tonight, my mood is improved though.
Days off tomorrow and the kids finish school for summer
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The Redwings are here from Northern Europe. We have a fair amount of Rowan trees in our playground courtyard and they come early December every year to plump up after their long flight south from the cold and depleted northern berries. I noticed them on the 10th December this year, slightly earlier than last year. Peaceful little birds, happy to sit with Blackbirds and other thrush species in the trees.
I love them, for me this means itās winter and festive. Iāve got my binoculars all ready at the patio windows, as every year Iām convinced I might spot my ultimate UK winter spots: the Cedar Waxwing or the Hawfinch. A Fieldfare or three might also be expected in my local parks, alongside lots of grounded green woodpeckers getting the worms up. Not yet, but Iām patient with ornithology moreso than any other aspect of my life.
Less appealing is the fruit filled bird poop on a white car. Who cares. 
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Super busy day rounded out with Christmas shopping. Felt all warm n fuzzy in the shopping centre when there was a brass band playing carols and seeing so much joy on peoples faces. And another milestone ticked off.
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Congrats 
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386 sugar
250 UPF
124 gluten/dairy
Iām trying to keep a positive mindset, but itās not easy honestly. I couldnāt fall asleep last night for hours cause my feet felt like burning up in pain. It takes me an eternity to wake up and get up and the whole process is so taxing and anxiety inducing. Iām starting to fear everything connected with sleep and bed. After every meal I feel like Iām in a coma. Iām feeling so sorry for myself right now. I know this will pass, I know it will change. I just want to be over with it, done and have a normal life again. So I am going to do what we all need to do: Take it one day at a time.
Peace and love for life always 
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Checking in sober! Packing to head off on holiday with the family for a week, then waiting for extended family to come to ours for Christmas. My dad is also sober so I donāt worry about the Christmas period now that I am free from work!
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Checking in things are going. I got good experience with coming to a new place blind to what i was walking into. As my time ends here i hope a new one opens i dont know the future. And i dont want to live in the past so. Think im going to roll the dice and plan another trip.lol how know guess we will find out hope everyone is staying warm and safe. Have a wonderful day (odaat)
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. So grateful! ODAAT 
Hey all, checking in on day 1642. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Beautiful little birds! Love the coloring on them. Thanks for sharing. It sounds like you have a good hobby!
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They are very sweet 
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I am about to find a video of them I want to hear what noise they make. Have heard of Birdnote Daily?
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It will change Aga. Hopefully soon. Nothing stays the same, and if it does, then we move. Internally, externally or imperceptibly. Iām always impressed by your resolve and stability.
Love and peace 
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Checking in on day
582 no alcohol
90 no form of weed
222 nicotine free
90 days no weed (3 months)
I havenāt been in triple didgets no weed in like 2 years. Not only that but all 3 of my biggest addictions in triple didgets will be a first.
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Hello
I think this is day 3. I think on Monday i felt sick and stayed in bed, and havent left the house since. I work friday-sunday.
Ive been functioning drinking about 4 drinks per night to fall asleep. Usually about 5 dollars a night. Im miserable and not reliable as a person or friend. Idk if im actually sick or not but i physically feel unwell all the time even just from never stretching. Just hate everything and everyone lately and im just tired.
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@laner My goodness -21??? We had one year where I remember temps that low and that was with with chill and I thought I almost died. So grateful that you do have ways to keep you warm 
@mno oh I hate when that happens. Hope you are making it through the day without much effort. Only a few more hours to go
@Just_Laura I did sleep well ā¦best sleep in a very long time. I downloaded the app but not sure how to read it 
. Just gives me a daily number but no comparison or standard lineā¦maybe I need a different app? Good to know that itās rising for a bit 
what a beautiful card and message 
@SoberWalker oh I do hope itās fully healed . So glad that plaster is finally off. 
Some days are like that. These days I just list the basics (things I take for granted) like clean water, fresh air, clothing etcā¦the practice of gratitude starts to take over almost naturally and helps me calm the chaotic part of my day ā¦ weird but it works. Breathe Fionaā¦this time of year is hard enough and we need to practice extra self care and self forgiveness
@seb awesome sauce my friend!! Love it - 10 months and kicking ass 
ā¦ keep fighting the good fight Sebastian
@acromouse I just want to reach out and hug you. This is the worst feeling and it can take over if you let it. I know itās super difficult and the last thing you want to do when you are feeling/ experiencing thisā¦BUT- reach out for positive thoughts, laughter - something to up lift the mood and change the outlook. It will get easier my friend. Have faith and I do hope your day gets better too 
@Noshame those are some amazing numbers! Congratulations my friendā¦ looking forward to celebrating your triple digits of no weed with you shortly ā¦you are doing great
@Minatasha welcome back and great work on your sober journeyā¦each day is a win Iām sorry you arenāt feeling so well. This could be the alcohol or the time of year or? If it lingers, please do go to a doctor. Drinking does make us miserable and sick. The withdrawal leave us feeling edgy and angry. This all will pass as you detox and acclimate to life without alcohol. Take it ODAAT
Checking in on Thursday morning
Enjoying a cup of hot coffee while I catch up here. Had a wonderful night of sleep. Feeling ok ish and Iāll take it ā¦any sign of improvement is a wonderful sign 
Woke up to many beautiful birthday wishes that warmed my heart. Thank you all! Really felt the love
A day of self care and a day just for meā¦gonna play it by ear 
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day - sending you all so much love
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252 days sober
Had a cold but beautiful morning walk. This is always my favorite part of the day whether Iām walking, snow shoeing or hiking just being outside and in the mountains makes me feel at peace. It helps settle my chaotic thoughts. While I walk I can feel the heaviness and tension ease. Itās like a void of darkness lifts and I feel a lightness. I hope that some day this feeling will last. Somedays it passes and the anxiety builds back up once Iām home and need to be still. Other times it lingers throughout the day and I feel hopeful that the anxiety wonāt return. Either way it helps me cope and gives me what I need to feel healthy and to stay sober.
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Iām pretty used to it and am definitely thankful for my house having proper heating now. A few years back I could see my breath inside and itād snow in my kitchen when I cooked. Now itās pretty cozy and only have ice on my windowsā¦biggest compaint is the outside toilet in the winter! Just run in and out.
Hope wherever you are that youāre warm and toasty!
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Good morning. Thinking of you. I care and miss your posts.
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