Thank you for letting us know before you disappear, that will save a lot of concern… Or will it?
I will only speak for myself here: I am torn. On one hand, you have shown and continue to show such steadfast resolve and amazing achievements that I am rock solid in my belief that you are going to be absolutely fine. On the other hand, this disease is so cunning and has tripped us all up so many times.
Needless to say, I am rooting for you and I have confidence in you coming back here as and when things get difficult. I am going to send you my cell number in DM, in case getting back here is ever too big a hurdle to take but you do need to reach out to somebody, right now. I am not doing that in the sense of a sponsor, just a peer who has grown fond of you and wants to help you do well in your journey.
Check-in early morning 7.50am here, I don’t know why I’m very lazy these days to continue my course, but I understand its brain’s trick in the early recovery, I’m lacking motivation and focus. But I realize the purpose and remind my brain all the time and try to push hard.
Hope you all doing well
I’ve appreciated your caring and empathetic replies and posts here on TS Trevor. We didn’t interact much but I do feel how focused you are and that mindset is helpful.
Your account can be made anonymous and you can be cut off from the account so you can’t log back into it, if you like. (Basically it’s not your account any more, it becomes “owned” by the system.) That way your posts - and their insight and wisdom - remain on Talking Sober for others to learn from.
Yes it was really nice! Power outages are pretty common it goes on and off most days so most houses don’t have electricity as the main heatinf sorce. I have a stove I heat with coal (this heats water to run through the radiator) and then sometimes I’ll plug in an electric heater if I need it…mostly for the times I accidently let the fire go out.
It’s currently --21. 50 is warm! The hotest it gets in the summer is about 65f. Lucky if we get above the negatives these days but when we do it’s always for a snowu day
Remind me to remove my phone from my bedroom again. I woke up at 1:30, saw something that triggered me, and couldn’t sleep no more. It’s 5:30 now. It’s going to be a long day, with work first, followed by a restaurant with a bunch of my colleagues. Will see how I fare in 12 hours time. I’m free tomorrow, except for therapy that is.
One thing I am absolutely sure of is that I’ll stay sober and clean today. Using never helped me with anything except to numb and momentarily forget. Never again. I’m going to have as good a day as I can and expect the same of all of you. Love. Pic is more summer memories from Leros
@Rockstar24777 I’m so glad you found it as interesting as I did I can’t believe I didn’t know about this(besides like, altitude sickness), but things make so much more sense now!
@JazzyS Hope you get your good night’s sleep (idk how far shifts in pressure range, but you aren’t that far from me and it’s supposed to rise over the next 24hrs )
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Today was blah. Exhausted all morning. Work was alot harder and longer than I anticipated, but 'tis the season I was also starving today! I ate so much before work, but couldn’t during and came home hangry. In the past I’d have drank my calories after work. No substance or nutrients. Grateful that never crosses my mind as an option anymore
Once home, I opened the card from a member who gives us one every year. It was actually a thank you card that read “…I’m always happier when you take care of us” which instantly made my night! Nice to know that’s how I’m thought of to someone But now I’m beat and headed to bed. Have a great 24hrs!
Slept like a baby. It’s so nice to “not feel” my feet because when in plaster it felt like someone squeezes it very hard 24-7
Now fingers crossed that it’s healed, it has 2 weeks to proove it.
Today? Work.
Have a good day ore night all
@Mno The best thing I ever did for my sanity was remove any and all news-type notifications from my phone. It doesn’t pop up as a notification, it doesn’t pop up on my browser. If I wanna know what’s happening in the world, I need to type it up and seek it out myself. There’s not much we have control over, my friend. But we can control how and when we process information.
Day 698.
Well, the next few days in the run-up to Xmas are promising to be stupid busy. My plan is to work until I hit the bonus and then take January off work to focus on my exams. There’s a lot of studying, a lot of reading, and there are not enough hours in the day.
Days are flowing into eachother and I don’t really feel like I am doing anything. Its taking me 10 or more minutes to think of gratitudes to write down and I’m lucky if I can come up with 3. If I was writing a list of what I am NOT doing - it would be a mile long and I can come up with those in seconds. Why do we put so much pressure on ourselves to be doing things and achieving things. Maybe all I am meant to be doing right now is staying sober and getting over this flu/chest infection. Where is my pink cloud?
The hedonic treadmill theory. We’re always chasing that new something that we think will bring us happiness when really, we have forgotten how much we have already achieved.
Actually a really good reason to keep filling that gratitude list.
But yeah, staying sober and getting over your infection is no small feat either, nothing wrong with making that your main focus and just accepting everything else as it is for now.
I can’t believe I didn’t know about this(besides like, altitude sickness), but things make so much more sense now!
(idk how far shifts in pressure range, but you aren’t that far from me and it’s supposed to rise over the next 24hrs 
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I was also starving today! I ate so much before work, but couldn’t during and came home hangry. In the past I’d have drank my calories after work. No substance or nutrients. Grateful that never crosses my mind as an option anymore 
But now I’m beat and headed to bed. Have a great 24hrs!
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